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I would have to pull off the road cuz I was crying. So I did not drive unless it was absolutely necessary....... 3 weeks after loosing my baby, I received a call, my son died in his sleep, heart attack, 50 y/o not married, did NOT have a heart prob. I went into total shock, my son lives 2 states away, I have no family or friends that live in my state, in a hazy fog I laid my son to rest. 3 weeks and 2 loves in my life gone, I cannot tell you how alone I felt, yes out of state family & friends called, emailed tried to comfort. 6 weeks after putting my lil girl down my vet called me, she said they just took in a surrendered 2 y/o yorkie, male, neutered, micro chipped and house broken, she said there's something about this dog that reminds me of your little girl, I told my vet I didn't want another dog, can no longer handle loosing them, and I would never take a male dog because they mark every thing, my vet said some neutered do not mark, some do, I asked what the dog had that reminded her my girl, she said his ears (my girl had BIG beautiful stand up ears) again I told my vet no more dogs, she said, just come to see him. Out of respect for my vet for her thinking of me when she saw this yorkie I agreed to see the dog. I did this because I am VERY WEAK when it comes to yorkies, (I cannot / will not go into any place that sells dogs because if there is a baby yorkie it comes home with me, that's how I ended up with 4 babies) but knowing I would NEVER have a male dog I knew I was safe to see the dog, I did it for my vet. Long story short, I saw the dog, and left with him. I adore him, he is MORE then just SPECIAL to me, he has made my HOUSE a HOME again, he is my sunshine on cloudy days, he gave me back my life and love in my heart, he RESCUED me, not me him. He is very smart, cuter then cute, very well trained, came to me SPOILED ROTTEN (and I love it) I spoil him even more, I owe him my life. He gets me through some really hard days, he never leaves my side, follows me where ever I go, when he hears me crying he jumps on my lap snuggles against my chest and licks my face and brings back my laughter. I tell you this so you will know I feel the pain of anyone that has loved and lost their yorkie, and yes, I believe they are gods little angels. ppl that know me know I LIVE for my yorkies, they are # 1 in my life, they come before me, although they have and care very much for their dogs its not to the extreme of me. But that's ok, they still support me. This new lil boy will have a wonderful love filled life, filled with lots of fun and adventure. He is my first boy, and we are going to have a awesome first summer together. Life is good, I have love in my heart again. I am happy to know your other baby is spunky and not pining away, it made me sick when mine was mourning the lost of her sister. My work kept me out of the house 16 hours a day, reason I could not get her a new sister, we just got closer another reason loosing her was very over whelming. Again I am so sorry for your loss, and the pain you are going through.((hugs))