1 week already :(

[yorkie_mama22]

Originally Posted by chandracz

Hi, checking in on you today to see how things are?

Thanks for checkin in, I am getting by. Been keeping myself busy cleaning and sorting through old clothes which should of been done ages ago! I have been working a bit more as well and planning my daughters 3rd birthday party which is next weekend so the extra hours are helping and sure help to keep my mind off her. I also have been spending more time training my bullie and she is just about fully house trained now, she has got the sit and stay command down good and is really improving with her listening skills, I am very impressed. I even brought her over to my moms yesterday to play with her boxer which they did, she is a big suck though. We didn't let her play with my moms yorkie because my moms yorkie was not fond of her AT ALL and would not stop barking and snipping at her so Annabelle stayed inside!

It's very hard, our family feels incomplete and we are still thinking, missing and talking about her very often. Two weeks on Monday, it seems like forever she's been gone already but it doesn't feel "as bad". It just feels like she is close by still, It helps to get through the days. I don't know if I will ever get over it, I bet I will find myself talking about her just as much I still catch myself sayin I have a yorkie when I talk to people, I just don't know how deal with that so I guess time will only tell.

[brownminerva]

Hello:
I know the pain you are going through and how thoughts of Stormy bring many tears and much misery now. This takes time to work through but it is hard to get over this as everything you do seems connected to the passed pet somehow. I could not walk down the street where I walked my furbabe, or go to a hotel or park that she had come to with me without the tears. But the pain does lessen and the tears are more sweet and gentle with time. When I had the strength I collected photos, collars, her tag etc and mounted them in a frame. It is a great comfort to have all these things that remind me of the good times with her, and the memories help me think of her in a nice way.
After several months I feel I can get another pet and give her the love I gave to my dear one that is here no more. But this took time to accept another pet into my empty heart.
So remember the great and loving times you had with Stormy. He is frolicking over the Rainbow Bridge and happy and at peace.
Sincere condolences and take heart, you will be able to accept what happened and move on when you have worked through the tears and unhappiness. For now, let the sadness come out as it is quite normal and necessary for healing.
Warmly,
One who has been there.

[jmdt]

Oh I am so sad for you and your loss of little Stormy. She was an angel and is an angel now. What a sweet little one. You know time will help your heart heal, but it so very hard. I will keep you in my thoughts. Rest in peace sweet Stormy we all miss you very much baby. You will feel a little better when you make your little memorial garden. That sounds so sweet. Stay strong and God bless.

[mjharpst]

Originally Posted by sleeplee337

Is this the same Stormy who had the accident with the Nair?

Yes, RIP Stormy!

[chandracz]

It sounds like you're holding up pretty well! When my first yorkie candy died I stayed in bed for 3 days... Although I didn't have a child to care for so i'm sure that would've made a difference. I pray for you and think about you. Stormy is running around at the rainbow bridge with Candy and she is your angel now! Stay strong! Time will only help you feel better

Originally Posted by yorkie_mama22

Thanks for checkin in, I am getting by. Been keeping myself busy cleaning and sorting through old clothes which should of been done ages ago! I have been working a bit more as well and planning my daughters 3rd birthday party which is next weekend so the extra hours are helping and sure help to keep my mind off her. I also have been spending more time training my bullie and she is just about fully house trained now, she has got the sit and stay command down good and is really improving with her listening skills, I am very impressed. I even brought her over to my moms yesterday to play with her boxer which they did, she is a big suck though. We didn't let her play with my moms yorkie because my moms yorkie was not fond of her AT ALL and would not stop barking and snipping at her so Annabelle stayed inside!

It's very hard, our family feels incomplete and we are still thinking, missing and talking about her very often. Two weeks on Monday, it seems like forever she's been gone already but it doesn't feel "as bad". It just feels like she is close by still, It helps to get through the days. I don't know if I will ever get over it, I bet I will find myself talking about her just as much I still catch myself sayin I have a yorkie when I talk to people, I just don't know how deal with that so I guess time will only tell.

[yorkie_mama22]

Originally Posted by chandracz

It sounds like you're holding up pretty well! When my first yorkie candy died I stayed in bed for 3 days... Although I didn't have a child to care for so i'm sure that would've made a difference. I pray for you and think about you. Stormy is running around at the rainbow bridge with Candy and she is your angel now! Stay strong! Time will only help you feel better

Thank you, some days are easier then others. Today is two weeks and last night I had another dream about her, in my dreams it looks EXACTLY like her and it almost feels like it IS her coming to see me. Again in my dreams she "came back to life" only to "die" again, it is so horrible and I can remember crying so much in my dream. It was nice to see her in my dream though, if that is the closest I get to "holding and seeing" her, at least I get to some how. My anxiety level is so high at times I had small attack while I was driving the other day. I used to have lots of anxiety issues for a few months until I got Stormy. She helpd with them alot but with her problems constantly I would worry extra all the time. It was all gone for a few months and now I can feel it coming back. I just can't get over the fact I will never see her again for a long long time

[brownminerva]

Hi Again:
Good that you are keeping in touch and hanging in there and sharing your feelings. All you are going through is so familiar to us who have lost pets, the dreams, the desperation the sadness - they are all there.
I too am a usually anxious person and my little furbaby kept me calm and happy most of the time. Since her loss I have had a broken heart and know something very important is missing in my soul. My anxiety has also come back to add to the pain.
Again I am hoping that if I get another pet it will make me feel semi-whole again.
May your memorial garden help you and comfort you.
Hugs and prayers to you and your family.

[chandracz]

Your dreams sound like what I have of my brother! He is alive in the dreams and then he dies towards the end or is dieing. I have sometimes woken up and wished to go back to the dreeam because it's the only way I get to see him, so I can empathize with you! Maybe it's time to consider another little yorkie? Is the other dog trained enough for that yet?

Originally Posted by yorkie_mama22

Thank you, some days are easier then others. Today is two weeks and last night I had another dream about her, in my dreams it looks EXACTLY like her and it almost feels like it IS her coming to see me. Again in my dreams she "came back to life" only to "die" again, it is so horrible and I can remember crying so much in my dream. It was nice to see her in my dream though, if that is the closest I get to "holding and seeing" her, at least I get to some how. My anxiety level is so high at times I had small attack while I was driving the other day. I used to have lots of anxiety issues for a few months until I got Stormy. She helpd with them alot but with her problems constantly I would worry extra all the time. It was all gone for a few months and now I can feel it coming back. I just can't get over the fact I will never see her again for a long long time

[starr728]

Oh bless your heart I read what I could of this forum...the tears kept falling fast and it was hard to read a lot...I feel for you on your loss and you will be in my prayers! Rest in peace Stormy!

[yorkie_mama22]

Originally Posted by chandracz

Your dreams sound like what I have of my brother! He is alive in the dreams and then he dies towards the end or is dieing. I have sometimes woken up and wished to go back to the dreeam because it's the only way I get to see him, so I can empathize with you! Maybe it's time to consider another little yorkie? Is the other dog trained enough for that yet?

To be honest with you and be 100% honest, I really don't think my dog is dangerous or that she would hurt another dog. Yeah this probably will come off as "irresponsible, stupid, and whatever other rude name any1 can think of " but this is how I truly feel. I can't say for certain that she did hurt Stormy or that Stormy just didn't die of something else. I really can't. The more time that has went by I just can't see this dog hurting her! She did kinda try playing a bit rough with Stormy but it just isn't clicking to me. She may of jumped on her and hurt her that way but why would she have died so suddenly? I don't know. I really think that maybe she was stressed out and may of had a seizure. I don't know, it just seems SO much alike to the seizures she had at home before. I was gone that WHOLE weekend and only saw her about 1 or 2 hours each day besides sleeping. And again on Monday I was out for most of the day, I haven't been gone from the house like that since I got her besides when she was at the vets. So it may very well of been a very stressful time for her watching me be gone for almost 3 days by herself at home with everyone else but me.

Jeez I sort of went off sorry. I feel that my current dog may be okay with another dog at home but I am just not ready YET. I'm thinking a few more months. I don't know it's funny that I am more worried about what people on here will say to me then bringing a dog home.

We are planning on moving right now, we are looking for a place. We are actually going to look at a place in about an hour and it sounds just perfect I hope it will work out. And maybe if it does work out and we get settled into the new place I may look to rescue another yorkie. I don't think I want to get a puppy, I probably would want to adopt an older female again. I know in my heart I am a great yorkie owner, and I know I am very responsible and I can handle it, I will just wait and let the perfect baby find me, whatever happens happens! Some people rush and get another dog quickly, which may be right for them, even after a terrible accident or however they may of passed. I am just going to let God and Stormy send me a baby when they want. I think I will know it's "the one", I am sure Stormy will let me know!

[jmdt]

You will know when the time is right. You will feel it. Life is too short to worry about what others think. You do what you have to do. There are many people here who are worried about you and want you to be happy. Don't even worry about the negative people. They are out there no matter what you do. To not have another baby in your life would be a shame. You have much love to give another baby. Stormy will always be your baby no matter what. I know you will give another little one a great life. When you are ready it will happen.

P.S. Your avitar picture is precious.

[yorkie_mama22]

Originally Posted by jmdt

You will know when the time is right. You will feel it. Life is too short to worry about what others think. You do what you have to do. There are many people here who are worried about you and want you to be happy. Don't even worry about the negative people. They are out there no matter what you do. To not have another baby in your life would be a shame. You have much love to give another baby. Stormy will always be your baby no matter what. I know you will give another little one a great life. When you are ready it will happen.

P.S. Your avitar picture is precious.

Thank you so much, I thought it was just perfect for her, and it is very similar to yours!

Its so nice to have such great supporting people, I wouldn't be able to go through this without you guys. I went and looked at the place and it is just PERFECT! Stormy would of loved it so much, I hope we can get it, we will find out in the morning. It has an amazing yard and the lady was so nice, I told her about the garden I would do and there is a perfect spot for it. I really hope it works out. It would be so good for us and I can't wait to get out of this place, the memories are all negative and we need a fresh start and hopefully good things will keep coming our way and one day send another precious yorkie baby my way.

[chandracz]

You know in your heart what is right and DO NOT let others influence your feelings and decisions!!! You were a darn good mama to stormy and to the dog you have now! You know in your heart what happened to Stormy and you are the one who is around the other dog, so you know how it's personality. You also know what it feels like to lose a dog, so you won't put a dog in harms way. So turn a deaf ear to what others say!

Good luck on your move. You will know when the time is right to rescue the perfect little one! I'm sure Stormy will be whispering "mama she's the one"

Originally Posted by yorkie_mama22

To be honest with you and be 100% honest, I really don't think my dog is dangerous or that she would hurt another dog. Yeah this probably will come off as "irresponsible, stupid, and whatever other rude name any1 can think of " but this is how I truly feel. I can't say for certain that she did hurt Stormy or that Stormy just didn't die of something else. I really can't. The more time that has went by I just can't see this dog hurting her! She did kinda try playing a bit rough with Stormy but it just isn't clicking to me. She may of jumped on her and hurt her that way but why would she have died so suddenly? I don't know. I really think that maybe she was stressed out and may of had a seizure. I don't know, it just seems SO much alike to the seizures she had at home before. I was gone that WHOLE weekend and only saw her about 1 or 2 hours each day besides sleeping. And again on Monday I was out for most of the day, I haven't been gone from the house like that since I got her besides when she was at the vets. So it may very well of been a very stressful time for her watching me be gone for almost 3 days by herself at home with everyone else but me.

Jeez I sort of went off sorry. I feel that my current dog may be okay with another dog at home but I am just not ready YET. I'm thinking a few more months. I don't know it's funny that I am more worried about what people on here will say to me then bringing a dog home.

We are planning on moving right now, we are looking for a place. We are actually going to look at a place in about an hour and it sounds just perfect I hope it will work out. And maybe if it does work out and we get settled into the new place I may look to rescue another yorkie. I don't think I want to get a puppy, I probably would want to adopt an older female again. I know in my heart I am a great yorkie owner, and I know I am very responsible and I can handle it, I will just wait and let the perfect baby find me, whatever happens happens! Some people rush and get another dog quickly, which may be right for them, even after a terrible accident or however they may of passed. I am just going to let God and Stormy send me a baby when they want. I think I will know it's "the one", I am sure Stormy will let me know!

[chandracz]

You know in your heart what is right and DO NOT let others influence your feelings and decisions!!! You were a darn good mama to stormy and to the dog you have now! You know in your heart what happened to Stormy and you are the one who is around the other dog, so you know how it's personality. You also know what it feels like to lose a dog, so you won't put a dog in harms way. So turn a deaf ear to what others say!

Good luck on your move. You will know when the time is right to rescue the perfect little one! I'm sure Stormy will be whispering "mama she's the one"

Originally Posted by yorkie_mama22

To be honest with you and be 100% honest, I really don't think my dog is dangerous or that she would hurt another dog. Yeah this probably will come off as "irresponsible, stupid, and whatever other rude name any1 can think of " but this is how I truly feel. I can't say for certain that she did hurt Stormy or that Stormy just didn't die of something else. I really can't. The more time that has went by I just can't see this dog hurting her! She did kinda try playing a bit rough with Stormy but it just isn't clicking to me. She may of jumped on her and hurt her that way but why would she have died so suddenly? I don't know. I really think that maybe she was stressed out and may of had a seizure. I don't know, it just seems SO much alike to the seizures she had at home before. I was gone that WHOLE weekend and only saw her about 1 or 2 hours each day besides sleeping. And again on Monday I was out for most of the day, I haven't been gone from the house like that since I got her besides when she was at the vets. So it may very well of been a very stressful time for her watching me be gone for almost 3 days by herself at home with everyone else but me.

Jeez I sort of went off sorry. I feel that my current dog may be okay with another dog at home but I am just not ready YET. I'm thinking a few more months. I don't know it's funny that I am more worried about what people on here will say to me then bringing a dog home.

We are planning on moving right now, we are looking for a place. We are actually going to look at a place in about an hour and it sounds just perfect I hope it will work out. And maybe if it does work out and we get settled into the new place I may look to rescue another yorkie. I don't think I want to get a puppy, I probably would want to adopt an older female again. I know in my heart I am a great yorkie owner, and I know I am very responsible and I can handle it, I will just wait and let the perfect baby find me, whatever happens happens! Some people rush and get another dog quickly, which may be right for them, even after a terrible accident or however they may of passed. I am just going to let God and Stormy send me a baby when they want. I think I will know it's "the one", I am sure Stormy will let me know!

[yorkie_mama22]

Originally Posted by chandracz

You know in your heart what is right and DO NOT let others influence your feelings and decisions!!! You were a darn good mama to stormy and to the dog you have now! You know in your heart what happened to Stormy and you are the one who is around the other dog, so you know how it's personality. You also know what it feels like to lose a dog, so you won't put a dog in harms way. So turn a deaf ear to what others say!

Good luck on your move. You will know when the time is right to rescue the perfect little one! I'm sure Stormy will be whispering "mama she's the one"

Thanks so much!! Unfortunately it fell through! We will have to keep searching, she had an offer and we gave her another offer but then someone gave her another one and I really don't feel it is worth that, I could find a house with at least another bedroom for the price the ppl offered her so it obviously wasn't ment for us! OH well The search continues!! hehe