I will never survive this heartbreak

[sandy simpson]

John you are in my thoughts and prayers today. Yorkies are family and it breaks our heart to see them go. My little Teddy Peanut left us at 10 yrs. I still cry thinking about him but that is what happens when you love so much. We grieve and hurt. I waited and then got JoJo. Now he is not Teddy but he brought a lot of happy moments back into my home.
May you find comfort in the memories Elvis left you and when you take that heart hurting to Jesus He will send peace and comfort to you. He did for me when I was so sad.

[stormchaser]

Originally Posted by john8074

I cant even talk about it but my 10 year old male yorkie elvis died last week of kidney failure and I just want to die as well. he was my everything

I truly know exactly how you feel I also lost my Roxee last week she was 9 years old and I raised her from 7 weeks. my heart is torn into I never knew someone could hurt like this. I truly believe its a lose that you can never get over my heart and prayers go out to you may God Bless you.

[BELLBELLBOO]

I would feel the same way ! There is nothing i would not do for my baby bella! Not saying that your baby can ever be replaced,but have you thought of getting a new baby to love ! There are lots of little yorkie babies out there....i would buy every one i could get my hands on just for my wife if i clould ! Lol good luck ! Your elvis was a lucky puppy ! And you as well to have elvis !

[baileyz]

I am so sorry for everyone's loss of their beloved pets. We lost Beanie (our dachshund 14 1/2 yrs old) due to heart failure. It is hard to lose a beloved member of the family. For me the I took the grief and we planted a memory garden, with flowers and a statue of a dachshund. We can go sit there and remember our little man.

[MauiGirl]

John and Mahmouha, I just want to send prayers, comforting thoughts and hugs to you both. The pain you are both feeling is tremendous, and it will take some time to begin to heal. I know, as I've been there.

I do believe that your precious pups are watching over you from heaven and wishing they could comfort you. They will be waiting for the day that you are together again.

Just take one day at a time, and check in on Yorkie Talk when you can. You will find many members here who love their pups just as much as you do, and fully understand how they are such a big part of your lives.

[Lisa and Pic]

I am so very sorry for your loss. Sending deep sympathy and cyber hugs...

[john8074]

Mahmouha

Stay in touch i know you are hurting too. All these wonderful people out here have been a huge help for me. Just worried about you.

[Mahmouha]

Oh John, I am so touched. You remembered me amidst your pain. I hope you are doing better. I could not communicate with anyone. I felt suicidal, I know I sound like a looney.
I feel like I have a dagger in my heart... The world suddenly is no fun, I have no urge to get out of bed. Tootsie made me want to do things. I am so lonely. I preferred spending time with her than anyone else, I had stopped going to the movies because she is not allowed. I only went to restaurants that allow her in. My life will never be the same without her. Sorry, I guess this is not helping. I hope we both get over this pain.

[Doodlebug]

I am so sorry that you lost your babies. I have lost dogs before and i know the pain. But I get a stab of pain in my heart at just the thought of losing my precious Yorkies. They are 9 and 10 now and I know that God only lets us have them for a short time. I know the time is too short. Try to find comfort in the happy times. You know your pups would want you to be happy. Hugs to both of you.

[Foster Mom]

I am so very sorry for you both. I lost 2 of my kidz in 6 months to Renal Failure. The one I knew was coming and she decined very slowly, the other was my little guy i rescued the day before they were going to put him down at the shelter. We spent 9 wonderful months together and he started not acting right so I took him in for bloodwork, his BUN was 167 and is other numbers were off the charts, we opted to let him go. Still reeling and it has been 7 weeks

[Mahmouha]

Doodlebug & Foster Mom. Thank you both. This forum has helped me a lot. Each message comes with a strange soothing effect. Thank you thank you thank you.

[yorkiefan_]

Originally Posted by Mahmouha

Oh John, I am so touched. You remembered me amidst your pain. I hope you are doing better. I could not communicate with anyone. I felt suicidal, I know I sound like a looney.
I feel like I have a dagger in my heart... The world suddenly is no fun, I have no urge to get out of bed. Tootsie made me want to do things. I am so lonely. I preferred spending time with her than anyone else, I had stopped going to the movies because she is not allowed. I only went to restaurants that allow her in. My life will never be the same without her. Sorry, I guess this is not helping. I hope we both get over this pain.

You're not a looney for being deeply hurt by losing such a great friend. Or maybe if you are, then I am too, because losing Minnie was the lowest of lows I have ever felt. I know how crushing it can be to see your pup extremely sick, then do a huge 180 and look great, and then turn downhill fast. With Minnie, she was vomiting and on death's door one morning, we got her into the vet for 2 nights of IVs and the day after we brought her home she looked amazing and about 85% of normal, so we were hoping she just got poisoned by something (e.g., eating a poisonous toad or maybe the wrong plant), so that she would recover (our vet said is was possible, though the more likely explanation was that her kidneys were failing -- he was right ). And then the next day she went downhill, nosedived the night after, and died the following night. And there was nothing we could do about it (we were in the vet's office and the ER almost every day that week). Saddest moment of my life was bringing her body back home from the ER; I have never cried like I did then.

Yorkietalk was one of my rocks to lean on though when I felt like I was going to fall over from the pain. I mean nothing whatsoever cures the sadness, but at least coming in here and reading about everyone who has loved a pup the way we have brought a little happiness to me. I hope it can for you in this most difficult of times. Hugs, and please try to remember all the great times you had with Tootsie. I know it's so hard not to see the end in your mind right now (I would constantly see Minnie in the seizure that killed her), but please try to fight through that to see the good times. If something I remembered made me just want to break down and cry, I would, but then I'd remember a happy memory after.

[Mahmouha]

It is consoling to know that someone understands what I am going through, though deep down I do not wish for anyone to feel that way. Minnie's episode is very similar, when Tootsie got her blood transfusion she was better for a night, she started following me again and licking me. You are right I can only remember the sad sad moment when she was in pain, when I kissed her to bury her. I watch our photos together to remember her as she really was, trying to re-live the fun times we shared. May you have as much peace as you managed to give me. Thank you for all the effort you put in this when you yourself are in pain. At least no one can take the memories away, these will live forever.

[lisaly]

I am so sorry for the loss of all of these precious babies. I lost my little girl, Ashley, three years ago close to her seventeenth birthday. I don't think I'll ever stop missing her. It is almost ten years since her two sisters passed away, and I love and miss them so much, too. It will always hurt, but the far greater loss would have been not to have them in our lives. My husband and I talk about our precious Kiwi, our little love bug Gracie, and other little love Ashley, and their sister Jolie before them all the time, and a feeling of overwhelming love overtakes our hearts. This love will always remain in our heart, since love lasts forever. I hope the time comes for you like it does for us where the memories bring you smiles. I understand how deep your loss is, and I understand and care very much. Each oe of our babies are unique and are irreplaceable. However, after two lonely years without a little one in our lives, Katie joined our family, and she has completely stolen our hearts. She has brought life into our lives and such happiness. I know the pain of losing my other little ones will always remain, but I guess I prefer it this way than having a love that was not as intense or everlasting. I promise that it will get easier for you. It helped me a lot to remain part of this community for those two years after we lost Ashley, and I hope you stay.

I found this thread therapeutic when I lost Ashley. It's difficult to do, but it might help you.
http://www.yorkietalk.com/forums/mem...yous-lexi.html

[Mahmouha]

Oh Lisaly. This is beautiful. Yes, I want to thank Tootsie 10 times:
1- Thank you Toots, for stealing Charley my husband's heart and making him love you the way he did. You treated his Germaphobia!!!
2- Thank you Tootsie for being house trained so fast, using the flap from the first go, I never needed to apologize on your behalf.
3- Thank you Toots for attending the meetings and gaining all clients love.
4- Thank you Tootsie for taking me to walks and always looking to see if I am fine and following.
5- Thank you Tootsie for enjoying our bike rides and the wind your hair.
6- Thank you Tootsie for licking my tears when I was sad.
7- Thank you Tootsie for preferring to stay next to me when was ill rather than going out and having fun.
8- Thank you Tootsie for allowing me to brush your teeth and groom you so often.
9- Thank you Tootsie for being such a wonderful travel partner and an airplane sweetie.
10- Thank you Tootsie for playing ball just to make me happy even when you were not interested.

There is so much more to thank you Toots for .... you made my life worth living. We were inseparable. Aaaaaaaaaaah I love you soooo much. Aaaaaaah I miss you so much.