Meika is gone, I am beyond devastated

[joyce evans]

Sandy,


It just blows my mind how easy it has been for me to get so attached to some of the people and pups on this site. You are one of my favorites and I am truly sorry that you are having to go through this. I too have been thinking of you and I just hope you find a little peace with each passing day.
One of the hardest things is to love so much and have to let go.

[tutters]

I got the vet's call yesterday that Jake's ashes are ready, too. I'm going to take Kiri with me on Saturday to pick them up. (Can't get there until then.) I miss him so much. My brother, Mr. Thoughtful and Considerate, had my Christmas present this past year be a special urn FOR WHEN JAKE DIED. Isn't that a nice Christmas present??? I have never felt the same way about him since, and of course any acknowledgment to me of Jake's passing? Noooooooo. This is why I love dogs better than most people.

[wemple2]

May having her ashes home with you bring you much needed comfort. The sweet memories of her to cherish will keep you going. I realize there is an emptiness in your heart that seems as though can never be filled. Eventually the tears will end and the precious memories will take over...and push all the sadness away.

[yorkiefan_]

Originally Posted by tutters

I got the vet's call yesterday that Jake's ashes are ready, too. I'm going to take Kiri with me on Saturday to pick them up. (Can't get there until then.) I miss him so much. My brother, Mr. Thoughtful and Considerate, had my Christmas present this past year be a special urn FOR WHEN JAKE DIED. Isn't that a nice Christmas present??? I have never felt the same way about him since, and of course any acknowledgment to me of Jake's passing? Noooooooo. This is why I love dogs better than most people.

Wow. That's horrible. I can't imagine how hurt I would be getting a 'gift' like that, especially in Minnie's last year when her mortality was on my mind a lot since she was getting old.

[MauiGirl]

Meika is home now. I was so anxious to get her home that I underestimated how emotional it would be going there, and leaving with that box. I had to re-live all the horrid memories of the day she died, and cried for hours, so sad that I could not save her.

Now it's time to pull myself together again, and get back to remembering happier times. But just for now I wish I could hold my little funny girl and give her more kisses.

I'm missing this little smiley face:

[wemple2]

Such a beautiful girl with a heart of gold...in a rather strange way, I miss her too.

[tutters]

I feel the same way about my Jake. Tomorrow I have to go pick up his ashes at the vet. I know 16 years is a pretty long life for a dog, but I wish I had my baby back--if he were healthy. God, I miss him.

[kjc]

Beautiful pics of Meika. Feeling for you, I know how hard that final trip is to get their ashes. Wishing you Peace in your heart...

[Maximo]

Gorgeous photos. Love Meika's smile.

I am continuing to pray for your peace and comfort, and for your girls as they adjust.

[yorkiefan_]

I love seeing pics of your happy girl, Sandy. Meika was such a stunning beauty.

[yorkietalkjilly]

Meika was so angelic looking and so smiley and happy-looking, I can only imagine how you must miss her and just knew that picking up her little ashes would hurt from beginning to end. Going to get them, driving them home and coming inside, placing the urn really re-opens old pain to have to live through. Day at a time.

[MauiGirl]

You are all so sweet, and I do appreciate your thoughtful comments. It IS like we know each other, and I do feel comforted by your caring words.

This thread holds some of my most painful moments ever. Soon I will start a new thread where I can share some of the happier memories and photos of my Meika. She was really a special girl and very unique.

[MrT]

Meika will live forever in your heart, RIP.

[MauiGirl]

It was just 10 weeks ago today... a Sunday at 3:30 in the afternoon that Meika left us, and still every Sunday at that time I sob until I can hardly breathe.

I think I've done so much healing, I am comforted by the good memories, and the other 3 pups are doing well. Then Sunday afternoon comes and the whole in my heart opens up and I cannot stop the flood of tears.

Oh my Meika, I just want to kiss your smiley face some more.

[yorkiefan_]

Originally Posted by MauiGirl

It was just 10 weeks ago today... a Sunday at 3:30 in the afternoon that Meika left us, and still every Sunday at that time I sob until I can hardly breathe.

I think I've done so much healing, I am comforted by the good memories, and the other 3 pups are doing well. Then Sunday afternoon comes and the whole in my heart opens up and I cannot stop the flood of tears.

Oh my Meika, I just want to kiss your smiley face some more.

I'm so sorry. I know you are the greatest mother Meika could have ever had. It's just maddening when something so out of your control happens.