My dream with Minnie

[YorkieShadow]

I know you all are probably so tired of hearing/reading my sadness. and I don't mean to put sadness on your hearts. But it does make me feel so much better to be able to share.I still don't know how or if Ill ever feel better. this had been so hard. and I miss my little Min Min so very much.I hope and pray that some day all this sadness heartache will leave me and that I will only have the good memories of my baby girl Minnie.

Monday 2/2/09 My first dream about Minnie. 24 days after my loss.

I was in a line there stood a man. It was a line where people could hold their loss pets one more time. There was two ladies in line in front of me. one wore jeans the other gray sweets. I looked over at Minnie and I thought I heard her snoring, but the man said no these dogs are dead. when each lady got to the front of the line, they had to take off their jeans/sweets. I don't know why. I wore my jammies so I didn't have to take off mine. when I got to the front of the line was still behind the tied off rope, the man put a paper plate one on top of Minnie and one under her and then put her in my arms. not sure why the paper plates, my thoughts were so we wouldn't feel the coldness in their little body's. Once he put her in my arms, I was back in my living room. I saw my couch where I last held her. I walked over and laid down with her, the bottom plate fell off her and I removed the top plate. I laid her in my arms and I reached out to touch her, she was stiff and cold. I just looked at her and started praying, God please give me my min min back Please, I said this over and over. I felt her body begin to soften and felt the warmth return to her body, I watched as her chest and stomach raised to let in the breath of air. I looked at her little face as she opened her eyes and looked back at me. all of a sudden she jumped up. I kind of sit up and she stood up against my chest her front paws on me chest and her little stub wagging a mile a minute. she was licking my face my nose, I could feel the wetness with each lick. her fast soft gentle strokes kind of sloppy , oh how I remember those same licks, so different from any other dogs licks, she was so excited to see me and I was so so happy to see, feel her baby once again. I ran my hands through her hair and ruffled it all up while she just kept licking my face. I could even smell her.Oh I loved that feeling. I then looked up and shouted Thank you god Thanks you.I remember thinking in my dream that I must tell everyone, I must tell all the nonbelievers, for now they will all believe.I could not wait to call my daughters and my sister Patsy to share my happiness with them.to wait for my son and husband to wake up so they could see her.I was so happy my heart felt so light and so good. then I went to move and I woke up. I still had the biggest smile on my face. but I could feel it slowly fade. It was a dream, yet It felt so real. Ill never ever forget that feeling of my baby girl in my arms again, the excitement in her beautiful eyes, the feel of her beautiful silky soft hair, her smell.. if only for a few minutes. it Was the best dream I have ever had. now awake I'm so sad once again, my heart is broken and the tears return. but I still have that warm feeling of my baby in my arms and her tongue on my face, and I don't think ill ever forget that it was so very real. I don't know if dream means any thing or not, But I thank God above for giving me those few minutes with my Min Min .

[Gypsy & Me]

I want to post... I just don't know what to say... I'm so so sorry. Your dream brought tears to my eyes.

[littlewhip]

Awww I know how your feeling sweetie , My heart is breaking for you, Iam going thru my loss of my beloved jasper, he went home to the angels the day after thanksgiving, I will always remember that day Its so so painful, I have my dreams to and they seem so real and its hard when you wake up and realize its a dream I put all his memories away, One day, I dont know when, and i dont know how, but i know our time will come when we can look and smile and not cry and feel so sad when we think of them, My thoughts and prayers are with you ....

[maxmom]

..........beautiful dream, you did get to hold her,and to kiss her one more time, perhaps He did answer your prayers..

[Patti]

I am glad your dream gave you a few minutes with Minnie. My heart goes out to you

[Doodlebug]

It seems like little Min Min came back for one last visit. I love how those little kisses felt so real. I know that was sweet while it lasted. Please don't feel bad about talking about Minnie, I think it helps your healing to share your love with your little loved one with others. I appreciate your stories and your love for your baby. It makes me think of the love I still have for the ones I have lost and how after time has gone by, I still miss them but the memories are more of the happy times we had together. Just thinking of them brings a smile to my face now.

[sleeplee337]

I still dream about my little guy...I never dreamed about anything or anybody in my life like I do about him. I really believe they are visiting us...letting us know they are okay. And please keep posting...we all know how much it helps...this is the place to do it..
God Bless You and your family...hugs to Mickey...I hope he is doing okay too.

[ltret0294]

Although Annie was not a Yorkie, there was a dream about a month after she died on 2/27/08. We laid Annie to rest because of spinal degenerative disease that can occur in shepard type dogs. Her last weeks she could not walk more than 10 feet without falling over or squat to go potty. In the dream she went bounding out the front door to say good bye to my wife's lady friends who were leaving after a visit. It was so vivid and clear. One last good bye to say that she was well and healthy again. I think of her and the two yorkie boys alot. Til we meet again kids.

[Lucia]

This bought tears to my eyes.....I believe that when we dream of loved ones who have passed, it is their way of letting us know that they are ok on the other side. Sounds like little Min Min knows how much she is loved and missed - and was 'checking in' to make sure you're ok xxx xxx

[ging4444]

I understand how you are feeling. It has been almost a year for me and I am still having a hard time. Sometimes I just can't stop the crying. I made a big album of all Teddy's pictures with little things like poems and sayings and locks of his hair. I have a heart locket that says "forever in my heart" and I put a lock of his hair in there and I wear it always. I also took all his pictures and made a movie. Just do whatever you need to do to give yourself some comfort. I know the movie took me forever to get just right but it was something that helped me to grieve. My heart just breaks for you, I wish I could give her back to you.

[jfalz73]

If you feel the need to talk about your Minnie, you go right ahead. We all understand. Most of us have felt this same kind of pain at one time or another. In time you WILL be able to just think of the happy memories of her and not so much the pain of losing her. God Bless you and i will keep you in my prayers for peace in your heart...

[hugz4all4]

what sweet dream ..my heart is breaking for you. . Im so sorry for the loss of your little Minnie. I will continue to keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. ((hugs))

[Lexi Rae]

you have me crying here at work. i know how hard it is for me to read
these things and i tortue myself all the time.. im so sorry for your pain.
my heart just bleeds for you...

[NewYorkieLover]

I, too, am crying as I read your post. My heart also breaks for you and your unimaginable pain.

All of the things I have heard that mesh with my beliefs say that when you have a dream that is so vivid and so real, and that you remember with such clarity, it is not a dream. It is an actual visit. Your Minnie may have visited you to show you she still has that same great love for you and that it will never go away, and that she is healthy and happy and not hurting at all now. She will be waiting for you and you will see her again one day.

[celstu1]

I am sitting at work and I read your dream, it brought tears to my eyes. Min min was a special girl, that a really great dream but I can see how it can leave you feeling more sad when you woke up. Its like waking up to a nightmare after a dream like that. My first yorkie died suddenly also. He was not even 5 months old. I left for work, he was fine! I got home from work he was covered in pee and vomit. He was sick. I rushed him to the er vet immediately but it was too late. He died less than 20 mins after I got there. Come to find out at some point he ingested rat poison. I have NO idea how. It remains a mystery to this day to me. This was 3.5 years ago and I still have a hole in my heart. You keep coming back and keep letting out your grief. I pray that you find peace eventually in what happened. I am happy for you that you got those few peaceful moments in your sleep to say a proper goodbye and get a proper goodbye from your baby girl. (((HUGS)))