Isabella said her final goodnight!

[yorkiefan_]

I'm so sorry you lost Isabella. Please don't feel weird about it hurting so much; I was completely crushed when my yorkie Minnie died in May. Talking really does help, especially when it's to a community like this one where lots of us understand how much your pup means to you. This board really picked me up when I couldn't even sleep a second for two days after losing Minnie.

[Kaoticly_Jolie]

Thank you. It has helped. She was the sweetest little thing. She would always "yell" at her sister if she didn't think she was showing the proper attention to me getting home. She was a shadow. There was no where she wasn't with me except work and the shower. She always thought if it was good enough for momma than it had to be for her too. She loved to run. She didn't like to fetch. Not when she could yorkie destroy the object. Bella was a kisser, she didn't meet anyone she didn't want to kiss. She just had to make sure everyone's nose was clean.

[anniernc]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby girl. She was beautiful.
Don't even give a second thought to people who can't understand. They eventually have never shared the love of a wonderful animal. My brothers and sisters are all like that and I just ignore their hateful thoughts and words. All of us on this forum do understand the heartbreak your going through and we're here for you. Rest in Peace sweet baby.

[matese]

I can feel your pain, I had to PUT DOWN my sweet baby girl Oct. 2013 , she was 16 y/o.....No.....it is NOT less painful because you have an older dog and you any day could be the last day.....My lil girl was hospitalized for not eating issue and diarrhea, for 6 days (a tech would call every day at 11AM with progress of the dog) for 6 days I got nothing but good reports, dog would be coming home in a day or 2. I would visit her every day, she was loosing a lot of weight each day that I saw, yet, the tech had all positive reports. Day 7 visiting time was 1PM, 10 AM I had to stop off at a friends house for something, I had just arrived at their house, had just gotten out of the car, was about to the bell, my cell phone rings, I see its the vets office, 10:15AM and they are calling me? my heart sank to my stomach, I answered the call, the tech says to me "come and say your good byes, you need to put her down" I was in shock, all good reports, then this call, I have to end her life? I was screaming into the phone no no no , I cant do it, I could not believe what I was hearing. My friend came out because of my screaming, in a nut shell, ny friend had to drive me to the vet, I could not stop crying, sobbing, I got to the vet, I took my baby to the car to spend private time with her, loving, hugging, kissing, whispering in her ear, momma loves you. She was whimpering from pain, I had to end that pain, I went back inside and said I was ready, I held my baby in my arms, kept whispering in her ear momma loves you, the tech gave her the injection that ended her life, and I went to pieces. The pain in my heart true PAIN was over whelming. It is still so fresh in my mind. So I say to you I FEEL YOUR PAIN. I have to post this scared I have written to much and will loose this

[matese]

I have had several dogs That either died at home, died while hospitalized, or I held them and were injected and their life was ended. It NEVER gets EASY, it always feels like your heart has been ripped out of you. And YES I have had non pet owner (co workers) that could not understand how a person can get sick, depressed, take time off from work OVER A ANIMAL. ppl like this have to be ignored, My babies were like my children, my family, close friends knew this, yet, they did not know the pain of loosing a pet, but they supported me. Ignore those that do not understand, cry, sob, grieve. You are NOT WEIRD, crying, talking will not take the pain away, but it will ease it a bit. No words can be said to will lesson the pain. Isabella will remain in your heart forever. And so TRAGIC that your dads dog died 2 days before, a horror, unbelievable, I have no words to express my SHOCK, my heart goes out to both you and your dad for these tragedies. Please stay strong, your other baby will feel your pain and she will also suffer the loss of her sister, she may also get depressed, not want to eat, my sulk, not be her normal self. I say this because in 2005 I had 2 yorkies I called then ROADWAY where one was the other was right behind her, they were ALWAYS TOGETHER, I had to put the older one down in 2005 the younger one (that I just put down in Oct. 2013) mourned the loss of her sister for 7 months, thank god she finally, slowly became her old self, but it took time. Be strong for your other baby, they sense when you are unhappy or sad and pick this up. God bless both you and your dad, I am so very very sorry that you both lost your much loved best friend.((hugs)) to you both.

[Kaoticly_Jolie]

Thank you Matese. I am sorry for your loss too. Your post brought me to tears but for once not over my Bella. Yet for your little one. My other yorkie is acting normal unless she is in the space her and her sister spent most of their time with me. Than she is wanting more attention, which I am giving. Or she will bark for her sister. If I am crying she tries to lay down on my head or at least cuddles to my neck. Unfortantly the ones acting like I am weird are dog owners. Have lost many dogs, yet don't understand my pain. That is why I have turned to this board. I believe now yorkies are God's special angels sent to those of us who have been deemed worthy of having an angel in our mist. My angel just completed her job and was called home. If I don't look at it that way I get angry.

[CouversMom]

I am so very sorry for your loss.

RIP Isabella

[yorkietalkjilly]

Originally Posted by Kaoticly_Jolie

Thank you Matese. I am sorry for your loss too. Your post brought me to tears but for once not over my Bella. Yet for your little one. My other yorkie is acting normal unless she is in the space her and her sister spent most of their time with me. Than she is wanting more attention, which I am giving. Or she will bark for her sister. If I am crying she tries to lay down on my head or at least cuddles to my neck. Unfortantly the ones acting like I am weird are dog owners. Have lost many dogs, yet don't understand my pain. That is why I have turned to this board. I believe now yorkies are God's special angels sent to those of us who have been deemed worthy of having an angel in our mist. My angel just completed her job and was called home. If I don't look at it that way I get angry.

Dog owners are not the same as dog lovers, which is mainly whom you will find on this forum. Most of us here are crazy about our dogs and love them as family members. Take it hour by hour and grieve all you need to.

[Kaoticly_Jolie]

Thank you Jilly. It helps that everyone here sees the grief over Bella as a normal thing. Unfortunately right when I am in the mist of the grieving I scold myself due to what those who say this isn't normal have said to me. But coming here has helped. I have tried family members suggestions of trying to find another dog. I have looked at nine different puppies. Not one has meshed. I don't know if it is cause I am not ready or because when I look at these puppies and their parents I see a careless breeder. I say careless simply because none have been breed standered. They were breed because they were a family pet that they wanted to have a litter from. Or to make money. I know both Jolie who is still with me and Bella took me a while to find. I am willing to wait for the right dog to come into my life again. Not to rush simply to easy my pain. Some breeders I have spoken to feel that any yorkie you get will mesh with you no matter what. I have always felt that the dog picks you not the other way around. These breeders I have talked to that have pups on the way feel if you want a certain sex and that one is available than whither or not you two mesh that is the one for you. Maybe I am just being picky or maybe I am not ready for another baby to come into my life but I feel to just place a puppy with someone cause they have the money is wrong. It's not good for the puppy or the new owner. I don't know am I wrong.

[joannscpo]

So sorry for your loss.

[yorkietalkjilly]

Well, if you still have a dog to help you through this, that's everything. After I couldn't foster dogs anymore, I stopped having but one dog at a time and after I lost each of my Yorkies, unfortunately I didn't want any other dog - I just wanted my baby back. But I waited too long after each Yorkie died before getting another for sure - over 4 years after each of my Yorkies died and it was a mistake to wait that long. It was needless loneliness as I would have accepted any little Yorkie after a few months if I'd only taken the chance. I love all dogs and don't think I could have found one that I wouldn't have meshed with or come to adore, even if it took a few weeks. But still I waited to get another each time and shouldn't have. But since you have a sweet dog already, I'm sure it will be a bit easier since you aren't completely dogless and without a cold nose and waging tail to cuddle with and won't be so totally lonely for one!

Those friends or family that are kind of scoffing at or judging how you feel now just don't know any better and haven't had the close, special relationship of a dog or they would completely understand your grief. What others say about your grief isn't important unless you allow it to matter to you and they don't have to understand everything you feel. Your nerves are just raw so it's obviously bothering you now but you'll probably come to see one day they just don't love dogs in the same way you do. But true doglovers know profound grief over a beloved dog's death is completely normal.

[matese]

Originally Posted by Kaoticly_Jolie

Thank you Matese. I am sorry for your loss too. Your post brought me to tears but for once not over my Bella. Yet for your little one. My other yorkie is acting normal unless she is in the space her and her sister spent most of their time with me. Than she is wanting more attention, which I am giving. Or she will bark for her sister. If I am crying she tries to lay down on my head or at least cuddles to my neck. Unfortantly the ones acting like I am weird are dog owners. Have lost many dogs, yet don't understand my pain. That is why I have turned to this board. I believe now yorkies are God's special angels sent to those of us who have been deemed worthy of having an angel in our mist. My angel just completed her job and was called home. If I don't look at it that way I get angry.

Sad to say recalling that day made me sick and cry while I was telling you my story, I loved that lil girl maybe more then I should have, but that's how I am with these sweet little babies, I know the severe, true PAIN in my heart that day, so I know what you are going through. Yes I to have friends that have DOGS, and they are treated like DOGS, not abused, but not over loved like we do with our yorkies. When I had to put my beautiful girl down I swore no more babies for me, I am getting older, the pain I suffer is to great, to over whelming. The day after I put my sweet girl down I gathered what ever was laying in view and took it to the no kill shelter in my area, for several days I packed up everything I had from this girl and things I had from my other babies, coats, sweaters, harnesses, leashes, tons of toys, canned food, treats, anything and everything dog related, it took 3 trips in my pick up to the no kill shelter and a 5 foot long kiddie pool, my yorkies LOVED water, LOVED their kiddie pool. For 3 weeks all I did was cry, I made a little memorial of her most favorite things, donating all that I had for her and what I kept from my other babies was not to erase her and other 3 babies, I donated to poor abused babies that needed what I was NEVER going to use again. I missed my baby more then I can say, I was now 1000% ALONE, I had 4 dogs at one time, each one that went to rainbow bridge I still had more at home, this was the last of my brood, another reason I took her loss very hard. Now I was totally ALONE. (ppl I would meet would ask "do you live by your self or say do you live alone" I would say NO, I live with my yorkie) this was the first time I was yes alone, the house felt so empty, my heart was dead, I could not drive, I was a hazard on the road, my mind would drift to the day I got that call to come say my goodbyes, I had to put her down. (sending before I loose this)

[matese]

I would have to pull off the road cuz I was crying. So I did not drive unless it was absolutely necessary....... 3 weeks after loosing my baby, I received a call, my son died in his sleep, heart attack, 50 y/o not married, did NOT have a heart prob. I went into total shock, my son lives 2 states away, I have no family or friends that live in my state, in a hazy fog I laid my son to rest. 3 weeks and 2 loves in my life gone, I cannot tell you how alone I felt, yes out of state family & friends called, emailed tried to comfort. 6 weeks after putting my lil girl down my vet called me, she said they just took in a surrendered 2 y/o yorkie, male, neutered, micro chipped and house broken, she said there's something about this dog that reminds me of your little girl, I told my vet I didn't want another dog, can no longer handle loosing them, and I would never take a male dog because they mark every thing, my vet said some neutered do not mark, some do, I asked what the dog had that reminded her my girl, she said his ears (my girl had BIG beautiful stand up ears) again I told my vet no more dogs, she said, just come to see him. Out of respect for my vet for her thinking of me when she saw this yorkie I agreed to see the dog. I did this because I am VERY WEAK when it comes to yorkies, (I cannot / will not go into any place that sells dogs because if there is a baby yorkie it comes home with me, that's how I ended up with 4 babies) but knowing I would NEVER have a male dog I knew I was safe to see the dog, I did it for my vet. Long story short, I saw the dog, and left with him. I adore him, he is MORE then just SPECIAL to me, he has made my HOUSE a HOME again, he is my sunshine on cloudy days, he gave me back my life and love in my heart, he RESCUED me, not me him. He is very smart, cuter then cute, very well trained, came to me SPOILED ROTTEN (and I love it) I spoil him even more, I owe him my life. He gets me through some really hard days, he never leaves my side, follows me where ever I go, when he hears me crying he jumps on my lap snuggles against my chest and licks my face and brings back my laughter. I tell you this so you will know I feel the pain of anyone that has loved and lost their yorkie, and yes, I believe they are gods little angels. ppl that know me know I LIVE for my yorkies, they are # 1 in my life, they come before me, although they have and care very much for their dogs its not to the extreme of me. But that's ok, they still support me. This new lil boy will have a wonderful love filled life, filled with lots of fun and adventure. He is my first boy, and we are going to have a awesome first summer together. Life is good, I have love in my heart again. I am happy to know your other baby is spunky and not pining away, it made me sick when mine was mourning the lost of her sister. My work kept me out of the house 16 hours a day, reason I could not get her a new sister, we just got closer another reason loosing her was very over whelming. Again I am so sorry for your loss, and the pain you are going through.((hugs))

[yorkietalkjilly]

Joan, your tragic story of losing both your babies within such a short time and so alone yourself but for your remaining dog is heartbreaking! I honestly don't know how you made it through such losses so close together. To lose your son so young and so suddenly has got to just take the life right out of you and all of that right after losing one of your precious furbabies.

It sounds as if that little orphan Yorkie male was your life-savior and helped you cope with all that pain and loss. I'm so sorry you are going through such loss in your life but you sound as if you've made it this far due to a tough and courageous spirit. My, we have some incredible ladies on this forum, ladies who find a way to persist and walk on, never giving up on life!

[matese]

thank you jilly, it's my new lil boy Cody that saved me, 22 days after loosing my son, my aunt that raised me suddenly passed away. 3 deaths in 7 weeks, cody pulled me through, I had so much tragedy happen in my life in just a few weeks, honest truth is I don't know how I did all that had to be done, I thank GOD that I had Cody when my aunt passed away, Cody's surrender, my adopting him the day after the prev. owner gave him up, I believe was GOD'S plan. Cody is a true blessing, I adore him and intend to give him an awesome life. Thank you for your kind words, I am happy with my lil boy, he gives me belly laughs every day since I took him home, it is wonderful to laugh and be happy again. the 6 weeks that I first had to put down my last yorkie, and 3 weeks later losing my only child, were 6 worst weeks in my entire life, 6 weeks of crying and asking the lord why, why 2 that meant more to me then anything in this world. 6 weeks of being 1000% alone. It was for me horrifying, cody has taken that all away. Its mystifying how a 10 lb bouncing ball of fur can give back life, happiness, joy, love, I am sure you have seen GOD spelled backwards spells DOG, they are forgiving, unselfish, pure of sin, loves you unconditionally, faithful to the end. What more can I say, your are a yorkie owner.