Here it is!!!!

http://www.yorkietalk.com/forums/sho...d.php?t=107713

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great post, V. I totally agree that people today are so obsessed with their weight and clothes sizes. Honestly, I don't see what the big deal is--many clothes sizes vary so much from store to store, depending on how they are made. I have a closet full of clothes with a range of sizes. As long as I look and feel healthy, I'm golden. I think the bony emaciated look is completely unattractive and a lot of guys I know prefer women w/ curves anyway. So I say, "Ladies, stop worrying so much about clothes sizes and enjoy some Christmas cookies!" :p

i do weigh 116 and im 5'4 I do weigh wear a size 1 or 3 depending on the brand but i DONT starve myself. so just how yall felt those other comments were rude to yall when alex called herself fatty. I think this one was rude. I mean there are skinny people who wish to be bigger but are just smalled framed.
I eat tons of food (actually i will take a box of those donuts too) but my mom, grandma, sister are all small framed and i got those genes. I do wish i had some more weight on me in certain places but guess what its not gonna happen. So just like some big people want to be skinny and dont like themselves you dont know what goes through skinnier peoples minds either.

sorry chloetg just wanted to say that.

i mean we walk around everyday outside and see people who are bigger and skinnier than us but we cant talk about it?

Sorry for the long rant, but I think it is important...
 

Well I have been watching these threads and not wanted to say anything, but I think they are harmful. Some people think threads and things of this sort where we all lament about how we want to lose weight, or how we are jealous of those who do not have to lose weight, etc are just in fun or just venting, but do we really know who reads this board? Or whether or not it will be harmful to them? I think it is important to try to think of these things, particularly because we have some younger members.

I have always struggled with my weight. In middle school I recieved a subscription to Seventeen magazine as a birthday gift, and that is when the comparrisons began. I have now learned at that time I was far from overweight but boy I sure did not look long and lean like those girls...So I started "dieting" I would go out jogging for 2-3 hours a day, and all I would eat was rice. Eventually I started having fainting spells, so in to the doctor it was, and they figured I had a blood sugar problem so then I was given these nutrition bars...I then began dividing it into 10 pieces and that was all I would eat save for dinner with my family. Eventually at some point this dinner would promptly go down the toilet. When I started high school I weighed something like 89 pounds and I wore the famed size 0. Boy did it seem great, but what I did not realize is that by chronically comparing myself, and having slightly disordered behavior I had laid the foundation for many serious health problems and becoming extremely out of control...So I stayed the course and kept obsessing, nothing was ever quite enough, and certainly I doubt you want to hear all the details but the trap of comparing myself to others led to the following. I never reached 100 pounds before college and boy oh boy I never let myself reach above a size 2 but in the process...

I put my family through hell. My parents felt responsible, they felt they had to watch me constantly, they spent in excess of $100k of their savings and put a second mortgage on their house to get me failed treatment after failed treatment. They began blaming each other and their marriage was nearly destroyed. I lost their trust and their respect.

I spent hours that I should have been having fun or playing sports or going to the mall in hospitals and therapists offices. Even when I went I particpated in the activities all young girls should the joy was lost because I was wrapped up in worrying about how I could avoid going out to dinner before prom or if I had snuck enough diuretics to not look "bloated." Shopping for my prom dress with my mom I remember crying hysterically because the dress I wanted would not fit properly, at the time I thought it was because I was an awkward size, but it was simply because I was too boney.

My habits had become bizarre. Once in college I could go about attempting to be too thin unfettered by my parents. I began living off 1 boullion cube a day, eating cotton to avoid feeling hungary, took 10-20 ephedra pills per day, and having weekly binges in which I would eat like $200 worth of groceries in a sitting and promptly purge them. I fought desperatly against the fact I reached 100 pounds, and I did so brutally. One spring break I went shopping with a friend from the dorm. I was 20 years old at this point and the size 0 at Old Navy was too big. I fit into the large size childrens clothing. I felt like that was a huge achievement...I did not realize all the sales people, my friend, everyone were horrified...I kept on...

Once in law school, after 10 years of dysfunctional behavior, I fell in love with a fellow law student who ended up be a complete ass who broke my heart over and over again, but the one thing he did was watch my behavior. He urged over and over for me to reenter treatment, and worked with my family to try to get me help, etc. I refused naturally, until one moring. It was our second year and we had been up nearly all night studying for finals. I woke up and felt strangely hot, I stumbled to my bathroom and began vomiting blood, I blacked out and walked through my hall I am told now that I was crawling...The boyfriend picked me up and said I felt cold to the touch, I remember feeling like I was burning up, and he rushed me to a hospital. As it turns out I had a heart attack. At age 22 I had a heart attack! But I did not only have a heart attack, I had several problems. I was malnurished, dehydrated and had a severe electrolyte imbalance which caused the heart attack. I had adema, muscular atrophy, tearing in my esophogus, gastrointestinal bleeding, thrombocytopenian causing me to have suppressed immune system, ketoacidosis, osteopenia (thing preosteporosis), I had not had a period in 3 years (this now may affect my fertility), teeth that were rotting from vomiting (I did not choose my venners I had to get them), a heart arrythmia, and peptic ulcers. Essentially I had the body of someone 30-40 years older than I was. All to be thin, all because I could not stop comparing.

Sure you say I must be a complete wacko, totally crazy, no one here is like that...Well we do not know that. No one, even if it is a matter of choice or whatever you think, deserves that. It has been a long road back for me, and I still struggle, particularly since my metabolism in the process was shot and I gain weight very easily, but I would gladly be a size 20 and enjoy my life, then put myself or my loved ones through all that again! When we start comparing ourselves or we put ourselves under undue preassure, what message are we sending to that younger member or the one who is more vulnerable?

I try so hard now just to think of my body in terms of how it is working and what is healthy. I know now I need to loose weight, but instead of working on that I set a fitness goal. I want to climb Mt. Rainier, so I am just going to work to get ready for that instead of focusing on diet. I think it would be much better if we all just focused on our good points or our goals then our pants size.

Bruce's_Mom - you've been thru hell and I'm sorry.... but look at you now - you've come a long way baby !!!

it's too bad more young girls don't realize what they do in their teens can really harm them later in life....You should consider speaking at schools etc sharing your story - :thumbup:

I don't think you're a wacko at all - that's a real eating disorder and you were lucky to come thru it alive - you should be proud of yourself !!

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Villette you are such a wonderful person here on YT!!! You always know how to make people feel much better! I was crying having typed that piece feeling like I was sharing too much, but you put it in perspective.

I do not go and talk to young folks because I am still sort of new to my recovery, and I have had a lot of set backs...BUT through this all one thing I have really learned is the power of a yorkie...Bruce was given to me when I was going through extreme heartache and as a result falling back on old unhealthy ways hoping he would take the focus off of me...AND HE HELPED!!! He has always been so sensitive, and after I had him if I tried to "purge" he was at my heals and would just come lay his head on my knee...So now Sundays he visits the girls at a local hospitals eating disorders unit where I once resided, during their dinner time, and apparently getting the focus of eating has helped a few of them...So that I am happy to share, Bruce I really credit with saving my life, because of him I had a new focus, I finished law school, etc. ANIMALS and especially Yorkies are miracles!

Hmmm, I want a donut, too! Cream filled:)

BTW I think one of my THIGHS is a size 2 - does that matter?

oh wow - you ARE doing something with your life efforts to overcome this - good for you ! He must be such a hit in the hospital :) and congrats on finishing law school !!

I agree with you so much about yorkies. When my husband died - so much of the time right after is a blur...even now I can hardly remember many days except for the crying & emotion & though I fell apart I knew I had to girls to feed and take care of so they really kept me going - especially at night. There were so many nights I layed there crying then would look at them and try to pull myself together for THEIR sake - They didn't get groomed as ususal and it sure shows LOL - but they've been my little rocks - as are my friends.

You have a friend right here if you ever need to talk and you just keep on doing what you're doing - I think you already climbed Mt. Rainer !:D

and ps - after posting on this DOUGHNUT thread - I told you guys you made me hungry - I met a friend at IHOP and made a pig of myself - man - NOW I know why I'm a light eater in the mornings - I had to take a nap I was so full LOL - so...... NO doughuts for me !

Wow! You've been through hell and back......

Have you every heard of unparticipant anorexia....that's what I had.....I've always been slight of build and have fought to keep my weight up.....2,200 calories a day to stay at 105.....I'm 5'4". However, when I'm unders stress my system goes into starvation mode....I can't eat....When going through my divorce, this happened....my system sufferred....I now have heart arythmia.....esophogial problems, and have had ulcers and stomach disorders.. This was not self imposed, but it did bring on medical disorders.....I now have to be fully aware of when I'm under stress and force myself to eat, whether I'm hungry or not....This disorder automatically makes my body drop weight.....even if I am eating.....I'm now weighing in at 126....since I automatically went down to 118 pounds when my mother passed in August.....so, I'm hoping that I can get up to 130

I've come up from a size 2 to a size 4 and I'm hoping to get to a size 8.

You are SO RIGHT ON THE sizes ! I had to shop for work - found my size (5-6) and come home with some pants - they were way too big and I compared them with my size 3 jeans in my house and they matched !!

It's crazy now - I think the MFG's want people to buy smaller sizes so they THINK they're tinier and spend more. That to me is just a PLOY to get more money out of consumers.:thumbdown

So basically - ALL of you who said what size you are ....You REALLY DON'T KNOW do you ?? You may think you're a 10-12 or whatever but you COULD BE 4 sizes smaller LOL !!!!! '

so there !........................... HA !

Does everyone feel better now ????:D

aah who cares- life is short- live well:)

Gosh, I'm 5'4" and if I GOT MY WEIGHT DOWN TO 160 I'd feel I've reached my goal weight!:cool: Men used to follow me around to look at my fine bootay when I weighed 160, so I sure wasn't fat then. LOL. I was well proportioned. I won't say how much I weigh now but I want to lose 30 lbs. heheheheheh....... where are those donuts now? It's not January 1 yet, so I can still have one....:thumbup: :rolleyes:

Hi, it's me....over HERE!!! :wavey: Been dieting for years...and years...and years. :( I\'m 5\'7" and I wear a size 12. And I just had a hot chocolate with whipped creme. So there.