Originally Posted by luvmymonkies

I would never want anyone to go through what I have, but it is a little comforting to know that some of you have and you know how I am feeling. Everyone here has been one great big shoulder to cry on and it really helps me so much. Thank you for all your prayers...I think they're working!
I also have an update on little Maddie. She is now taking the nipple on her own. She's been eating right on time with no problems. I am so happy she is doing better. It sounds like she has a VERY good chance. The breeder says she is super active, very strong and she is a good sized little girl. That makes me happy. I just want to jump in the car to go see her already. I'm going back on Saturday to visit her!

Originally Posted by Pattie

Tears & Prayers sent your way, I just can't imagine.... Every time I read an update on Lil'Maddie I kept thinking I would be more then a "lil mad" at the vet, but who knows I haven't any experience with this, maybe they did right. I wanted my Chloe to be a Mommy one day, now I am not so sure I could be as strong or as brave as you were. Keep your chin up and your eyes on the road in between your trips to visit Lil Maddie at the AngelBreeders home. At a time like this it seems it would be easy to daydream while driving. Praying for you & yours
:love: Pattie

Originally Posted by luvmymonkies

It's crazy you said that about keeping my eyes on the road. I almost had 2 accidents yesterday (daydreaming) before I told myself I just needed to go home. It's crazy how a little creature can touch your life so much. I knew she was a huge part of my life when she was here, but the emptiness without her is sometimes unbearable.

Anyone who is thinking of breeding your pets...I would seriously think twice and 100 times about it. Take a good look into her eyes and ask yourself if you're willing to risk her sweet little life. I know people told me this before, but I was stupid and thought it wouldn't happen to me. Even though I didn't mean for her to get pregnant when she did, I kick myself and want to pull my hair out in anger at myself for having the idea of breeding her eventually in the first place. What did I know? All the research and books and videos cannot prepare you enough for what mother nature decides to do in the end.



I got Maddie and her pups ashes today. We had her and her pups cremated together. I am glad to have her back here with me. I hated the fact that she was alone. We're getting this really sweet urn made for them. I am going to post it shortly so you all can see it. It has been a hard day, but I just think about going to see the little girl tomorrow and it cheers me up.

Originally Posted by SoCalyorkiLvr

((((((((HUGS)))))))))) from us here too.....I too look into the eyes of my girls and know that I could never risk their lives and these stories are so sad to hear. Do not blame yourself...you didn't know.

Originally Posted by shelbysmom

Drive safely dear. I am glad so. calif. weather is going to be beautiful tomorrow for your drive. Focus on how important you are for the survival of that little baby. Your well being is important to all of us too. I don't even know you but I have been thinking about you all week! Please take care.