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chattiesmom · 09-02-2006, 07:03 AM

I have not been able to write these words until now. I am heart-sick -- and to deal with it all, I have cried myself out and have forced myself into "life as normal" submission. I am weeping as I type.

Last Sunday night, my precious tiny Izzabella went into an seizure that she never recovered from. Within 45 minutes of her seizing she was in the hands of my very skilled vet who told me that she had hydracephalus. Dr. Carr, the Kind and Compassionate, gentley told me that after being in a seizure state for as long as she had, that chances of recovery were little to none. I could not leave her there to die alone, and I could not bring her home as she was, so I had to make the decision to let my little angel fly......

I cannot go into details of the seizure, I get physically ill to think about it, so I have it compartmentalized her last hour in a section of my heart that I visit when I am alone and can cry, unashamed, over this little snippet that stole my heart.

AngelandLily · 09-02-2006, 07:21 AM

I know how it feels to lose your special love. She's romping with my Lily and both are happy and healthy now.
Hugs to you.

peanut · 09-02-2006, 07:25 AM

I am so sorry for you...I too have been where you are now, and there isn't anything I can say to ease your pain...Just know that you did the right thing for little angel Izzabella. Until someone has had to be in your shoes and watch and listen & see what your precious angel is going through they can not understand the pain...I too had one that had seizures from Liver Shunts, his poor little body just couldn't handle it anymore so I choose the same path as you...It has been 3 years and my heart still aches for him, but time does help ease the pain. It took me a good 2 months to stop crying everyday, and trying to go back to normal mode is very hard, you have all the feelings and the guilt just overcoming you when you see or think of things from your baby, the thing that help me more than anything is knowing he was in a better place with no pain...I truly am sorry that you have to go through this and I will be here for you if you just need to talk....May God bless you and ease your pain...Hugs & kisses....

Bella/Summer · 09-02-2006, 07:26 AM

Were so sorry to hear about your lost

ldenise · 09-02-2006, 07:39 AM

I am so very sorry. It breaks my heart to hear of another one sent to rainbow bridge. you know we are here for you if you need help in dealing with it all. bless her little heart.

chachi · 09-02-2006, 08:30 AM

I am so sorry for you loss of Izzabella. Just know we are all here for you

red98vett · 09-02-2006, 08:32 AM

Oh how sad...

I'm very sorry to hear that...bless her little heart

Dragonfly · 09-02-2006, 08:42 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss and the pain you are going thru,My prayers are with you.

layorkiemom · 09-02-2006, 08:54 AM

I was so sorry to hear about your loss. She is defintely flying with the angels now.

RMKC · 09-02-2006, 09:20 AM

I am soo sorry, and it must be so hard, but just think she is free of pain and flying with the Angels ! Hugs...

RoxyJosMom · 09-02-2006, 10:11 AM

I am so, so sorry for loss. Words won't fix your pain, but time will help heal the ache. She is safe now, and your memories will keep her with you always.

Take your wings and fly little Izzabella

YORKIEMOM2B2006 · 09-02-2006, 10:55 AM

I am so sorry for your loss

cchu · 09-02-2006, 10:59 AM

oh I am sooo sorry. Its so hard to lose your baby but know that you will meet again one day. My thoughts are with you.

yorkieusa · 09-02-2006, 12:01 PM

I'm so sorry you lost little Izzabella. I know it brings great pain and you have a great big hole in your heart now. It happened so suddenly that I'm sure that added to your shock and makes it much more difficult to deal with. Bless you.

baby03 · 09-02-2006, 12:13 PM

I am so sorry to hear of your loss!! I know words cannot ease the pain you are in!! You are in my thoughts and prayers!! God bless you!!

09-02-2006, 07:03 AM	#1
chattiesmom Donating YT 8000 Club Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Georgia Posts: 10,060	I lost part of my heart I have not been able to write these words until now. I am heart-sick -- and to deal with it all, I have cried myself out and have forced myself into "life as normal" submission. I am weeping as I type. Last Sunday night, my precious tiny Izzabella went into an seizure that she never recovered from. Within 45 minutes of her seizing she was in the hands of my very skilled vet who told me that she had hydracephalus. Dr. Carr, the Kind and Compassionate, gentley told me that after being in a seizure state for as long as she had, that chances of recovery were little to none. I could not leave her there to die alone, and I could not bring her home as she was, so I had to make the decision to let my little angel fly...... I cannot go into details of the seizure, I get physically ill to think about it, so I have it compartmentalized her last hour in a section of my heart that I visit when I am alone and can cry, unashamed, over this little snippet that stole my heart. __________________ *Yorkie Yummies Silk Step-In Harnesses * NapSaks Click on the links above for order information!**

09-02-2006, 07:21 AM	#2
AngelandLily No Longer a Member Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: WV Posts: 91	my heartfelt love and suport. I know how it feels to lose your special love. She's romping with my Lily and both are happy and healthy now. Hugs to you.

09-02-2006, 07:25 AM	#3
peanut Dogs Rule Cats Drool! Donating Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Tennessee Posts: 6,161	I am so sorry for you...I too have been where you are now, and there isn't anything I can say to ease your pain...Just know that you did the right thing for little angel Izzabella. Until someone has had to be in your shoes and watch and listen & see what your precious angel is going through they can not understand the pain...I too had one that had seizures from Liver Shunts, his poor little body just couldn't handle it anymore so I choose the same path as you...It has been 3 years and my heart still aches for him, but time does help ease the pain. It took me a good 2 months to stop crying everyday, and trying to go back to normal mode is very hard, you have all the feelings and the guilt just overcoming you when you see or think of things from your baby, the thing that help me more than anything is knowing he was in a better place with no pain...I truly am sorry that you have to go through this and I will be here for you if you just need to talk....May God bless you and ease your pain...Hugs & kisses.... __________________ KIM http://dogster.com/?307164 http://dogster.com/?375879The Monkeys http://www.photoshow.com/watch/PH5fy9Ff

09-02-2006, 07:26 AM	#4
Bella/Summer YorkieTalk Newbie! Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: calif Posts: 3	Were so sorry to hear about your lost __________________ Bella/Summer

09-02-2006, 07:39 AM	#5
ldenise YT 2000 Club Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Rancho Viejo, Tx Posts: 2,684	I am so very sorry. It breaks my heart to hear of another one sent to rainbow bridge. you know we are here for you if you need help in dealing with it all. bless her little heart. __________________ Buckeye, Ahia, Tressie, Archie & LDenise Dogs are really people with short legs in fur coats

09-02-2006, 08:30 AM	#6
chachi I Love My Yorkies Donating Member Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: Indianapolis, Indiana Posts: 22,165	I am so sorry for you loss of Izzabella. Just know we are all here for you __________________ Chachi's & Jewels Mom Jewels http://www.dogster.com/?132431 Chachi http://www.dogster.com/?132427

09-02-2006, 08:32 AM	#7
red98vett Yorkie Kisses are the Best! Donating Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Houston TX Posts: 29,948	Oh how sad... I'm very sorry to hear that...bless her little heart __________________ Villette, Chanel & Cheri.. AKA Spy-Girls (photos here) Click for LABELS Click for CARDS * SAY NO to PET STORES ! www.designsbyvillette.com USING YOUR PHOTOS !

09-02-2006, 08:42 AM	#8
Dragonfly My Sun Shine's bright Donating Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: Georiga Posts: 2,353	I'm so sorry for your loss and the pain you are going thru,My prayers are with you. __________________ My beautiful Sunshine Me & my Gang

09-02-2006, 08:54 AM	#9
layorkiemom Donating Yorkie Yakker Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Louisiana Posts: 83	I was so sorry to hear about your loss. She is defintely flying with the angels now.

09-02-2006, 09:20 AM	#10
RMKC Rosi & Poli's Mom Donating Member Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Washington State Posts: 5,090	I am soo sorry, and it must be so hard, but just think she is free of pain and flying with the Angels ! Hugs... __________________ ROSI & POLI Love my Babies

09-02-2006, 10:11 AM	#11
RoxyJosMom Love The Verminator! Donating Member Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: PA Posts: 3,937	I am so, so sorry for loss. Words won't fix your pain, but time will help heal the ache. She is safe now, and your memories will keep her with you always. Take your wings and fly little Izzabella __________________ Roxy loves Alphy Remi loves Millie ORDER YOUR YT COOKBOOK TODAY

09-02-2006, 10:55 AM	#12
YORKIEMOM2B2006 Owned by 3 furbabies Donating Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: Reading, Pennsylvania Posts: 2,534	I am so sorry for your loss __________________ Elaine, mom to 2 Yorkies Peanut & Dixie

09-02-2006, 10:59 AM	#13
cchu Donating YT 500 Club Member Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Queens, NY Posts: 1,482	oh I am sooo sorry. Its so hard to lose your baby but know that you will meet again one day. My thoughts are with you. __________________ Christine and Zoe www.dogster.com/?269135 Yes guys...Zoe is a BOY!! He finally forgave me.

09-02-2006, 12:01 PM	#14
yorkieusa Crazy about Kacee! Donating Member Join Date: May 2005 Location: Kansas Posts: 8,719	I'm so sorry you lost little Izzabella. I know it brings great pain and you have a great big hole in your heart now. It happened so suddenly that I'm sure that added to your shock and makes it much more difficult to deal with. Bless you. __________________ Karen Kacee Muffin 1991-2005 Rest in Peace My Little Angel

09-02-2006, 12:13 PM	#15
baby03 Donating YT 2000 Club Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: us Posts: 2,249	I am so sorry to hear of your loss!! I know words cannot ease the pain you are in!! You are in my thoughts and prayers!! God bless you!!