I am so sorry for the loss of all of these precious babies. I lost my little girl, Ashley, three years ago close to her seventeenth birthday. I don't think I'll ever stop missing her. It is almost ten years since her two sisters passed away, and I love and miss them so much, too. It will always hurt, but the far greater loss would have been not to have them in our lives. My husband and I talk about our precious Kiwi, our little love bug Gracie, and other little love Ashley, and their sister Jolie before them all the time, and a feeling of overwhelming love overtakes our hearts. This love will always remain in our heart, since love lasts forever. I hope the time comes for you like it does for us where the memories bring you smiles. I understand how deep your loss is, and I understand and care very much. Each oe of our babies are unique and are irreplaceable. However, after two lonely years without a little one in our lives, Katie joined our family, and she has completely stolen our hearts. She has brought life into our lives and such happiness. I know the pain of losing my other little ones will always remain, but I guess I prefer it this way than having a love that was not as intense or everlasting. I promise that it will get easier for you. It helped me a lot to remain part of this community for those two years after we lost Ashley, and I hope you stay.
I found this thread therapeutic when I lost Ashley. It's difficult to do, but it might help you.
http://www.yorkietalk.com/forums/mem...yous-lexi.html