Tinkerbell's Necropsy

[MiaW]

Hey all - I just wanted to let you guys know that last night (two weeks to the day) the Dr. called and gave me the preliminary verbal reports of Tinkerbell's necropsy. She said Tinkerbell died of brain swelling! She said Tink had fluid in the brain, that it was bigger than normal and flattened. The Dr. couldn't tell or explain why or how this happened, but offered several possibilities, to include heart problems or metabollic disturbance. She said it was absolutely not low blood sugar, as there were no indications of any liver changes. The Dr. was wonderful, spent about 30 minutes with me on the phone and really tried hard to make me feel better. I am so heartbroken - wondering if my baby suffered prior to her death.

I did call the breeder and told her the results and she was so sad for me and said she was so sorry that I had to go through that. She said Tink showed no signs of any illness during the time she was with her. She also said that breeders dream of "parents" like me and that Tinkerbell had the best 10 days of her life with me. Those words were so soothing and comforting, but I still cried a river. The breeder said she knew I wasn't ready right now, but that when I was ready, she would email me pics of a beautiful new baby girl who was waiting for me to start a wonderful life! I'm really confused because I know Tinkerbell can't ever be replaced. I don't know how I will feel with a new baby. Right now I'm not ready. But I do know that when the time comes, I am flying from NJ to Missouri to pick her up and not have her endure such a long flight and layover by herself.

Mia

[txshopper73]

Oh, wow! Well at least you can get some closure from this. Mia will never be forgotten and I know you'll hold her close to your heart.

[LIL MIS' MAGIC]

I am sooo sorry to hear about your little baby!! I hope that this news will bring some closure for you. I am so glad that the breeder is working with you and has a new baby waiting for you. When you are ready I am sure you will be able to share you love with this new baby girl. Give yourself time to grieve first!!

[cchu]

I am so sorry! I sure Tinkerbell was soooo happy the 10 days she was with you. She was a lucky puppy. When you are ready, you will have a new addition that will bring you further happiness. My thoughts are with you and I commend you for being so strong!

[Yorkieluv]

So sorry to hear about little Tinkerbell...Only time will help ease your pain. We will be praying for you, and remember that she is in heaven now.

[prettypuppypink]

I am so sorry about Tinkerbelle. I know she was greatly loved by you. She had the best time of her too short life while she was with you, of that I am sure. I hope you heal and take another puppy from the breeder that will fill you heart with love.
Jessica

[MiaW]

Thank you all for your kind words. I have been just as sad since I received the necropsy report as the day Tinkerbell died. At least I now know that it wasn't low blood sugar and it wasn't something that I did. I really beat myself up for not driving faster to the hospital, for not giving her enough nutrical...but the Dr. told me it there was nothing I could have done to prevent it. I can now begin whatever this thing called "closure" is......on a side note, the breeder has been so wonderful - very caring and concerned. I spoke with her and she said she has 3 new baby girls, but I wasn't ready to talk about another baby right now. She understands and said whenever I am ready I can call her. This week was tough - I got in the mail a few packages of things I had ordered for Tinkerbell - bows, clothes, etc. I miss her so much.

Mia

[Jeniferlee]

I understand doubting your feelings about getting another puppy- I lost my puppy (a shih tzu) when the breeders college age daughter steped on her. I cried and cried for days --until my husband threw the paper at me and told me to find another puppy. I didn't want another puppy- I wanted Gabby! Well that is how I found Macy- thus getting my first taste of a yorkie.
I can't tell you that you won't think about her or still feel the pain of your loss but that bond does come back...Good luck!

[MiaW]

Thank you...that's what I'm hearing, that my heart is big enough for another baby. I'm just hoping the folks on this forum are right about time healing my heartache.

[txshopper73]

Just a quick question...a new member joined us today. Her furbaby has been having seizures. I directed her to your threads as a possible source. They've done liver shunt tests but they've come back clear.

Was this the only seizure that Mia had or had she had others?

[MiaW]

Hi Kimberly - actually, I'm Mia, my baby's name was Tinkerbell )
No, Tinkerbell had not had any seizures prior to the one that caused her death. Depending on the size of the puppy (i.e., a tiny one) the new member should get a tube of nutri-cal from the pet store in the event the puppy's blood sugar level is low. I would take the puppy to the hospital or vet immediately to ensure there is no brain or heart issues like Tinkerbell had.

Mia

[txshopper73]

Originally Posted by MiaW

Hi Kimberly - actually, I'm Mia, my baby's name was Tinkerbell )
No, Tinkerbell had not had any seizures prior to the one that caused her death. Depending on the size of the puppy (i.e., a tiny one) the new member should get a tube of nutri-cal from the pet store in the event the puppy's blood sugar level is low. I would take the puppy to the hospital or vet immediately to ensure there is no brain or heart issues like Tinkerbell had.

Mia

Sorry, Mia...that makes twice tonight I've screwed up names.

I believe that she's done that with the nutrical...but would have to ask. I also referred her to Texas A&M since they have a veternarian school there with the most up-to-dates in everything. Thanks for taking the time to answer. I hope that she finds her answers soon.

Rest in peace, Tinkerbell.

[MiaW]

No problem...we'll blame it on the late hour!! Well, I hope her baby is taken care of right away so that she never has to experience the grief of losing her. If there is anything I can do, please let me know.

Mia

[txshopper73]

Originally Posted by MiaW

No problem...we'll blame it on the late hour!! Well, I hope her baby is taken care of right away so that she never has to experience the grief of losing her. If there is anything I can do, please let me know.

Mia

I pm-d her this thread and one other of yours. I'm sure that she'll pm you when she gets the chance to read them.

Thanks again!

[luvmymonkies]

Mia, I am so sorry for your loss of Tinkerbell. I just lost a little girl of my own last week, so I can understand your sadness and needing a break to grieve. I am not trying to steer you in any direction, but my Maddie left behind one puppy when she passed. I have to say that knowing that I have her to care for and look forward to, really does help ease the pain...even if it's just a little. I know no other puppy would ever be able to replace Tinkerbell, but just think that there is another puppy waiting for you that you will be able to give a wonderful loving home to. It breaks my heart knowing that you've received your little "gifts" for Tinkerbell during this hard time. It was hard seeing Maddie's clothes and toys around the house too. Just try your best to stay strong and know we are all praying for you. Sending you a big hug.

Heather