[Breny]

I just wanted to stop in here and thank everyone. SO MUCH!

You know, its really not getting easier yet. There hasn't been a day yet that I don't tear up, or actually cry. Today its been 15 days.

My step son was on vacation, and was here this weekend. He went to take a bath in "Simon's bathroom", 1st thing he said : Dad, wheres Simon???? (I was outside in the hall) His dad hurried up and said "shhhhhhhhh, Simons gone and we don;t want to upset Breny"

My step son said "what do you mean gone"??? Hubby told him "Simon died"

It was so sad - my step son wanted to make sure he wasn't alone when he died and his dad explained that I held him through it. It was horrible. He's 9, and he was heartbroken.

He wanted to know why he had to die. (I agree)

He asked to see his grave and his dad took him and they stood there awhile and he said "I'm sorry Simon". It was horrible.

Of course I lost it.

I have him under a tree with flowers, just outside my front porch. I needed him close. And I'm working on making him a cross.

I still really, really miss him.