Piper is Gone

[Jkpal]

This morning I had to put my little Piper girl to sleep. Even though she was diagnosed with stomach cancer back in June, losing her today was sudden and unexpected. We'd gone for a nice enjoyable walk, but within ten minutes of returning home, Piper got sick about four times and seemed almost to convulse. I brought her in and put her on couch next to me and she just kept opening and closing her mouth--kinda like a little fish. There was no hard breathing, no heaving or coughing. Took her to vet immediately and they immediately put her on oxygen. They told me they could run diagnostics and take x-rays, but they felt at 13yrs and with the advanced cancer, that Piper was ready-to-be done. And I agree. I stayed with her until she wasn't.

I know I did the right thing, but did I do the right thing? Many times in the last six months, she'd go downhill a bit, then rally and be lively and Piper-y. And I really don't know what I am going to without Piper; in ten years, she and I never spent a day apart, except for when I had leg surgery and then upon my return home, she was literally by my side for the six weeks I was laid up. What am I going to do without my Piper.

Yorkie Forum has always been there for us and I just wanted to let you know.

[matese]

Ohhh Dana so very sorry to read this. I know how much you loved your Piper girl. You did the right thing in letting her go which is such a hard discussion to make. They leave a huge and painful hole in our hearts. It will take time for you to heal, but a time will come when you'll remember her healthier days and smile. Piper will be in your heart forever, never to be forgotten. Keeping you in my prayers and thoughts (((hugs)))

[ladyjane]

Oh, I am so very sorry for your loss of your beloved Piper.

Please don't question yourself for giving her that final gift of love. She was one of the lucky pups in this world. She knew she was loved.

I hope the days come soon where the beautiful memories you made with Piper replace the hurt and sadness you now feel.

[Jkpal]

Thank you so much for your thoughtfulness and kindness. Right now I am completely overcome with sadness and loneliness and loss and I just don't know how I'm going to get through without my little Piper girl...I will, I know, but ohmygosh I hurt.

[ladyjane]

Originally Posted by Jkpal

Thank you so much for your thoughtfulness and kindness. Right now I am completely overcome with sadness and loneliness and loss and I just don't know how I'm going to get through without my little Piper girl...I will, I know, but ohmygosh I hurt.

My heart hurts for you. That pain is awful. You might talk to her .... I have done that and have gotten messages back. They are usually subtle but when it happens it is pretty mind blowing. I wish it always happened, but it doesn't. But, certainly worth a try. I find talking to them helps my pain...I still talk to ones who have long ago left me. I do believe we will see them again one day.

[Captainzing]

So sorry for your loss ☹️

[Jkpal]

Thank you all for your support and true understanding. And Ladyjane, I am talking to Piper, I cannot help myself. And yesterday afternoon (has it really only been a day and a half?) I searched high and low for her dish, which I remember putting somewhere and when resigned that dish was "lost" for now, there it was, sitting in plain sight on kitchen counter. Whhhaaattt??! I felt Piper at that moment, I truly did. I love you guys.

[ladyjane]

Originally Posted by Jkpal

Thank you all for your support and true understanding. And Ladyjane, I am talking to Piper, I cannot help myself. And yesterday afternoon (has it really only been a day and a half?) I searched high and low for her dish, which I remember putting somewhere and when resigned that dish was "lost" for now, there it was, sitting in plain sight on kitchen counter. Whhhaaattt??! I felt Piper at that moment, I truly did. I love you guys.

Oh, it happens! My Cookie moved her urn three times. It was only a half inch but it took the third time for me to realize what was going on. I said oh Cookie, thank you and it never happened again. I believe it was going to keep happening until I acknowledged her.

We all know that pain....not your pain as we each have our own. I just know Piper was very special and I do believe she is watching over you. I wish there were magic words but we all have to grieve.

[Lovetodream88]

I'm so sorry. I wish I had words to help but there really aren't any. Sending hugs and prayers.

[Jkpal]

Thank you all for your understanding and kind words and support and compassion. You truly "get it/me." I just love you guys; you truly help. Thank you again.

[Jkpal]

I pray to get over losing Piper. I hope for the day that I no longer cry for her...She was everything to me; always, always there. I miss her so. I'm sorry I don't mean to be so self-indulgent. I just know I can say these things to you all. Thank you.

[ladyjane]

Originally Posted by Jkpal

I pray to get over losing Piper. I hope for the day that I no longer cry for her...She was everything to me; always, always there. I miss her so. I'm sorry I don't mean to be so self-indulgent. I just know I can say these things to you all. Thank you.

You are not being self indulgent. You have suffered a great loss. Be kind to yourself. Allow yourself to grieve. Sending hugs.

Perhaps something in this link will help you....

https://www.akc.org/expert-advice/li...rieving-a-pet/

[Jkpal]

Oh, LadyJane. Thank you for compassionate support and understanding. The article is meaningful and helpful. Thank you for caring; you're truly helping me through this...

[matese]

Dana, you're not being self-indulgent. You're hurting, grieving, you need to talk, release some of the pain. When my Matese had to leave me I was a basket case. I couldn't drive, eat, focus on anything other than, my girl was gone. I had no one to talk to, just one cousin who had yorkies and understood my pain. I swore, no more dogs for me. Then Cody was gifted to me from my vet, I was not ready for another dog, did not want another dog, losing Matese was beyond overwhelming. My vet called me saying she just got a surrender dog in, he reminded her of my Matese, she begged me to come to "just see the dog". The only way I get her off the phone was agree to "just see the dog". I went the next knowing I would never take a male dog due to they mark almost everything. When I saw this lil tyke run up to any tech that entered the lunch room as if to say are you my new mommy, my heart just broke for him, so home he came with me. He rescued ME, he helped me heal my loss. I still cried everyday almost all day. Cody would come and lick my face and snuggle against me. It took me many months to be able to remember the happy days and not cry for her but to smile. Matese will always be in my heart as little Piper girl will be in yours. Although you think a day will never come when the pain will ease and you can think of Piper and smile, it will come with time. October 1st was 10 years my little girl is gone, I will admit my eyes do tear up, I love her so much, but then I see her playing in the yard burying one of her toys and I can smile. Hugs to you my dear friend, we are always here for you.

[Jkpal]

Oh, Joan. I know you understand and am deeply grateful for your lovely, heartfelt response. I know that God will send me the right little dog at the right time; it's funny how you "knew" you'd never get a male dog because that is exactly how I feel now...knowing however, through you, that might change! Piper was just always so "there" for my, physically and emotionally and always--room-to-room, anxious and happy to see me come home. (all the dang time) Your words, kindness, compassion and understanding mean everything, truly. And you help, you help me very, very much. Big smooches for your little guy; I still believe Cody and Piper were separated at birth as their attitudes, nuances, behaviors--well, just crazy similar! Thank you and know that although we've never met, I love you as I would a lifelong friend.