Courtney, I am so terribly sorry that you are faced with this. The only words that come to me are those that my sweet Dad said to me when faced with any difficult decision, "Whatever your decision, I will stand behind you"! And he always did, regardless ... so that is the only thing I can offer. We, your YT family, love you and will be here standing behind you, whatever your decision. We will be praying for God's will and if there is anything, anything that we can do, you only need ask!!

:( I am so very sorry to hear about this difficult situation you are faced with...Please know you are in my prayers...

Courtney my heart aches for you and your family. You all will be in my prayers. I admire your strength and courage and wish you only health and happiness in the near future. :hearts-xx :hearts-xx

Im glad that you can see how much love is here for you. I want you to know that if there is anything that anyone here can do for you please don't fail to ask. I will be here at the drop of a hat. As will everyone else who has posted here I am sure. Maybe the hospital can get you in touch with other people who have been in your shoes. That way they can help educate you, and support you in ways that others just don't have the ability. I really think it would help so much to have someone that has been there before. I hope that you are feeling a little better today. I have been praying last night and this morning that God would give you the strength to make a good decision. I have also been praying that he will rid you of all this cancer. I wish you nothing but happiness and health for many years to come. God Bless you and your family. Love, Heather

I wanted to come back and let you know that I am still thinking about you.

I just found this thread tonight and sat here and read from the beginning to the end. I'm sobbing here and I am here to tell you that I will be here for you what ever you and your family decides to do! I will pray for you all. This just breaks my heart. I had a big scare a few months ago and the only regret I had was keeping it to myself. Of course I told my husband but that was it. I wanted to make sure either way before I told anyone else. I am so glad you have your mother with you and that you are not alone till you husband gets back!

I was on here late last night and read most of this thread. I wanted to come on today and let you know I too will keep you in my prayers.

There are simply no words that I can say to make you feel better. I am so very sorry that you are going through this. I cried and cried as I read your initial post. May you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you right now. Bless your heart. You are such an amazing woman.

I feel the same. Well said.

I couldn't say it any better...our prayers are with you in whatever you decide.

Well as I am sitting here at work, once again not getting anything done, I was thinking about what I could do differently to prepare this time for chemo that I wasn't so prepared for last time. I have asked Lil Mis Magic to make me a Breast Cancer Ribbon Blanket like the one she made my furbabies and she is on top of it so I will have my blankie to take with me :) So now I need to find someone that can sew some fancy scarfs. I have trashed all of my old ones in hopes to never need them again, plus they weren't that stylish. If anyone knows me they know I am a fashion queen and love clothes and my favorite colors are pink and purple and turquois. I guess I was wondering, since there are so many wonderful sewers on here, if anyone would be willing to make me some new head wraps (scarfs) for me to wear on my soon to be hairless head? I'd be willing to pay top dollar.

Again, to all of my friends and family here on YT........Thank you, from the very bottom of my heart.

Oh, and an update........my nosey mom got ahold of my husband and he will be home tonight (2 days early). Oh well, I guess he would probably be more mad if I had actually waited until he returned to tell him.

Love you guys!!

Courtney...It is good to hear from you! You have such a good attitude and I've always heard that is half the battle. I bet you will have more scarves than you can use by the time all the wonderful people on YT read your post...and I would be the first one to sign up for that, but believe me, you wouldn't want anything I could make :rolleyes:
I got this poem from the cancer center here in town...I have to go there because I see a hematologist there...anyhoo...I sent it to my cousin that had cancer and she really appreciated it, so I thought I would share it with you too!

I have it in a pretty decorative print that you can print out that I would be glad to email you if you would like. Just PM me with your email addy!!

Yay for nosey mothers. I was beginning to think we were gonna have to do that for ya ;) Good. I think you're needing some of his hugs.

Btw, if your post didn't say how fashion consciences you were, I'd have happily sent you some scarves....they wouldn't be very fashionable, but they would make a statement, I'll say that :rolleyes:

Do I even want to ask??.................... :laugh: