My Sweet Charlie

[Charlies Mamma]

Hello, I have been a long time member of the forum but have not posted in some time. I lost my sweet Charlie a week ago to MVD and renal failure, he was 16. My family and friends have been supportive but I guess I needed to talk to people who really know how I am feeling. I am so lost without him I cant put his bed and blankets away I still talk to him at times forgetting he is gone. I dont know how to make the pain be less.

[matese]

I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet little Charlie. Healing takes time, just take one day at a time (((hugs))).

[Charlies Mamma]

I have times of weakness where I want to have another but feel bad like im trying to replace him, I dont ever want that but I miss him so much.

[Lisa and Pic]

Originally Posted by Charlies Mamma

I have times of weakness where I want to have another but feel bad like im trying to replace him, I dont ever want that but I miss him so much.

I am so very sorry and my heart hurts for you.

I think we are all different in our grieving. When I lost Tinkerbell many many years ago, I decided after awhile that there was room in my heart for another Yorkie. Since then I have had more pets pass and each loss is so difficult. Not one replaced the other and they are all so different in their personalities and the way they do things. Hugs to you.

[horsnaround]

So very sorry for your loss. I still talk to my past pups All apart of the process. Big hugs

[matese]

Originally Posted by Charlies Mamma

I have times of weakness where I want to have another but feel bad like im trying to replace him, I dont ever want that but I miss him so much.

A story. When my beautiful Matese left me in Oct. 2013 she was 17 years old, I swore, no more dogs, the pain of her loss was too great, the pain in my heart truly felt like I was having a heart attack. Matese was not my first girl to pass, I had others before her, but I had multiple, meaning there were siblings that were grieving, missing their BFF. I couldn’t show my pain, I couldn’t grieve my loss, I had to stay strong for the pups. Matese was the last of my pack, and the only baby I had from a 8 week old puppy to a baby that was deaf, partly blind, dementia had started and she was with me for 17 years. Losing her was unbearable. Shortly after losing her I had to get rid of every dog related item, seeing her bed, toys, harness was to painful. I donated everything of hers and all my passed girls to my local no kill shelter.
6 weeks after her loss my vet calls me, they just got in a surrendered 2 ½ year old boy, not an abused baby. I was not ready for a dog, I didn’t know if I could live without a baby since I had yorkies 30 plus years but I wanted to try. I told my vet all the reasons I didn’t want a dog at this time or if ever and never wanted a male dog. She kept begging me to “just come to see the dog”. To appease my vet and get her off the phone, I agreed to see the dog. I never wanted to go back to where my babies life was ended, I also agreed to go because my vet thought of ME when this baby came to her, she could have call a number of other clients, but she called me because this furbaby had huge ears, just like Matese had, and I loved those huge ears. This baby reminded her of my Matese (his huge ears lol)and reason she called me.
Knowing I would never own a male dog I felt it was safe “just to see the dog’. When I went the next day they had me wait in the lunch room and bought this little tyke in. I just sat and watched his body languish. Everytime that door opened and a tech came in, he ran to them say like he was saying, are you my new mommy. My heart broke for this little boy, who could just toss him out of their lives. So he came home with me, all unplanned, I didn’t even have a harness or leash to get him out of my vets. Well he was surrendered with a bag of his belongings that had harness, leash and winter coat, and a few other items, a starter. My vet gave me a bag of food, new bed, new beautiful blankie. And home we came.
It was the best unplanned decision I ever made. Cody helped me heal, he made my house a home again, he gave me a reason to get out of bed every day, he took away that horrible pain in my heart. My friends called him my miracle boy because he bought me back to life.
One dog can never, ever “replace” one we have lost. These yorkies are all different in personality, quirky, silly little ways and will always put a smile on your face, even when they are naughty, we just have to laugh at them.
If you are “thinking” you are ready. Only from my personal experience I say “go for it”. I never felt guilty, I knew my Matese would not want me to suffer the way I was, she would know she could never be replaced. I will say I still cried for her and 8 years later I still do, but now I can remember her younger days when she would play in the yard burying then unburying her toys, I smile but there are always tears in my eyes.
I have memorial of her. Her first baby nighty, favorite toy, T-shirt with “Bad to the Bone” on it, my favorite picture of her, all in my office that I see every day. On my deck I keep favorite toy that she would bury over and over every day. She will never be forgotten, and I love her as much as I did when she was with me.
My Cody is a perfect boy, I am blessed to have him, he is so different from any of my passed babies, and I have never, ever compared him to any of my passed babies, he is his own little nutty self.
Good luck with what ever you decide.

[Charlies Mamma]

Joan,

Thank you for that story. It help me feel like I am not betraying Charlie. I am just so lonely for his little face and his companionship. I DID tell myself I didnt want another because I couldnt go through that pain again and there are still moments when I feel that but I dont want to be lonely forever. There are no yorkies in my area at this time so it gives me time I guess.

[matese]

Originally Posted by Charlies Mamma

Joan,

Thank you for that story. It help me feel like I am not betraying Charlie. I am just so lonely for his little face and his companionship. I DID tell myself I didnt want another because I couldnt go through that pain again and there are still moments when I feel that but I dont want to be lonely forever. There are no yorkies in my area at this time so it gives me time I guess.

Charlie knows he was loved. He wouldn't like for his mamma to be in pain or sad. He would want mamma to be happy. There is nothing like a baby yorkie to help you heal the loss of a beloved companion. I had a girl pass in July 2005 my little clown Schnae, not a day goes by that I do not think about both Schnae and Matese, they will never be forgotten and neither will be Charlie.
Good luck and please, keep us updated when you do get a baby.

[sandy simpson]

I cried reading about Charlie and Matese. Only dog lovers understand how much we love and bond to our faithful friends. I know we will see them again when our earthly life is over. I love dogs. When one precious dog passes in time I get another dog. One day I will be with them all in heaven!

[gemy]

Originally Posted by sandy simpson

I cried reading about Charlie and Matese. Only dog lovers understand how much we love and bond to our faithful friends. I know we will see them again when our earthly life is over. I love dogs. When one precious dog passes in time I get another dog. One day I will be with them all in heaven!

Hugs to you

[Charlies Mamma]

Originally Posted by sandy simpson

I cried reading about Charlie and Matese. Only dog lovers understand how much we love and bond to our faithful friends. I know we will see them again when our earthly life is over. I love dogs. When one precious dog passes in time I get another dog. One day I will be with them all in heaven!

I feel the same way about my Charlie, I know I will see him again but I miss him so much right now. every night when I got to bed I say "common buddy time for bed" and I want him so much to jump up from his blanket in the corner where he laid and run to the bedroom.

[Bella7808]

Hi Charlie's Mamma, I just want to say that I'm so sorry to hear of your loss of Charlie. I'm hurting with you. He sounds like a wonderful dog and also you gave him such a sweet name, Charlie Brown. I love that name!

Just sharing what I read somewhere, "The One Best Place to Bury a Good Dog is in the Heart of His Master" and it's so True!

Take Care and RIP Charlie!

Bella's Mom

[Bella7808]

Originally Posted by matese

A story. When my beautiful Matese left me in Oct. 2013 she was 17 years old, I swore, no more dogs, the pain of her loss was too great, the pain in my heart truly felt like I was having a heart attack. Matese was not my first girl to pass, I had others before her, but I had multiple, meaning there were siblings that were grieving, missing their BFF. I couldn’t show my pain, I couldn’t grieve my loss, I had to stay strong for the pups. Matese was the last of my pack, and the only baby I had from a 8 week old puppy to a baby that was deaf, partly blind, dementia had started and she was with me for 17 years. Losing her was unbearable. Shortly after losing her I had to get rid of every dog related item, seeing her bed, toys, harness was to painful. I donated everything of hers and all my passed girls to my local no kill shelter.
6 weeks after her loss my vet calls me, they just got in a surrendered 2 ½ year old boy, not an abused baby. I was not ready for a dog, I didn’t know if I could live without a baby since I had yorkies 30 plus years but I wanted to try. I told my vet all the reasons I didn’t want a dog at this time or if ever and never wanted a male dog. She kept begging me to “just come to see the dog”. To appease my vet and get her off the phone, I agreed to see the dog. I never wanted to go back to where my babies life was ended, I also agreed to go because my vet thought of ME when this baby came to her, she could have call a number of other clients, but she called me because this furbaby had huge ears, just like Matese had, and I loved those huge ears. This baby reminded her of my Matese (his huge ears lol)and reason she called me.
Knowing I would never own a male dog I felt it was safe “just to see the dog’. When I went the next day they had me wait in the lunch room and bought this little tyke in. I just sat and watched his body languish. Everytime that door opened and a tech came in, he ran to them say like he was saying, are you my new mommy. My heart broke for this little boy, who could just toss him out of their lives. So he came home with me, all unplanned, I didn’t even have a harness or leash to get him out of my vets. Well he was surrendered with a bag of his belongings that had harness, leash and winter coat, and a few other items, a starter. My vet gave me a bag of food, new bed, new beautiful blankie. And home we came.
It was the best unplanned decision I ever made. Cody helped me heal, he made my house a home again, he gave me a reason to get out of bed every day, he took away that horrible pain in my heart. My friends called him my miracle boy because he bought me back to life.
One dog can never, ever “replace” one we have lost. These yorkies are all different in personality, quirky, silly little ways and will always put a smile on your face, even when they are naughty, we just have to laugh at them.
If you are “thinking” you are ready. Only from my personal experience I say “go for it”. I never felt guilty, I knew my Matese would not want me to suffer the way I was, she would know she could never be replaced. I will say I still cried for her and 8 years later I still do, but now I can remember her younger days when she would play in the yard burying then unburying her toys, I smile but there are always tears in my eyes.
I have memorial of her. Her first baby nighty, favorite toy, T-shirt with “Bad to the Bone” on it, my favorite picture of her, all in my office that I see every day. On my deck I keep favorite toy that she would bury over and over every day. She will never be forgotten, and I love her as much as I did when she was with me.
My Cody is a perfect boy, I am blessed to have him, he is so different from any of my passed babies, and I have never, ever compared him to any of my passed babies, he is his own little nutty self.
Good luck with what ever you decide.

I enjoy your stories of sweet Matese, she sounds like a wonderful dog with very fond memories. It made me tearful. Thank you for sharing.

Bella's Mom

[nanajoy]

As others have posted, eloquently, we all grieve differently...and we can never (nor would want to) "replace" one of our beloved companions. I have always chosen to open my heart to a new little one as a way to celebrate the love that I have shared with each of my special companions. I still have had to do the very hard work of grieving, the loss (we all know the feeling that we hear those tags on their collar jingling, or look at he spot where they liked to lay in the sun expecting to see them there). The tears will still flow, at a memory, or the stark fact that they are not there waiting for breakfast first thing in the morning. But the new little one will be there urging you to play, or wanting to cuddle, and the pain is softened.

Just as I was able to love each of my wonderful, unique children...and my amazing, quirky grandchildren...I have been able to love each of my sweet fur babies for who they were/are. Each has their own personality, and that is amazing! I sometimes have chosen to bring in a new little one who was very different in looks when the loss was fresh. That is how we added our beloved 4 lb. poodle, Beau. I knew it would not be good to have another yorkie after the loss of my first yorkie, Elmo. Later I chose to get Tyrone, a parti, when we lost our tan/gold boy Ozzie.

I believe there are two distinct styles of grieving when it comes to thinking about another baby, and I respect both approaches. Some truly need the time to pass in order to feel that they have come to peace with their loss. If you are even thinking of a new little one, I believe you may be like me. I can testify that there is not one of my little ones that are not still fondly remembered often, but that has never hindered my ability to love and take comfort in the companionship of a new, unique little one!

May you find peace, and the right answer for you as you deal with your grief during this difficult time. (((hugs)))

[Charlies Mamma]

Well, I have considered all things and after reading your posts over and over, i have put in an application with YHR for one of their fur babies. This little guy has touched my heart and seems to have the same demeanor as my Charlie did so I feel like we would be a good match. Please wish me luck that they feel the same way. Ill post as soon as I hear something. The waiting will kill me.