I am so very sorry for your loss. I too am not a stranger to devastation, and my heart goes out to you. I am sending you light and love with intension that you may continue to heal, minute by minute, day by day. It is not easy, and I thank you for reaching out to me, as I know your pain must be unimaginable. As time passes, I cannot say that we forget, or that the pain disappears, it will always be there, and each person must heal in their own time, but as time hurries on, eventually we come to acceptance, as really there is not much else we can do. And the pain get's more distant, it's not quite as raw. I experience pain every day with the loss of my Muffin. I cry regularly and miss her so very much. You know, I really hope and wish that I was strong. It's funny you say that you think that I must be "one of the strongest persons around." Actually, I really don't feel strong at all. Isn't that strange? I feel, just, like, I go on, like days pass, I get up, I take care of my dad, I take care of my baby Cassie, and I do thank God that I still have my dearest baby with me, but it's like, I'm really not trying to do anything in particular. I just keep getting up every morning, as there is nothing else but that, to do. Thank you for your prayers, they are so very very much needed and appreciated. I am very grateful, that in your time of such grief, that you have the strength and kindness to reach out to others. Thank you so very much for your kind and lovely words. You are in MY prayers also, and I will take your advice and try to focus a little more on caring for myself. Tomorrow we are going to see some puppies, at my dad's urging. I am really not sure that I am ready yet or that I ever will be, but he wants me to just go and look, so I am taking Cassie and my dad for a ride in the San Bernadino Mountains. I feel like I am only going to look, but it will be fun to see puppie, again. Anyway, I didn't mean to bend your ear. But thank you so much for your concern. I hold you close in my heart.
Shellie :)

Possible new Puppy, but may have a hernia
 

Hello all my angels. Yesterday was a special day for me. After my dad kept bugging me to find a good breeder near me so we could look at puppies, we finally went to ONLY LOOK (LOL) at some puppies that were about two hours from us. The breeder had a couple of favorable things said on this Yorkie Talk website, so we packed up our baby Cassie and took off to play with the puppies. I in no way was thinking that I was going to be ready, but I was willing to look. To make a long story short, I fell in love with a little guy who would not be too overwhelmingly big for Cassie to play with. I was in love, in spite of myself, and we put a deposit down. When I asked about health, she told me he was very healthy, but did have a hernia, which she said is no big deal, and usually resolves itself. But when I got home, sanity kicked in, and I started to wonder, should I be buying a puppy that has a hernia, or any health problems whatsoever? I did some research, but I am just not sure what the right thing is to do. Should I let the hernia stop me from taking this little guy? He's not quite ready to go, and he is being taken to the Vet tomorrow, and the breeder said she would call me after the Vet visit. But now I worry about how serious a hernia could be. I told her what I have been through with my babies and that I cannot go through this again, and that I need a very healthy pup.
She made it sound like the hernia was no big deal, but now I am second guessing myself, and also feeling like I am being disloyal to Muffin by adopting this beautiful baby. Should I not go through with this because of the hernia? Is this a reason not to buy a puppy. Should would not sell the puppy to me unless I agreed to not breed him, so he wasn't going to be bred or be a show dog anyway, just a pet baby and playmate for Cassie.

What do you all think? Should I rethink this? I'm worried I made a mistake.

Shellie

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Shellie, is she giving you a written contract with a guarantee on health issues? I would definitely add a clause about the hernia...that she is responsible for repair if it should be needed.
Kind of hard to comment further...I would simply take him to my vet immediately (as in day of sale) to have him checked out. I would not trust her vet's opinion alone.
I am sure you will get some other feedback on this...
Good luck! :)

How cute! :)

oh he is so cute

She is giving me the standard one year contract, but I don't know if she is planning on paying for the surgery if he would need it. Should I bring that up with her or is that implied with a one year health contract?

PS If I do go through with it, which at this point I am unsure, but if I do, I would like to take a vote on names for this little sweet heart.
I started out with Nugget, and I am seeing how this feels
Also love Oliver, Atticus, Socrates

If we are meant to be, what name do you guys like. I'm taking a poll (LOL) :)

Nothing is implied in a contract. It must be written. Many breeders offer a replacement puppy and they usually know that won't happen. Once people bond with a pup, they are not going to return it.

So do you think that a hernia is a deal breaker? I mean if she is willing to pay for the surgery, should I let the hernia stop me? I'm just not sure how serious a hernia is or could be or how concerned I should be about getting a puppy that is first starting out their life with some physical problems. Am I looking at things correctly or am I being blinded by emotion?

I like the name nugget

What a cutie:) Love the name!

What a tough decision to make, as you have already had Nugget steal part of your heart. I can certainly understand the dilemma you are going through, as these darlings sure take over our hearts in seconds flat. I know virtually nothing about health problems, so I am not able to give you any advice there. Having said that, I feel that if I was second guessing myself, then I would go with that feeling in my gut. Did she not have a pup who was healthy that you liked? IDK, but do you really need to be worried about health problems after what you have gone through?? That's what I would be asking myself. Of course, that is only MHO. Good luck with your final decision. Wishing the best!

He is adorable. I would defiantly find out if this hernia would have to be fixed. And if so have her take care of it before you bring him home You don't need more expensive after all you have been through. He is adorable and I pray you get him. I like nugget

I know, I know, you are so right. I am feeling so torn, and I really told her that I have been through hell and back and I want a very healthy puppy. I do wish she would have told me about his hernia before I came out to see him-we traveled so far, and I fell in love instantly, and he was the one she had in mind for me from the beginning. She never mentioned this until I was there for about three hours falling in love with him, and then when I pressed her, and asked, "so he's really really completely healthy?" that's when she said "he just has a hernia, but it's no big deal and most of the times they resolve themselves". That is what I remember her saying. Maybe this is true, and there really IS no problem. But I wanted to hear from you guys to see what you thought