Your post brought tears to my eyes and an ache in my heart. I'm so sorry you lost your little boy, especially since he was still just a baby. No matter what age they are, it hurts so much. I completely surrendered my heart to my little angels immediately after bringing them home. They bring us so much happiness, love, laughter, and life. It's no wonder why it is so devastating when we lose them. I really hope the pain eases for you, and I understand how you feel. My little girl, Ashley, passed away in June shortly before her seventeenth birthday. I know I had a long and beautiful life with her, but you can never be prepared to lose someone you love so dearly. I hope the memories of little Oscar bring you much joy also because each time you think of him you celebrate the life you shared together and how special he was. Certain things become triggers for me also. Although it seems my world lights up when I say hello to a dog I've never seen, if I see someone that I used to see when I walked Ashley daily in my neighborhood, I sometimes break into tears afterwards. I loved your story about Oscar's photo. I believe you are right that they are with us always. I know from losing Ashley and her sisters before her, they will forever occupy a beautiful place in your heart filled with such infinite and everlasting love.
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