My Dear Spikie... I Am So Sorry!!

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how sad~ RIP SPIKE

[YorkieShadow]

Im so so sorry RIP sweet Spike.
I know how you feel I knew my baby was dieing took her to 2 different hospitals, they gave her a shot and sent her home with me where she died in my arms. I guess nothing they could do for her and thought it was some thing we both needed to be with each other at that time. but It was so hard looking at her knowing I could not do any thing more for her. I cant get it out of my mind. praying for you that you can get past this, again im so sorry.

[jbarile]

please dont blame yourself.. My heart is with you Im so sorry...

Blessings and sorrow to your family

[Theodore]

Ironman, I am so excited to know that you will be spreading the message. If I may suggest.....print your words exactly as you had written them here. There is no "How to" format that can ever match your heartfelt story. If you pass those words on to animal planet somehow, I have no doubt that the word will get out. It is way too common a mistake that we make thinking because we've taught them to swim that they will be safe. As a matter of fact, Rodak (our beloved rot/shepard) was in his final stages of cancer a few years back. In the process he had gone blind. At the time there was no gate to the pool. I was careful to always have the patio slider shut so he could no longer access the pool; yet someone left the garage back door open and he found his way to the pool. Now I have no idea how long the poor big man had been swimming in circles (and that dog lived for swimming). Luckily my roomate heard something out there and screamed. I jumped in in the dead of winter and was able to drag him to the side. For quite some time it plagued me WHAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED. Big dogs, small dogs, great swimmers, poor swimmers. We must teach the world to be as vigilant as you are with kids around pools or any body of water. I cannot wait to see you and Spike spread the word. Fliers, pamphlets, news stations...your words as written here is all it will take.
I'm so glad you've added JUNIOR to your clan. When Rodak passed, it wasn't long before we went to the pound and got Wallace. He is a big guy as Rodak was, which is why we picked him; yet his personality is all his..as it should be. Wee Ted came via my daughter. Never having had a little dog before it has been such a different experience. Those little buggers are larger in personality for sure.
I'm glad you are starting to heal and using Spike's memory to give a loving home to another little guy, a friend to Gypsy, and a new adventure of making a difference through awareness. It's a bittersweet time for you, I'm sure. You did right by Spike when he was here and you're doing right by him now. Best of times to your family. Corrinne

[Rudys Mom]

I'm so very sorry for your loss of Spike. I hope you don't hang on to your guilt too long. It was an accident. Spike would not have wanted you to do that. For some reason, God needed little Spike in heaven with him now. Take Care....you & your family.

[chandracz]

Originally Posted by Ironman433

Oh, my God... My dear, dear, sweet lil' Spikie... Daddy is so very sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me the most! You were always there to give me comfort even when I didn't realize how much I needed you or how comforting it was just knowing that you could sence my feelings and were there for me just in case... I am so sorry... So very, very sorry that I let you down.

Two days ago my loyal friend drowned in our swimming pool as I laid awake in bed ten feet away thinking about myself and my day ahead. Meanwhile on the other side of our doors, my best friend in the whole world died a horrable, agonizing death filled with fear and desperate panic as his mate searched helplessly for a way to help him as she she watched him die in the most cruel manner I can think of and the overwhelming guilt and pain is driving me crazy beyond belief... I can stop thinking about his poor poor helpless face searching for me to come and save him from this and I never, ever came! Oh, my ****ing God, my God, how I hate not hearing him and not being abe to rescue him. The pain is almost unbearable at times and that immage of his panic stricken little face will not leave my mind no matter how hard I try to think of how he used to make my wife and I laugh until we were in tears at his sweet, lovable antics. I have never know a dog like Spike. He was a great watch dog - mostly because of his pure, sweet innosence and curiousity. He genuinely loved everyone and was so kind and gentle. He never wanted to harm anything ever... Thoughts of biting or hurting anything never once crossed his mind ever - even in play... That he could do such a thing just never crossed his mind even for a second. It kills me to think that such a kind hearted, loving soul like Spike had to die in such an agonizing, slow, terrifying manner... My God, this is just so unfair... I will never be able to fogive myself for not being able to help him when I know that seeing my face was the last thoughts... Last hope he had... And I let him down. Oh, my God, Spikie... Daddy is so, so sorry...

He used to usually sleep either right by my side or right between my legs (gee, thanks, Spike... Daddy is so comfy now!) where he felt safe and secure and Gypsy would sleep on the other side of Carie... They kept us tucked in at night whether we wanted to be or not, but the four of us loved it and we all felt warm and safe together. We even had to buy poor little Spikie some steps so that he could get up there... Gypsy could jump up there, but his little legs just couldn't quite make it. We used to laugh before we got the steps about him being like a pop up (on your computer) or one of those gophers down at Chuck E. Cheese... He was such a sweet little nut case... So much personality... He was like a lovable, grumpy old man trapped in an adorable toy doggie's body.

We had taught them where the stairs were and how to get out of the pool and had put them in and made them do it on many occasions so we never once worried that this might happen after that. Maybe once a week we would let them stay outside so we could get a good nights rest without worrying about rolling over on them or accidently launching them across the room if they were by your feet. And that was just fine by Spike... It was like going camping to him and he was like a Beat Cop on patrol keeping gaurd over his castle. He was happy to alert you if a bird flew into his air space or if a clump of leaves stirred without getting his permission... He was the grounds security gaurd and it was a job he loved and took as seriously as a heart attack! He was so funny to watch - every 10 minutes he had to make his rounds... Then he would come back and lay down. If Domino's rang the door bell on TV, he was at the door in a flash to see who was there... "It's the TV, moron... Sit down, goofy!" He was so funny... God, how I miss him so... I can't even sleep without him being right there at my side. Now with this haunting immage of his desperate face franticly searching for me to help him, I wonder if I will ever be able to sleep the sleep of the just ever again... This just may be the death of both of us as I don't know how to cope with the fact that I was probably wide awake only ten feet from where he spent his last moments terrified in agony and fear... I hate myself for not being there and for him not being on our bed where he belonged...

Good bye, my precious little friend... I know that you have already made an excuse and fogiven me for not being there just as you always have - now I just wish that I could do the same. Take care, Spikie! Your daddy loves you and will have a pocket full of those little pig ears you loved so much when I see you again... You be sure and let God know that daddy's at the door, OK, Spikie... I love you!

OMG i'm so so so sorry to hear about your baby spike!!! I'm sitting here at work crying my eyes out. My heart aches for you. I too had a tradgedy with a yorkie once but it didn't involve water. I've never spoken of the details of it before but maybe it will help you let go of some of the guilt. In time, some of it passes. My baby Candy was snuggling under the covers with me sleeping. I got up to go to the bathroom. I got up quietly so I wouldn't disturb her (she was so peaceful). I wanted to be able to crawl back under that with her. My boyfriend (at the time) was fixing the light switch above where we were laying. While I was in the bathroom I heard screaming. When I came out I saw a trail of blood. He was holding her over the sink. When he jumped down, he had jumped on her and crushed her. For a long time and to this day I blame myself. It was my job to keep her safe and I failed. I should never have left her under the covers. I think that's why I'm so overprotective of my Bailey Blue now. It took me 5 years before I could get another dog. I still blame myself to this day and probably overcompensate for Bailey at times. The images of Candy will forever be in my mind. She died in my arms and it was one of the hardest things i've had to go through. I'm really happy that you've been able to make a positive out of this and welcome Spike junior into your home. Best wishes... Hugs!

[dogbert]

I am so sorry to hear this pools are not child or pet friendly.

[Jeri Cunningham]

I'm so sorry you lost your little Spike. It is so hard to protect them as they are so small. I'm sure he is looking down from Rainbow Bridge and saying 'Don't cry for me Mom and Dad I'm happy here waiting for you".

[Jenz Jazmyn]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your 'lil Spike.. All I can say is I understand your feelings... and time will help.. May he rest in peace!

[ferraritiffie]

I'm so sorry to hear about spike. He sounds like a great dog. I can't imagine the pain you and your wife are going through. Hugs to you both. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

[Kenna]

So sorry to hear of your loss. I hope time will ease your pain.

[MeAndMyOlivia]

What a tragic thing has happened to your Spikie. I can feel the tremendous love you have for him and I am quite sure his death will not be in vain. We have an inground pool and when my Toby went blind last year before he died, it was a real concern that he would accidentally fall in and panic - thankfully he never did. We do have a pool cover, but as you know it only takes a few seconds. This year we have 2 two-year-old grandkids as well...so reading your heart-wrenching words also served as a bold reminder to take every precaution with our pool this summer, both for our grandchildren and grand-dogs. God bless, and I hope your efforts to raise pool safety awareness are successful.

RIP little Spikie...may your legacy live on.

[stedmansmommy]

My goodness, I am so sorry....I honestly can't even type much because I literally have tears pouring down my cheeks...I really can barely even see to type I am just so deeply and INCREDIBLY sorry for your loss....the loved you had for Spike couldn't be move obvious....I can't even imagine the pain that you are feeling right now Gosh I am just so darn sorry... I can't even find the right words for this...

Rest In Peace Spike....you were indeed a special little guy and I know that you will be greatly missed sweetheart