I think Cassie is dying
 

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Yesterday I had Cassie in bed with me and she vomited some of her food up. She wasn't eating well and she seemed to be coughing and breathing heavy. She calmed down when I held her in my arms, but the next day she did not want to eat. I took her to the ER and after xrays they say she has nodular pattern in her lungs which are very wet and they can't tell if it is cancer or aspiration pneumonia because every time they take her out of the O2 for further diagnostics she starts to turn blue, so they are treating her with ABX for pneumonia, and at the end of day one there is no change. She is at maximum O2 and her breathing is still very labored. The xray that they took was poor imaging because they could not keep her from turning blue while she was out of O2, (it was a quick and dirty xray) so they have limited information from diagnostics.

I really think she is dying. I have a DNR for her. I cannot move. I cannot cry, I feel like a Zombie moving in slow motion. Please Please everybody, pray for my little girl. I am in shock, I think. She is just 6 years old.:(

Oh my heart aches for you. I will be praying for you and Cassie. I can only say I have been in your shoes - not exactly but close. I pray for you both and ask that you are at peace and that a miracle comes if at all possible.

Also I have this very sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and I feel like wrenching. I am feeling so unwell It feels like I need to go to the doctor myself. Whats happeniing to me? Yesterday my dad woke up in the middle of the night shaking like a leaf, and he said I just had a very bad dream, how is Cassie (this was way before anything happened) I said "she's fine, she's sleeping right here, go back to sleep, it was just a dream". Two hours later, all hell broke loose. I feel so lost. I'm very frightened.

Try to breathe. I know that feeling though. You hope it's a bad dream. And I hope this is just that. Breathe - drink water and love your other pup. Go back in first thing in the morning and kiss her. And let yourself cry if you need to. Remember to breathe.

I have been keeping Muffin close - I need the warmth of her furry little body and her tiny wet kisses. But I keep seeing Cassies tiny little face peering out of the O2 cage at me and I feel like I'm going to come undone. I am debating whether or not to visit her. Yesterday, she kept getting up in her O2 cage and she became more agitated because she wanted me to hold her and she was excited to see me. Her breathing became more labored. I am trying to stay away because I am afraid of agitating her. I don't know what is right. I don't know what to do.:confused: I want to cry, but I can't, I just have this very sick feeling inside my stomach.

I feel so bad for you and Cassie and I will pray for both of you. I hope that whatever it is, she will respond to treatment and soon be back home with you. *HUG*

Thank you Impish and Connie for your support. I just need some one to talk to and I so much appreciate having you there. Thank you for being there for me.

I am so very sorry that you are going through this. My heart is breaking for you. I am praying that she will recover.

I'm so very sorry that Cassie is so sick. Sending prayers for your strength & her recovery.

My heart breaks for you. It is the hardest thing to see them sick. Sending both of you lots of love, good thoughts and blessings. And for you I also send strength and guidance during this time. Hugs and puppy kisses.

Bless your heart! I feel so bad for you. I will be keeping Cassie, you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Don't give up yet. Miracles happen everyday. Especially with the power of prayer backing them up. Six years old is still very young. Ill be praying that the vet is given guidance to find out what's wrong and the knowledge to heal her. Hang in there. Wish I were there to hug you and just sit with you. I'll be checking on here frequently for updates. God bless you all!!

I am so very sorry. Hugs...

Oh no! Praying for sweet Cassie. Please don't lose hope. My Peekaboo survived pneumonia when he was 12 years old. It was touch and go for a day or two, but when they gave him the right AB, he rallied and got up and was eating on his own the next day! He was given 2 ABs through a nebulizer then sent home on an oral AB. I think the nebulizer did the trick bc it puts the drugs right into their lungs as they breath.

Keeping Cassie and you in my prayers....

Thank you all so much for your love and support. As always, I feel so much less alone when I am with you. You are always there for me, and I feel blessed to have such loving angels as yourselves in my life. It is now 4:15 AM PST and I cannot sleep a wink. The TV is on all night and I think I might sleep between fits of exhaustion, for about 5 min at a time. I usually call every two hours for an up date but I am afraid to call. I think I will be braver in the morning. Every time I start to call I get that scary feeling in the pit of my stomach. I feel like everything is moving in slow motion. Sometimes, to make me forget a little, I watch tv, or cook, or read or make some jewelry, just to get some relief, from this horrible torture, and then I feel terribly guilty that I forgot her for a moment, her beautiful little face, staring out of her O2 cage, suffering, and here I am trying to forget her pain and her suffering, something she cannot escape herself. Wow, as I type these words, I am finally crying. I am crying. It is a relief to cry, as I felt over this time that I was holding my breath...... Thank you all for your love and prayers. I'm going to try to sleep a little now.

Praying for a good report when you call

I am checking in to see how Cassie is this morning. I was thinking about it last night. When you go to see her bring a t shirt that you wore or slept in. It will have your scent and soothe her.

I'm sorry that your Cassie isn't well. It's such a helpless feeling when these precious ones are sick. Sending prayers for you both.

Checking in on Cassie.....I am hoping she pulls through.

I am so sorry your Cassie is so ill. Saying prayers for her and for you.

Praying for Cassie and you. I can't imagine. I started reading this at work last night and had to stop until I got home. :cry:

Prayers and thoughts for Cassie and you. I'm so sorry Cassie is so sick.

So sorry. Sending prayers

I am so sorry that your baby is so ill. I know that your heart hurts. I hope that Cassie starts to feel better so you can hold her.

Called for update but they are rounding now. I need to call later.

I am so sorry Cassie is so ill. I pray she will get better. I know how helpless and hurt you are feeling.

Oh how scared you must be now. My thoughts are with you & dear Cassie. Thank you for keeping us up with her condition. Take care of yourself, & know the vet is taking good care of Cassie.

My thoughts and Prayers are with you and sweet little Cassie. It breaks my heart to hear stories like this..knowing that someone and their baby is going through so much pain. Words cannot even express how this gets to me! I feel for you and your baby! Please take care of yourself and little Cassie.

So sorry to hear Cassie is sick. I am praying she will show some improvement today and that the antibiotics are working.

Prayers for little Cassie. How horrible for both of you. I understand how you feel about visiting. I always struggle with that issue myself. I don't want my baby to think I have abandoned them but then I don't want to visit and walk away again. Miracles do happen as we have seen on here.

Praying for improvement....