Still very sad

[chellabree]

I saw a man with a little Yorkie today and it brought back so many memories of my baby Oscar. It's been almost 5 months since we put him to sleep and I am still so sad when I think of him. I heard a song the other day that I used to sing to him and dance with him to and I balled like a baby. (It sounds cheesey but the song was True Blue by Madonna) I used to pick him up and dance around the room singing it to him. So when I heard it all of those memories came rushing back and I got so sad. I miss him so much and I know the pain will go away, it's just still so hard. Just needed to vent a little, I know so many others on here have dealt with loss and can understand how I feel.

[Tae1107]

My thoughts are with you..... and yes I know how you feel It has been a year this month since I lost my Peppy and I still miss him....

[boopster]

The pain never completely goes away, does it? I still have "AHA" moments when the phone rings and I pick it up expecting to hear my mom on the other end - she died in 1994. Or something happens and I think to myself that I can't wait to tell my dad -- but he died in 2005. With pets, it's even more subtle -- you hear the sound of dogtags, toenails tapping on the floor, or just walking in the back door and you suddenly expect to be greeted by your dog.

But I can tell you that as time goes by, the sad moments come less and less often, and more of the time you can think about your lost loved ones with a smile. Now excuse me while I go home and hug my dog and my boyfriend (probably in that order) and remind myself to count my many blessings instead of my losses. Some days that's not so easy but we all just do the best we can, don't we?

[chellabree]

Thanks guys, I try not to dwell on the sadness, but sometimes it just gets the best of me. I do have some great memories of my little man, I just feel like he didn't have enough time on this earth (he was only 2 when we had to put him down) and I think that makes it hurt more. Knowing that he never got to live a long happy life.

[Princes mom]

Originally Posted by chellabree

Thanks guys, I try not to dwell on the sadness, but sometimes it just gets the best of me. I do have some great memories of my little man, I just feel like he didn't have enough time on this earth (he was only 2 when we had to put him down) and I think that makes it hurt more. Knowing that he never got to live a long happy life.

That's how I feel about Prince...he was only six when he passed on October first. Here it is another Friday and another week of his passing. I used to love Fridays, but now they are a sad reminder. It is getting a little better for me, but as you know, this healing is a really slow process.
One thing for certain is that this site has really helped me a lot, and I thank Prince for that. If it weren't for him, I would not have met such wonderful people.

[zowiandnikasmom]

Originally Posted by chellabree

Thanks guys, I try not to dwell on the sadness, but sometimes it just gets the best of me. I do have some great memories of my little man, I just feel like he didn't have enough time on this earth (he was only 2 when we had to put him down) and I think that makes it hurt more. Knowing that he never got to live a long happy life.

i understand completely! the tears just keep coming and i wish my little baby nika wouldve had more time with us too. maybe the comfort of her having a long happy life would have made things easier for me too. we lost her after only 6 years, but forever wouldnt have been long enough. its been almost 3 months and the tears still come every day. seems like i miss her more and more. sending you a hug!

[chellabree]

Originally Posted by zowiandnikasmom

i understand completely! the tears just keep coming and i wish my little baby nika wouldve had more time with us too. maybe the comfort of her having a long happy life would have made things easier for me too. we lost her after only 6 years, but forever wouldnt have been long enough. its been almost 3 months and the tears still come every day. seems like i miss her more and more. sending you a hug!

It does seem like it might have been easier if they had a long happy life. But I know that the time I had with him was amazing as I'm sure yours was too. A funny thing happened the other night. My husband and I were sitting on the couch watching tv, the cat was sleeping on the chair and all of a sudden a picture I have of Oscar suddenly fell off of the shelf it was on. It wasn't even near the edge. I think it was his way of telling us that he was here with us and ready for Thanksgiving. It was strange but comforting at the same time.
Hugs to you as well, hoping your heart starts to heal. Just know that they are always with us even when we think they aren't.

[Donnainohio63]

I am so sorry for all of your losses. I too lost my Sophie Lynn a little over a month ago. Today I was out shopping and as I was driving home I thought about her and started bawling like a baby. Sophie and I had a song that we danced to also , it was California girls. I do not care if anyone thinks it is corny or not, she loved to dance, do everything with Mommy. I have to new puppies and I love them so much but they do not replace my baby girl.

[Vinniedoggy]

We had to put our Guru to sleep this past summer and even though he was 17 years old (not a Yorkie, but a mutt about the size of small golden retriever) and had an awesome life, it was still one of the hardest things we ever had to do. I really think that our only savior was bringing home Alex that same week (we were already in the process of adopting Alex because we knew Guru was nearing the end).

Here's how I look at it - we all know that we will likely live longer than our pets and, therefore, I try to live each day with a "no regrets" sort of attitude. I do my best to give them the best possible life possible, whether that's just spoiling them rotten, taking them on trips, or just having fun with them. That way, when the end does come, I know that I have done everything in my power to give them a good life. In some small way, it helps me get through it. I was worried we would never get past Guru's death; while it's still sad sometimes to think about him and look at his pictures, it's easier than it was initially. And I know we gave him an awesome life, and that makes it all feel worth it.

Also, whenever I lose a dog, I immediately adopt another one. It is something my family has always done, because our feeling was always that if we could help another little dog find his "fur-ever" home, we should do it. It's the best way to honor the memory of a beloved lost pet (IMO).

[lisaly]

Your post brought tears to my eyes and an ache in my heart. I'm so sorry you lost your little boy, especially since he was still just a baby. No matter what age they are, it hurts so much. I completely surrendered my heart to my little angels immediately after bringing them home. They bring us so much happiness, love, laughter, and life. It's no wonder why it is so devastating when we lose them. I really hope the pain eases for you, and I understand how you feel. My little girl, Ashley, passed away in June shortly before her seventeenth birthday. I know I had a long and beautiful life with her, but you can never be prepared to lose someone you love so dearly. I hope the memories of little Oscar bring you much joy also because each time you think of him you celebrate the life you shared together and how special he was. Certain things become triggers for me also. Although it seems my world lights up when I say hello to a dog I've never seen, if I see someone that I used to see when I walked Ashley daily in my neighborhood, I sometimes break into tears afterwards. I loved your story about Oscar's photo. I believe you are right that they are with us always. I know from losing Ashley and her sisters before her, they will forever occupy a beautiful place in your heart filled with such infinite and everlasting love.

[lisaly]

I, too, have those "AHA" moments, as Boopster described. My mother passed away when I was in college over thirty years ago, and losing her still causes me pain. Although I don't ever forget after all these years that she is no longer physically with me, it took a long time for that to happen. I dreamed of her every night for over twenty years. We were very close, and a love and bond like that can never be broken, not even in death. I think it shows us how powerful love is and how it lasts forever. With our babies, because they love so unconditionally, we completely let our guards down and love them so completely. That love endures the passage of time and remains with us forever. I feel an ache in my heart when reading about the pain that others are feeling. I empathize and identify with how you are feeling. I have appreciated the support that I have had from so many people at Yorkie Talk. When I come here, I know that there are others who understand why it's not easy to move on, even with the passage of time. People here understand that we love our babies with all of our hearts, and they are not "just a dog." Those words are an oxymoron to me. I have so many "AHA" moments with Ashley. It is still very difficult for me trying to adjust to life without her. She was my heart, and although she was still active and mostly healthy, she suffered from CCD (CDS), a doggy Alzheimer's. Our world revolved around her and she required a lot of care. I know she is no longer physically with us, but it has happened on many occasions that I've come home from work and my mind would flash to the feeling of walking into my home and running to her. Almost instantaneously I remember that she won't be there, but it hurts a great deal. I am sorry for the losses that you have had to endure. Even with the pain, I know our lives have been enriched so much by our precious babies and it is worth the suffering that we go through when we lose them.

[FlDebra]

I am so sorry you are still feeling the hard pain of your loss. I know what you are talking about. Sometime it is the smallest thing that triggers a particularly sweet memory and the tears well up. The thing that helped me the most was getting another litte girl yorkie. I had a male, Ben, and my son's Jack Russell, Candy, but I still missed having my girl, Sadie. She was the sweetest of the bunch and the one that was always on my lap. My new puppy, Annie is filling such a big part of that void left when we lost Sadie. I will always miss her and no other pup could replace her but it sure has helped me to have Annie here. Sometimes you just need an outlet to let the love spill out. It may not be the right time for you yet, but when you feel ready, another Yorkie can really help with that heartache. I think it is a great way to honor their memory. Praying for your comfort, peace and serenity.

[MauiGirl]

Our precious fur kids do mean a lot to us, and losing one is really really hard to deal with. When my dog Sachi died 2 years ago I was surprised at how devastating it was (had never lost one before), she was only 8 and not sick. I cried so much, for so long, and went thru so much anger and depression. I knew I had to have another pup, not a replacement, but something new and cuddly to hold and to love. That's when I got my Yorkie Tiki, and then 3 months later got Meika, and a year later Kayla and Karlee. I still miss Sachi, but the 4 new furry loves fill my life with so much joy.

[chellabree]

Thank you everyone for your kind words. I really do want another Yorkie. I think I might wait a while since I have a baby on the way and I am due in just a few weeks. Once the chaos of having a newborn wears off then we can think about getting a new puppy. I will definitely get another Yorkie some day I love them so much. They are truely amazing dogs.