Angel Muffin (Long and upsetting)

[nancyc]

Muffin was a 3 year old 6lb Yorkie boy. (I dont know how to do pics yet)
Everyone loved Muffin and he loved everyone. He was the light of my life and brought me so much comfort and joy.
On January 25, 2005, that evening Muffin was enjoying his chew treat. We thought it was so cute that one of our cats was chasing Muffin and trying to get the treat from him. However, I forgot for the moment that when Muffin ran around like that, his trachea would close and he would cough to open it up. Well, my darling Muffin started to choke, I guess the last piece of the treat got stuck in his closing trachea.
He ran over to me..I picked him up..shook him upside down, pressed on his chest..I did everything but put my fingers in his mouth for fear of pushing it too far. Muffin never closed his eyes. He was limp in a minute. We rushed to the vet where they met us at the door. But it was too late. We went in to say good-bye. I was beyond grief and shock and devastation. I am crying now. I will NEVER accept it or get over it.
We do have little Benji now who my husband felt would make be better. I do love Benji, but I will never be better. When the weather gets warm I will make a rainbow bridge garden for Angel Muffin. I have his urn next to my bed, so I can say good-night and good-morning.
Our babies live on forever in our hearts.
Until I see you again Muffin,
Mommy loves you

[Avery'sMom]

I'm so sorry to hear about Muffin. I can only imagine how hard that must have been. I hope all is going well now. Please stay strong & take care! You are in my prayers.

[aimee]

I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. Muffin sounds like she was a wonderful dog. My thoughts are with you.

[Connie]

Your posting about little Muffin brought tears to my eyes and my heart goes out to you. Yes...our pets live forever in our hearts. I send my sympathy and best wishes your way.

[SoCalyorkiLvr]

I feel your pain in the loss of your beloved Muffin. I am crying as I type for I could not imagine losing one of my babies. I love your rainbow bridge garden idea. That will be a great tribute!

[MamaLuvsFrankie]

I also started crying as I read this. I am so sorry. My heart just broke for you.
I almost lost my Frankie last Wednesday to a rottweiler. I fought the bitch (puns intended), put my hand in the side of her mouth and guided Frankie out. I got him back. I thought he was soaked with blood but it turned out to be saliva from being in her mouth. I felt like I had thrown my child to the wolves. I try not to think about what could have happened because it scares me so bad. I can't imagine what you're going through.[IMG]

[Chelsey]

Im so sorry to hear about ur loss, i can only imagine how devastated u must have been, i know its painful to lose a baby, and i know Benji cant replace Muffin, but i know that in time Benji will bring u much love and joy as Muffin did, time will heal and u will think back with loving memories and the nice things u shared, a rainbowbridge garden is a very nice idea, visiting that erea in ur garden will make u come to terms with the loss, yapper to us about Muffin till ur heart is content we all understand and feel ur grief...
will keep u in our prayers.

[nancyc]

Thank you everyone for your kind words. It is so comforting knowing I can come here to share my memories of Muffin and what happened to him. It breaks my heart that he is not here with me. But it hurts more that he had to go like that. He didnt deserve that kind of death. THAT is what hurts more than anything. It is nice when we can hold and comfort our babies when they go. Not to have to go like Muffin did. Thank you everyone for listening. As soon as I get help doing the picture here, I will send off a picture of my beautiful Muffin..he was the most handsome yorkie boy!!

[DMorgan]

Oh my.... I am so very sorry, and can understand how hard it is to get over something so traumatic, I can't even fathom. My thoughts are with you.

Jeni

[IvyTheYorkie]

Im so sorry to hear about Muffin, losing a loved one is so hard. Your in my prayers and thoughts.

[Bitsy]

OH my....I am so sorry for your pain and grief. These sweet animals are only with us for a little while...some longer than others. Whey they go, however it happens, it hurts so much. I am thinking of you and sending warm thoughts your way.

I hope you are at peace soon.

[Marie]

Im so sorry for your loss. My heart brake reading your story, I just can only imagine how u must feel. Muffin will forever be in your heart and memories.

[kraekerr715]

Now I'm crying. This is so sad. I try to tell myself that when someone we love passes it's because they now get to live eternally with god, and that our time here is short though it may seem long. We will some day reunite. But, this is so sad! I am so afraid of something like that happening to me. I'm so sorry for your loss.

[Sidney]

I am so sorry for you're loss. It seems you can love all you're babies but theres that special one sometimes who just touches you're heart alittle more.

[YORKIEDOGSFG]

I Am So Sorry About Your Loss. This Is The Thing That I Fear Happening To One Of My Babies. They Definatly Capture Our Hearts. My Heart Felt Sympathy Goes Out You.