Baffled...any help would be appreciated!

[GucciMyGirl]

I sat down to read your posts and am so sorry for your lost of your little furbaby.. I will keep you and your family in my prayers....God Bless..

Gina

[Raven]

arial

I am so sorry for your loss!! She was a lucky girl to have you!!!! My thoughts are with you.

[jbarile]

Im so sorry to hear about your little girl, my heart goes out to you and your family!. god bless

[RMKC]

I am soo sorry for your loss, how sad you must feel ! The only comfort you can feel , that where she is there is no pain ! hugs

[Connie]

I just read this entire thread and my heart is breaking for you losing your precious baby. As I read, I was expecting to find an explanation to what was wrong and then saw that you had lost her. I feel so sad for you and your family. I just wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. Just know that we all care and grieve with you. Hugs to you!

[Care28]

I wanted to thank you all again for your kind thoughts and all of the prayers, it really means the world to all of us. The incredible guilt felt right now, that I didn't do enough to help her, really is eating away at me. We just lost my granddad 2 months ago and she was such a bright light in getting us through all of that. She was an angel, truly, from beginning to end.

Our regular vet, who is Kelli's normal Dr, will be returning from Vacation on Monday and she wants to see Kelli's xrays from the EVH...so I'll post again if anything further is learned from them.

[YorkyKids]

Originally Posted by Care28

I wanted to thank you all again for your kind thoughts and all of the prayers, it really means the world to all of us. The incredible guilt felt right now, that I didn't do enough to help her, really is eating away at me. We just lost my granddad 2 months ago and she was such a bright light in getting us through all of that. She was an angel, truly, from beginning to end. Our regular vet, who is Kelli's normal Dr, will be returning from Vacation on Monday and she wants to see Kelli's xrays from the EVH...so I'll post again if anything further is learned from them.

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Carrie....I am so sorry for your loss. But please do not feel guilty. I think you did everything you could for Kelli. I did go back and read some other posts about Kelli. I "think" Kelli may have been in conjestive heart failure when you adopted her...from her age and some of the symptoms you described. I think you gave her a wonderful and peaceful last few months......so please take comfort in that.....Please! Do not feel guilty for loving Kelli and giving her such a wonderful home her last few months. We find this is the case many times with adopted seniors.....they come with baggage....sometimes mental and sometimes real health issues.....our best hope is to make them comfortable and give them peace.....and that's exactly what you did for Kelli. I hope this helps you Carrie.
Go in peace Kelli.....with lots of love from your earth mommy....Carrie.
D

[yorkiegirl2]

I'm so sorry you lost your baby..sounds like you did everything you could and you are in my thoughts....Sherry

[Joy 1]

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I am so sorry for your loss.
Joy

[Hiline]

Our family is grieving with you. It is amazing how they touch our lives in such a short period of time.

[jbarile]

Originally Posted by YorkyKids

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Carrie....I am so sorry for your loss. But please do not feel guilty. I think you did everything you could for Kelli. I did go back and read some other posts about Kelli. I "think" Kelli may have been in conjestive heart failure when you adopted her...from her age and some of the symptoms you described. I think you gave her a wonderful and peaceful last few months......so please take comfort in that.....Please! Do not feel guilty for loving Kelli and giving her such a wonderful home her last few months. We find this is the case many times with adopted seniors.....they come with baggage....sometimes mental and sometimes real health issues.....our best hope is to make them comfortable and give them peace.....and that's exactly what you did for Kelli. I hope this helps you Carrie.
Go in peace Kelli.....with lots of love from your earth mommy....Carrie.
D

you are such a sweet and compassionate person to help carrie not to feel guilty! Im sorry sometimes it is so hard for me to read all the details as they do upset me and I should have seen those feelings of guilt like you did. I too have a senior yorkie (since 8 weeks old) and she has cushings and I know it is just a matter of time when I will loose her, so when I read about these poor babies it really breaks my heart! Carrie again Im so sorry for your loss.

[Care28]

Originally Posted by YorkyKids

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Carrie....I am so sorry for your loss. But please do not feel guilty. I think you did everything you could for Kelli. I did go back and read some other posts about Kelli. I "think" Kelli may have been in conjestive heart failure when you adopted her...from her age and some of the symptoms you described. I think you gave her a wonderful and peaceful last few months......so please take comfort in that.....Please! Do not feel guilty for loving Kelli and giving her such a wonderful home her last few months. We find this is the case many times with adopted seniors.....they come with baggage....sometimes mental and sometimes real health issues.....our best hope is to make them comfortable and give them peace.....and that's exactly what you did for Kelli. I hope this helps you Carrie.
Go in peace Kelli.....with lots of love from your earth mommy....Carrie.
D

I thank you so much for saying this. And what's really eye opening, is yesterday the Dr that treated Kelli at the EVH gave us the same reasoning...congestive heart failure is what he believes Kelli was going through. We took the xrays up to our regular vet and she'll hopefully review them first thing tomorrow morning when she returns from vacation.

All we wanted to do for Kel was to make her last few months as peaceful as possible, she deserved that after all she'd been through in previous homes...she deserved to be able to run and play, and have a good time, and she did. She got to go to grandma and grandpa's, and run all over there like she was the Queen there, too, lol. She just loved everyone and everything, and I'm happy that we could give that to her.

I miss her incredibly, but I know she's safer and even happier now...

Thank you all so much for your kind words, it's hard to believe she's been gone a couple days now...I can still hear her all over this house, her little feet clicking on the floor, her tags jingling (I'd started to call her jingle bells), her sweet little bark. She definitely was heaven sent.

[Lanie]

Originally Posted by Care28

I wanted to thank you all again for your kind thoughts and all of the prayers, it really means the world to all of us. The incredible guilt felt right now, that I didn't do enough to help her, really is eating away at me. We just lost my granddad 2 months ago and she was such a bright light in getting us through all of that. She was an angel, truly, from beginning to end.

Our regular vet, who is Kelli's normal Dr, will be returning from Vacation on Monday and she wants to see Kelli's xrays from the EVH...so I'll post again if anything further is learned from them.

It definately sounds like you did everything possible to help her, still I know it is hard not to feel guilt. Kelli felt the love you gave her before she passed. I am sure she was grateful for that after all she had been through in previous homes. So you can feel comfort in knowing that you gave her the best love and attention she felt in her whole little life. It just breaks my heart to read this post. I lost my 12 year old poodle in a similar way on December 22, 2001 and it was so hard right there at Christmas, so I understand your feelings. I just believe she was sent to you like you said because she was such a bright light to help get you through your ganddad's passing. Everything happens for a reason, she was your little Angel and touched your life in such a profound way. God bless you.

[SnowWa]

This whole story is so heartbreaking.

I do want to say thought that the vets probably did what was right.
You mentioned that she seemed uncomfortable - so, the vet probably gave her the pain medication to make her more comfortable ---even though he couldn't find out what might be causing any pain. Anal glands can be very painful, and if he found hers to be enlarged, he hoped that taking care of this would make her more comfortable also.

Dogs sometimes don't tolerate some medications well. I can't tolerate antibiotics or pain pills myself - they make me nauseated and I get sick to my stomach. But, sometimes I still have to take them.

I really don't know what else you could have done. You were very very concerned. You took her to different vets. You were on line frantically trying to help and some answers.

I think that what caused her to pass away was something that couldn't be treated. It would have happened with or without the care you gave her. And, the care you did give her and the love you gave her did make her more comfortable.

You shouldn't feel guilty. And, in time you won't. You are just so heartbroken and miss her so much right now that you want to blame someone, even if it's yourself. But no one is to blame. Heart failure and blood clots are serious problems. (I work in Cardiology - I am very familiar with both of these conditions.)

Blood clots ----- I know two dogs that died from blood clots. Both were seemingly perfectly well one minute (one had had surgery the day before), and gone the next minute.

Heart failure ---- is a terminal disease. It is not curable. Patient's can be treated and kept going for some time, but they do eventually die from it.

I think you did more for your little puppy than many people would have done.
I don't know what more you could have done.

You deserve love and hugs and a lot of respect.

Carol Jean

[troubletb]

When I got to your post that Kelli was gone I almost fell on the floor. I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May Kelli rest in Peace