Its only been a day but the pain won't go away.

[spikecarson]

hi, if it helps to know i'm crying with you....still over my little man, spike. i cannot stop...i try to do something like rake leaves or play with my other dogs and then i cry...it just won't stop so i know exactly how you feel.. it may sound nutty but i started reading about dogs and NDE's (near-death experiences) that people have and many of the people who've had an NDE are greeted by not only relatives but firstly, their beloved dogs... all who have had dogs in their life say that one of the first beings to be with them when they "die" is their pet(s). then of course the person doesn't die, they "come back" to their body and are not afraid to die as the know they will be eternally with their pets and family....it's just comforting to read although nobody truly knows. i don't know what else to do with my devastation besides cry...i also just keep thinking if i made the right decision that nite instead of trying to hook him up to fluids and drugs and things to help....but the tumor in his chest i know was so very big and his fever was so very high, if not that nite then maybe the next nite would have been his last...
I hope in time you feel better....17 years of a dogs unconditional love is amazing. just know many folks are thinking about you at this time. jg - spike's family

[fab1835]

Hi,

I'm so sorry for your loss.Toby;s photos are so beautiful.I especiaally like the one of him with his blue blankie.We lost our yorkie Jingles in Febuary to collapsed trachea.He was 2 months shy of 6 years old.Jingles is dearly missed,liked your Toby.Try to focus on the good times.

Mary Anne

[fab1835]

Hi,

I'm so sorry for your loss.Toby;s photos are so beautiful.I especiaally like the one of him with his blue blankie.We lost our yorkie Jingles in Febuary to collapsed trachea.He was 2 months shy of 6 years old.Jingles is dearly missed,like your Toby.Try to focus on the good times.

Mary Anne

[PANAMA69]

Those pictures are priceless!

[SophieRose]

I am so sorry to read about Toby. The ache will lessen but the memory is forever. Bless you, Deborah

[dcapper]

Again I want to thank everyone for their kinds words and well wishes. On a sad note its been a week tonight that my little buddy left us. We are getting his ashes back tomorrow or Thursday. But with all the strength everyone gave me on here. I no longer cry when I see his pics. I just smile and think of how lucky I was to have him for so long.

Love you all

Derek

[chestermama]

Thanks for the pictures, he was a handsome boy, Im so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine a day without chester.

[Lexi Rae]

again , im sorry for your loss, im about to cry. i feel so terrible for you.
may god help you heal your broken heart.. im sending you lots of hugs.

[no1baggage]

hi again , just wanted to see if you are feeling any better today, keep thinking about you and hope you are coping pauline

[wvmomof3]

my heart breaks for you......... Toby was gorgeous and so very loved. I can't imagine the heartbreak you are feeling. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

[yorkie_mama22]

Toby is very handsome, I just looked at all of his pictures and he has the cutest little face ever. I am so sorry for your loss.

[Xaleia]

Bless your little Toby. I too am in tears reading this. I lost my Leilauni last Thanksgiving. I had to put her down and held her as I did. She was only 11.. heart problems...blah blah..other issues. I'll never forget that and not sure I'll ever get over it. But I can look at her pictures now.... and smile at the sweet little person she was.
My thoughts and prayers are with you. A year later I have Marley to help fill the void. He can never replace my Lei or my Cassie... but he does bring me laughter and happiness. My Corkie who is 12 hates him..LOL but I'm hoping someday they will bond.

Anyways..know ..that we feel your pain and know how hard it is.

/hugs

[shazier2000]

[quote=dcapper;2339944]Again I want to thank everyone on YT for the well wishes. I am struggling so hard to deal with the loss of Toby. Everything is so empty in my life. I have everything I could ever want, but one thing. That hole left is so big I don't know if I can ever fill it. So I just wanted to upload my favorite pics of Toby.

RIP Toby
17 years of you can never be replaced.[/quote

Hi, I am new to YT and came here last mth looking for info on enlarged heart but didnt post. MY baby was also called toby and i feel so sad and sorry for you. My toby was only 12 and i was so desperate to try and save him, but after the vet told me, he only managed to carry on for just over 2 wks, he didnt respond to treatment, there was nothng more they could do. I had to have him put to sleep, he was suffering and now im suffering with the guilt. Like you I am devasted it all happend last mth and was so sudden,i want to give you a very big hug (........hug.........) I have however got 2 more pups, i only went out for 1 and couldnt pick between the 2 oh im so soft. I can say it has helped me in the way that, i am not sat dwelling and crying all day long, the pups dont allow me to, but they will never replace him, you cant replace a pet you have lost,never ever will i forget toby,and nor will you. We will think about the happy times we shared when the pain starts to ease and, it is a time thing.
i havent forgotten my pets that have past away, they will always be in my heart and i will always have moments where i will get tearful. I cant talk about him yet without breaking down but, it is getting a little easier especally during the day with the new pups. I have something eles to focus on. Getting another pet isnt for everyone straight away but for me, it helps and is something ive always done. I do normally give myself a little bit more time than i have this time though, but i wouldnt part with them now for the world and there wearing me out lol I also have a 16yr poodle that i adopted and I another yorkie called pip who was brought up with toby, they were never apart,she really grieved badly to. She is now playing with the pups and bossing them around, she was second in line toby was the boss. I am thinking about you and feel your pain,I really am so sorry for your loss.x

[dcapper]

I'm sorry to hear about your Toby. Sometimes we try everything and can't do anything and feel so useless. We worked so hard with Toby over the years and he always responded. This time we couldn't do anything for him. I wish we could have done more too but unfortunately it was him time. Its been almost 3 weeks and it still hurts inside and I really don't think I'll ever be the same as I was while he was alive. I think about him everyday and will always. I'm sure you'll be thinking about your Toby as well. Maybe they're at the Rainbow Bridge playing together. RIP Toby's

[yorkieusa]

I'm so sorry to read about Toby. He was absolutely precious.