r.i.p. cosmo

[missingmycosmo]

Yesterday I held my baby boy in my arms while he went to heaven. He would have been ten next month. What started out as vomiting and wheezing monday morning revealed to us a heart tumor, broken valve, and fluid in his lungs. They put him on oxygen and gave him meds, he didnt respond and after 3 days in the ICU they told us it was time...the hardest decision I've ever made. My heart is broken, I miss him so much.

[MamaRitz]

My heart goes out to you. It is indeed the most difficult thing a Yorkie mommy has to go through. Remember all the good times! Thinking of you and Cosmo.

[kjc]

I'm so very sorry for your loss... Hugs,

[missingmycosmo]

I keep second guessing my decision, I wish I gave him one more day...but he hated doctors and vet visits, when they gave him the sedative it was like his body thanked me so he could finally relax...

[kjc]

You were able to give him a final gift through your love for him... you helped him to reach the Rainbow Bridge, where there is no pain nor suffering... and plenty of friends to run and play with. He'll be waiting for you there, when the time comes....

[dawn27]

So very sorry for your loss. It is never an easy thing to loose one of our babies. Sending you a hug and wet kisses from me and the gang.

[cathys]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[Yorkiemom1]

Originally Posted by missingmycosmo

I keep second guessing my decision, I wish I gave him one more day...but he hated doctors and vet visits, when they gave him the sedative it was like his body thanked me so he could finally relax...

Oh, my heart breaks for you as you go through this. Dont ever second guess your decision....like you said, he relaxed after the sedative...and you gave him the greatest gift you could possibly give him, freedom...freedom from the pain and struggling to even draw in a breath....He thanks you for that....as usual, he always knew he could depend on you to do what was best for him.....and you did not disappoint him. And he waits for you, running and playing and whole again, at Rainbow Bridge, waiting for you to stop by and pick him up, as you start your own journey.

[bijoux1]

I lost my little furbaby last year, and my heart truly breaks for you!! Mine was almost twelve, and I too wished for more time. And once it is the end, your heart aches for even a few more hours or a day. But you should NEVER question what you did or second guess yourself. Believe me I know that is so much easier said than done!! I do understand you doing so because you want to know you did the best thing for Cosmo, and it's clear how much you loved him. But, as others have said you gave him a gift of no more pain. You made the biggest personal sacrifice by letting him go and choosing to give him this gift. It is sooo incredibly selfless to have put what was best for him above your personal heartache!!! I am saying prayers for you as you deal with this heartache, and I am sooooo sorry for your loss!!!!!

[lillymae]

I am so sorry for your loss, R.I.P. sweet baby.

[enchilila]

I know you are hurting and I'm so sorry for your loss. Cosmo sounds like he is a special little boy that gave you all of his love. He is no longer suffering. I believe we will see our babies again one day. Until then, rest in peace, Cosmo.

[missingmycosmo]

Thank you everyone for your kind words. It was a tough second night without him. Im sleeping with his blankie and chew toy, sound crazy? I've even rolled up a brown towel at the end of my bed so it looks like him at night. Yeah, it's hitting me hard...

[LunasMomma]

I'm so sorry I think you did the very best, most loving thing you could have done for him. One more day would have meant more suffering for him and you acted selflessly and set him free You'll be together again someday!

[gemy]

R I P Cosmo I'm so sorry for your loss. When I lost my dog, a dear friend posted this for me. I hope it can ease your heart and it has eased mine.

The Journey
by Crystal Ward Kent

When you bring a pet into your life, you begin a journey. A journey that will bring you more love and devotion than you have ever known, yet will also test your strength and courage. If you allow, the journey will teach you many things, about life, about yourself, and most of all, about love. You will come away changed forever, for one soul cannot touch another without leaving its mark.

Along the way, you will learn much about savouring life's simple pleasures -- jumping in leaves, snoozing in the sun, the joys of puddles, and even the satisfaction of a good scratch behind the ears. If you spend much time outside, you will be taught how to truly experience every element, for no rock, leaf, or log will go unexamined, no rustling bush will be overlooked, and even the very air will be inhaled, pondered, and noted as being full of valuable information.

Your pace may be slower, except when heading home to the food dish, but you will become a better naturalist, having been taught by an expert in the field. Too many times we hike on automatic pilot, our goal being to complete the trail rather than enjoy the journey. We miss the details: the colourful mushrooms on the rotting log, the honeycomb in the old maple snag, the hawk feather caught on a twig.

Once we walk as a dog does, we discover a whole new world. We stop; we browse the landscape, we kick over leaves, peek in tree holes, look up, down, all around. And we learn what any dog knows that nature has created a marvellously complex world that is full of surprises, that each cycle of the seasons bring ever changing wonders, each day an essence all its own.

Even from indoors you will find yourself more attuned to the world around you. You will find yourself watching: summer insects collecting on a screen; how bizarre they are; how many kinds there are or noting the flick and flash of fireflies through the dark. You will stop to observe the swirling dance of windblown leaves, or sniff the air after a rain. It does not matter that there is no objective in this; the point is in the doing, in not letting life's most important details slip by.

You will find yourself doing silly things that your pet-less friends might not understand: spending thirty minutes in the grocery aisle looking for the cat food brand your feline must have, buying dog birthday treats, or driving around the block an extra time because your pet enjoys the ride. You will roll in the snow, wrestle with chewy toys, bounce little rubber balls till your eyes cross, and even run around the house trailing your bathrobe tie with a cat in hot pursuit, all in the name of love.

Your house will become muddier and hairier. You will wear less dark clothing and buy more lint rollers. You may find dog biscuits in your pocket or purse, and feel the need to explain that an old plastic shopping bag adorns your living room rug because your cat loves the crinkly sound. You will learn the true measure of love. The steadfast, undying kind that says, "It doesn't matter where we are or what we do, or how life treats us as long as we are together."

Respect this always. It is the most precious gift any living soul can give another. You will not find it often among the human race. And you will learn humility. The look in my dog's eyes often made me feel ashamed. Such joy and love at my presence. She saw not some flawed human who could be cross and stubborn, moody or rude, but only her wonderful companion. Or maybe she saw those things and dismissed them as mere human foibles, not worth considering, and so chose to love me anyway.

If you pay attention and learn well, when the journey is done, you will be not just a better person, but the person your pet always knew you to be. The one they were proud to call beloved friend.

I must caution you that this journey is not without pain. Like all paths of true love, the pain is part of loving. For as surely as the sun sets, one day your dear animal companion will follow a trail you cannot yet go down. And you will have to find the strength and love to let them go.

A pet's time on earth is far too short, especially for those that love them. We borrow them, really, just for a while, and during these brief years they are generous enough to give us all their love, every inch of their spirit and heart, until one day there is nothing left. The cat that only yesterday was a kitten is all too soon old and frail and sleeping in the sun. The young pup of boundless energy now wakes up stiff and lame, the muzzle gone to gray.

Deep down we somehow always knew that this journey would end. We knew that if we gave our hearts they would be broken. But give them we must for it is all they ask in return. When the time comes, and the road curves ahead to a place we cannot see, we give one final gift and let them run on ahead, young and whole once more. "God speed, good friend," we say, until our journey comes full circle and our paths cross again.

[mugwee1]

Sooo sorry for your loss. do not second guess your decision. You did what was best for him, no more pain no more suffering. I bet he is looking down on you thanking you for letting him go. they say animal's as well as human's know when their time is near. I truly believe that because when my sister died 2 year's ago she told be she knew it was her time about 20 minute's be fore she passed. Rest in peace Little Cosmo your mommy is really missing you. Fly with the other angel's that have passed before you.From Cosmo.