Prayers for Yorkiemom1

[Deb1]

Originally Posted by Yorkiemom1

Thank you so much......these babies were 11 and 10 years old. They were not well bred, expensive little dogs....they had not had all the health testing done.....truth be knowm they came from a broker...but they were beautiful babies, and they never had any health issues. You know how you have a specific schedule that you do every day.....we have our little ritual we go thru every morning before I go out to work....I fix their breakfast, we all stand in front of the utility room door, and I will ask all those precious little faces looking excitedly up at me, if they are ready to "cahse the kitty"??? The get so excited and bark and go in circles, anxious for me to open the door so Stacy can come from her bed in the laundry room....Crickette, Hailee, Lexee, Amber then chase Stacy thru the den until she goes over the baby gate that keeps the babies in the den area,,,,then they all run back into the kitchen, t"telling me all about it and what a great job they did"....and breakfast is served! We have done this every morning, for the last 9 years.....now my little Crickette and Hailee are gone....Crickettewas my "matriarch" that took over from my 16 year old Aija that died 4 years ago.....everyone treated Aija like the queen bee, and Crickette took on a noticably different nurturing attitude when Aija started getting to that end of life stage....and when Aija died, Crickette was the obvious "next in line" of the pack....they all treated her with the same respect and honor they bestowed on Aija. No one took the position of Alpha when Crickette passed several weeks ago.....now my precious little girly-girl, Hailee...her favorite place in the world was my bed or my lap....whereveer I was, was Hailee's favorite place....she would talk to me, those beautiful little trusting eyes, sooooooo full of devotion and love.....like all our babies, she lived for ME, and she made sure I knew it, everyday....I wanted to put her on a ventillator and let her "exist" until every single organ in her body collapsed and there was absolutely NOTHING else that could possibly be done to keep her here with me.....yes, that thought flew into my mind....but then I looked at my baby struggling to breathe, not able to even come from the oxygen incubator, and reality slammed me in my face and my heart again, began to crumble, as what I had to do demanded I face the reality of this horrible situation me and my baby girl were in.... So now, my morning ritual is down to just a pack of two. Like you moms that have more than one child, or more than one furkid, we love them all, each one is special in your heart....so it is with Lexee and Amber...they also "talk" to me each morning, they still love to "chase the kitty", although Stacy was visably confused about why Hailee was not leading the pack in their mad dash to chase her thru the den....we will get over this....I really am sorry this has turned into a novella....I really have no one to talk to, as my family, even tho they know how much all my dogs mean to me, they just do not understand HOW much they mean to me....you all know how it is....."crazy dog lady.....it has been 3 days, you need to get over it now....you cant keep squalling over a dog for this long....". So thank you for tolerating me while I sit here and cry and spill out what I can not say to anyone else....they just have no idea how much it hurts our hearts to loose these babies.

You and I are in the same boat today......I am missing my Tameka! I am so, so sorry for your loss of your babies.....I just can't imagine losing 2! My deepest sympathy for your loss. My heart breaks for you and your family......shed those tears.....it is ok!

[jadabug]

Judy I am so sorry for your loss. I dread that day coming for all of us.. Hugs sweet lady.

[Sandysbabies]

Oh my gosh, I am soooooo sorry for your loss. I am sitting here with a lump in my throat and tears because of the beautiful story you told about those sweet babies. I know the first one we lost, I cried for weeks. Everywhere, in resturants, everywhere. My dh hated for me to start talking about it because he knew next thing I would be bawling. But, you just grieve all you want and that helps heal. If some people don't understand, well, so be it.
Praying for you and thinking of you. Rip sweet babies!!!

[Yorkiemom1]

When I bought these babies 10-11 years ago, I went over board and bought 5 of them, all within a years time...my brother told me then, "You realize what you have set yourself up for, dont you? You are going to be loosing all these babies real close to each other.....probably within a year of each other....you wont be able to recover from one before you are loosing the next one....". My brother, the pragmatic one of us...operates on logic and measured actions, so he can more closely control the outcome of his future....and once yet again, he is right......

[EarthAngel]

Judy, I am so very sorry for your loss of your two precious babies.

[mimimomo]

Judy I am so sorry for the loss of your 2 precious baby girls. Sending healing comforting hugs.

[yorkietalkjilly]

Judy, my heart just breaks reading about your loss of your babies. I know this is awful for you right now! But reading about what happened is so sad. Was just like a slam in the gut reading that and imaging that happening to any of my dogs I've ever had and got sick remembering back when I lost Jilly. You and those two babies have been through heck and back and so much pain. All I can say is I'll be praying hard for you and that you can feel peace that you did all that you could and that's all one can do. We know when we get them that their lives are all too brief and then they leave us but that leaving scars us for good. It's just so hard right now to see that some day we do begin to heal as time passes and that passing sure does take it's time coming.

I know not many other people understand how we doglovers feel about our dogs but we here all know exactly what you are having to go through and how you hurt and feel so empty and want those babies back healthy right now. We know you would give your house and car to get them back for one hour. We know how in 5 years you will remember something about one of them and cry. We know your arms feel empty. We know how you feel guilty you couldn't save them somehow even when you did all you could. We know they are like losing a close friend. And we know the loss never leaves but you do have the sweetness of the time with them to hang on to forever and that does make having these little special friends all worth it. I'm with you, girl, in spirit and every way I can be. Hugs to you, sweet, sweet lady.

[gardengirl77]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful babies. It's not an easy thing. How blessed you are to have known their faithful love all this time.

[Shelby&Seymour]

So sorry to hear about the loss of your 2 babies. I can't imagine, but i am kind of like your brother in my thinking.....

I purchased Shelby & Seymour only 8 months apart and they were (and still are) 2 "peas in a pod" and do the same things. Worried that with them being so close and not only I, but one of them having to morn the loss of the other one day would be so difficult..... so I introduced our little brother Seeger. He now has become "one of the pack" and loves his big bro and sissy. Now I have THREE that do all the same things!

Again, I am so very sorry..... but also glad that you gave 2 awesome little yorkies a wonderful home.

[Sammy Mommy]

I'm so very sorry. Sending hugs and prayers to help mend your broken heart.

[LoALAnna]

I'm just now seeing this post. I'm am SO sorry for your loss of you little ones! Just reading your post took my breath away from your grief and loss, understand the hurt you're feeling. I live in fear of losing my boys, and wish it didn't have to come to pass. Please accept my condolences, and I'm sending you hugs, too!

Anna and The Boys-Neo and Connor

[Juliealfies mum]

I am so sorry for your loss. I have no words to comfort you ,just know that you loved your little ones and they had a cherished life with you.

[Patti]

Such a beautiful telling of the lives of Crickette and Haliee. My heart goes out to you in this time of such grief. Take care of yourself.

[TxVicki]

Jusy I am so very sorry your loss of Crickette and Haliee. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending out many hug's to you.
My heart is hurting so bad for you.

[MauiGirl]

I am so deeply sorry for the sad loss of your beloved pups. There are no words to adequately express how bad I feel for you, as I can can feel your pain through your words.

You know you are in good company here, among so many other crazy dog lovers who understand better than many, how very much you can love a dog. My heart aches for you, and I send you warm thoughts, prayers and hugs.