Originally Posted by Cookie2 (Post 2918649)

Thank you, thank you guys for continuing to help look.
Today is my actual birthday and I do feel very down.

Originally Posted by Cookie2 (Post 2916442)

Tonight we went on a wild goosechase. A woman called me at 10 pm telling me to please go to this plaza because she saw a little yorkie running through there. Well I just didnt buy it and I asked her at least 3 times " Are you sure it was a yorkie??" She told me 100% it was a tiny yorkie, she ran to get it but it kept running, it went behind the store into some bushes .She said she would NOT have called me but she read my story in the newspaper article and said she knew how much he meant to me. So she rushed home to get the newspaper and my phone number was there. Its only like a 3 min drive there. I looked like a crazy woman!! I was in PJ's with the headphones and listening device calling out Cookie's name and my husband on the other side doing the same.We walked and walked all the parking lot for over an hr. I hope someone in the parking lot saw this dog and took him until the morning. I told her that I have had 3 calls from people finding a small dog but they drive off and called me. The dog will NOT be sitting there waiting for me when I get there.


Today I had to follow through a very tough decision. My husband and I talked for a long time this weekend and Jasper had to be taken to the Foster house. They are trying to get him a family with no pets and kids are a plus. He loves kids,playing all day but he is very controlling when it comes to getting anyone's attention. He was double and triple the size of some of the dogs here and he would run them over if he knew they were coming to me. I heard what I thought was a squeek toy and it was Monica being squished by Jasper.This was my plan from the beginning and I knew what was right. I just did not want him in a pound. I tried talking to the yorkie rescue here and his size is a real issue so she was honest and told me the chances of him getting adopted were slim but if he was in a foster home with bigger dogs, his chances were way better. This place needs a lot of help. They are accepting donations to be able to build a big facility at that location to be able to have 40 dogs roaming free. They dont have them in crates there. There were sections ,small gated yards with smaller dogs, puppies. I know this place needs help and I'm going to bring some help for the holidays.
They need toys, towels, detergents like bleach, bowls, and lots of towels!
They are nonprofit so all this is run on donations.

This entire ordeal has taken me through so many experiences. Today I also got a call from someone that has my flyer and is a groomer. She has a client that needs to get her yorkie a forever home because of husband's job change. I didnt even want to go see this little guy because I just fall in love and feel sorry for them. Well I told her I would go and take pictures and try to find him a home. I get home and the phone rings. A rescue calling me to tell me that a family with a 30 yr old daughter just diagnosed with MS is looking for a small yorkie for her. I 3way called the groomer who is taking care of the yorkie and they set up to get this little guy. The man thanked me so much for doing this.
The yorkie is 6 months old and VERY tiny. He fit in the palm of my hand! He must weight at least 1- 1.5 lbs . ADORABLE, Icarried him and he stretched and fell asleep on my neck. I'm glad that this young woman will be getting the surprise of her life when she sees this little guy.

Gen

Originally Posted by Cookie2 (Post 2920931)

Thank you guys for continuing your prayers and checking back here. Today, I feel is going to be one of those days :( Yesterday my daughter's friend came over and was joking with them and baking cookies. It seemed like I was my old self for a moment. The truth is that sometimes I feel like I'm losing my grip on keeping it together. I can't face the possibility that the 5 1/2 years that I had with him would be all the time I would have. I still have too much hope that I will get him back. It hurts guys, this really, really hurts and I just want to stop hurting. Every single day there are tons of reminders of Cookie.
The doggy armoire is filled with his clothes all hung up there. His collar and tags are now kept inside a bible I have. Today I'm going again to the Humane Society to check. I have bitten my nails down to the skin. Something I have not done in YEARS. I had my long nails for the longest time. My sister always commented that they look like salon fake nails.I am either undereating or overeating. Like I said today is one of those days and the constant rain doesnt help either. I pray that where ever he is that he is ok.


Gen

Originally Posted by Cookie2 (Post 2920931)

Thank you guys for continuing your prayers and checking back here. Today, I feel is going to be one of those days :( Yesterday my daughter's friend came over and was joking with them and baking cookies. It seemed like I was my old self for a moment. The truth is that sometimes I feel like I'm losing my grip on keeping it together. I can't face the possibility that the 5 1/2 years that I had with him would be all the time I would have. I still have too much hope that I will get him back. It hurts guys, this really, really hurts and I just want to stop hurting. Every single day there are tons of reminders of Cookie.
The doggy armoire is filled with his clothes all hung up there. His collar and tags are now kept inside a bible I have. Today I'm going again to the Humane Society to check. I have bitten my nails down to the skin. Something I have not done in YEARS. I had my long nails for the longest time. My sister always commented that they look like salon fake nails.I am either undereating or overeating. Like I said today is one of those days and the constant rain doesnt help either. I pray that where ever he is that he is ok.


Gen

Originally Posted by lil louis (Post 2920942)

Gen, have you thought about talking to a therapist? Please don't take offense to me asking this. You have to stay healthy for your family. I am so sorry you still haven't found Cookie. I check your posts every day hoping that there will be a message saying you got him back. Again, please don't be mad at me for suggesting the therapist. I just think that if you talked to someone about his, they can help you cope until Cookie comes back. Hopefully today will bring you good news!

Originally Posted by Cookie2 (Post 2921066)

Trust me I'm not offended. I know I'm not crazy lol.I am grieving like any loving pet owner would do.If and when I go see a therapist I want to make sure they LOVE animals. I dont want to go to a therapist thats going to tell me to suck it up and move on. I have talked to my husband about this and its something I may need to do soon. I have a lot of support from my family and especially my husband. He made me an amazing DVD slideshow that I started to watch for my birthday but after 20 seconds I had to shut it off. It was too much and I didnt want to burst in tears again.
He told me he cried the entire time making this for me, I told him I was the same way when I made the Youtube video. When I have to email Cookie's picture or go through his picture files I go through it as fast as I can. I'm not ready to sit and look through all his pictures. I must have like over 500-600 pictures of him and Im glad I took so many.

Gen