[matese]

Dana, you're not being self-indulgent. You're hurting, grieving, you need to talk, release some of the pain. When my Matese had to leave me I was a basket case. I couldn't drive, eat, focus on anything other than, my girl was gone. I had no one to talk to, just one cousin who had yorkies and understood my pain. I swore, no more dogs for me. Then Cody was gifted to me from my vet, I was not ready for another dog, did not want another dog, losing Matese was beyond overwhelming. My vet called me saying she just got a surrender dog in, he reminded her of my Matese, she begged me to come to "just see the dog". The only way I get her off the phone was agree to "just see the dog". I went the next knowing I would never take a male dog due to they mark almost everything. When I saw this lil tyke run up to any tech that entered the lunch room as if to say are you my new mommy, my heart just broke for him, so home he came with me. He rescued ME, he helped me heal my loss. I still cried everyday almost all day. Cody would come and lick my face and snuggle against me. It took me many months to be able to remember the happy days and not cry for her but to smile. Matese will always be in my heart as little Piper girl will be in yours. Although you think a day will never come when the pain will ease and you can think of Piper and smile, it will come with time. October 1st was 10 years my little girl is gone, I will admit my eyes do tear up, I love her so much, but then I see her playing in the yard burying one of her toys and I can smile. Hugs to you my dear friend, we are always here for you.