I am so sorry for you...I too have been where you are now, and there isn't anything I can say to ease your pain...Just know that you did the right thing for little angel Izzabella. Until someone has had to be in your shoes and watch and listen & see what your precious angel is going through they can not understand the pain...I too had one that had seizures from Liver Shunts, his poor little body just couldn't handle it anymore so I choose the same path as you...It has been 3 years and my heart still aches for him, but time does help ease the pain. It took me a good 2 months to stop crying everyday, and trying to go back to normal mode is very hard, you have all the feelings and the guilt just overcoming you when you see or think of things from your baby, the thing that help me more than anything is knowing he was in a better place with no pain...I truly am sorry that you have to go through this and I will be here for you if you just need to talk....May God bless you and ease your pain...Hugs & kisses....
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