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Lisa and Pic · 09-13-2013, 12:55 AM

I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I do think talking to other pet lovers helps with the grief. (I wish I had found YorkieTalk, when I was dealing with the loss of my first Yorkie.) Hugs to you and deep sympathy.

yorkiefan_ · 09-14-2013, 08:12 AM

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Originally Posted by stormchaser

I never dreamed of the day i'd have to look up at a vet and tell her to put my dear baby to sleep for good but when you see your baby suffering and you know there's no hope you have to do what's best for them and not what's best for you. Your gut tells you to keep them hanging on but I told her if I could take the hurt to myself and away from her I would ..... well I guess that's what I did because I know she's not hurting anymore and now my insides are torn apart I never knew you could hurt like this but i'm glad its me and not my sweet baby girl. I stood there with her in my arms her head on my shoulder as the vet stuck the needle in her IV and slowly put my baby to sleep I felt the life leave her as her sweet little chin slowly lowered down to the bend of my arm and the last breath leave her and then I knew she was gone and I totally fell apart. I've never felt more empty and alone inside I lost my baby my daughter my best friend but I truly know she will always be in my heart as will I hers. Roxee may Glod Bless you and keep you safe until I can get there to. I love you my sweet baby girl and will miss you more than u know. I know your know well and healthy and running and playing I know your your old self again and what i'd give to see that just one more time. I know u'll be waiting at that rainbow bridge for me and I cant wait to see you once again come running to me with your sweet sweet kisses I love you Rox love daddy

That is the most heartbreaking thing I have ever read.

I lost my Doberman from cancer, but we didn't put her to sleep. She was in pain and screaming her whole last night and I felt so bad for not letting her go peacefully. It was such a huge mistake. As incredibly difficult as it was, you made the right decision. It just hurts so badly when you have to make a choice between two terrible things and you have to pick the least bad one.

RIP to Roxee and hugs to you, stormchaser. I hope your girl has met up with my Minnie to go on a nice bird hunt at the bridge.

lisaly · 09-14-2013, 12:54 PM

I'm deeply sorry for your loss. We pour our hearts and souls into our little ones, and they are our babies. When we lose them, the pain feels unbearable. My heart breaks reading how difficult this is for you, and I understand. It has been three years since I lost my almost seventeen year old , Ashley, and her two sisters Kiwi and Gracie passed away a few years before her. I will always love and miss them, and they remain such a huge part of our hearts. When we lost Ashley, I found this poem, which helped me cope with her loss.

A Living Love

If you ever love an animal, there are three days in your life you will always remember . . .

The first is a day, blessed with happiness, when you bring home your young new friend. You may have spent weeks deciding on a breed. You may have asked numerous opinions of many vets, or done long research in finding a breeder. Or, perhaps in a fleeting moment, you may have just chosen that silly looking mutt in a shelter -- simply because something in its eyes reached your heart. But when you bring that chosen pet home, and watch it explore, and claim its special place in your hall or front room -- and when you feel it brush against you for the first time -- it instills a feeling of pure love you will carry with you through the many years to come.

The second day will occur eight or nine or ten years later. It will be a day like any other. Routine and unexceptional. But, for a surprising instant, you will look at your longtime friend and see age where you once saw youth. You will see slow deliberate steps where you once saw energy. And you will see sleep when you once saw activity. So you will begin to adjust your friend's diet -- and you may add a pill or two to her food. And you may feel a growing fear deep within yourself, which bodes of a coming emptiness. And you will feel this uneasy feeling, on and off, until the third day finally arrives.

And on this day -- if your friend and whatever higher being you believe in have not decided for you, then you will be faced with making a decision of your own -- on behalf of your lifelong friend, and with the guidance of your own deepest Spirit. But whichever way your friend eventually leaves you -- you will feel as long as a single star in the dark night.

If you are wise, you will let the tears flow as freely and as often as they must. And if you are typical, you will find that not many in your circle of family or friends will be able to understand your grief, or comfort you.

But if you are true to the love of the pet you cherished through the many joy-filled years, you may find that a soul -- a bit smaller in size than your own -- seems to walk with you, at times, during the lonely days to come.

And at moments when you least expect anything out of the ordinary to happen, you may feel something brush against your leg -- very very lightly.

And looking down at the place where your dear, perhaps dearest, friend used to lie -- you will remember those three significant days. The memory will most likely to be painful, and leave an ache in your heart--
-

As time passes the ache will come and go as if it has a life of its own. You will both reject it and it, and it may confuse you. If you reject it, it will depress you. If you embrace it, it will deepen you. Either way, it will still be an ache.

But there will be, I assure you, a fourth day when -- along with the memory of your pet -- and piercing through the heaviness in your heart -- there will come a realization that belongs only to you. It will be as unique and strong as our relationship with each animal we have loved, and lost. This realization takes the form of a Living Love -- like the heavenly scent of a rose that remains after the petals have wilted, this Love will remain and grow -- and be there for us to remember. It is a love we have earned. It is the legacy our pets leave us when they go. And it is a gift we may keep with us as long as we live. It is a Love which is ours alone. And until we ourselves leave, perhaps to join our Beloved Pets -- it is a Love we will always possess.

~~by Martin Scot Kosins

stormchaser · 09-16-2013, 07:20 AM

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Originally Posted by stormchaser

I lost my baby girl Roxee a 9 year old last week from cancer. she was my heart and soul truly my very best friend. I feel so lost so empty I'm still in shock that she's gone. she was the light of my life my everything. my heart has been broken into a thousand pieces. I know she's going to be waiting on that bridge for me and honestly I cant wait. I know only true yorkie lovers can understand how I feel right now but I didn't lose a dog I lost a daughter my heart and soul. all I can say is for all of ya'll that still have your babies love them with everything you have as I know you will. that's the one thing I can say I have no regrets I loved her with all my heart everyday. I wouldn't change a thing except to have had her much longer than just 9 years. may God Bless all your little babies and keep them safe.

please tell me how you get over this how do u get past this I lost my best friend my soul mate my heat and soul I've never felt more lost and more empty in ;my life how do I go on without my sweet wonderfull Roxee . Roxee baby girl I love you with all my heart and soul i'm dyeing inside I cant handle losing u you are and were my everything how am I suppose to go on without u . when no one in this world was there for me you were and I know in my heart that you will always be here with me as I will always be there for u baby girl daddy loves u with all his heat and soul

MomtoJasper · 09-16-2013, 07:29 AM

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Shedding tears for your grief and sadness. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Rest In Peace Sweet Roxee.

Tinksmygirl · 09-16-2013, 10:27 AM

I am so sorry you lost your sweet Roxie. I am crying for you and for me. I lost my dear Isabella and reading your post has brought up all the emotions I was holding deep inside.

I pray in time you will heal and be able to remember the happy memories.

RIP Roxie

joyce evans · 09-16-2013, 11:44 AM

I am soo sorry.

stormchaser · 10-12-2013, 10:18 PM

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Originally Posted by stormchaser

I lost my baby girl Roxee a 9 year old last week from cancer. she was my heart and soul truly my very best friend. I feel so lost so empty I'm still in shock that she's gone. she was the light of my life my everything. my heart has been broken into a thousand pieces. I know she's going to be waiting on that bridge for me and honestly I cant wait. I know only true yorkie lovers can understand how I feel right now but I didn't lose a dog I lost a daughter my heart and soul. all I can say is for all of ya'll that still have your babies love them with everything you have as I know you will. that's the one thing I can say I have no regrets I loved her with all my heart everyday. I wouldn't change a thing except to have had her much longer than just 9 years. may God Bless all your little babies and keep them safe.

My sweet sweet baby girl its been a little over a month since I had to let you go and my heart still breaks wide open I've lost my best friend my soul mate the one soul that love daddy unconditionally. You brought such joy and happiness into my life you where the only one that truly loves me without question as you know I did you. Please my sweet baby girl tell me how daddy is suppose to go on without you its been over a month and I'm no more over you than I was to start with. You see my sweet baby mock mock I lived for you as you did for me now i'm all alone and I cant take it without you as long as you where here with me I had a reason to go on but now your gone and all I want to do is go to that rainbow bridge to see you again and cross it into heaven and spend forever with you. I so hope and pray you knew just how very very much your daddy loved you as I'm very sure you did as I showed you each and everyday as you did me . baby girl I have no doubt has to how very much you loved me as you showed me everyday. you made every step I did no matter what. you where and are and always will be my soul mate my very best friend. There's not a day goes by that I don't think about you dream about you life without you is so terrible. Everyone thinks I've lost it and than don't understand as they don't understand what kind of bond you and I had. We had and still have the kind of bond that last forever and eternity just like you and I always talked about. My sweet baby angel girl I want you to know as long as I am a live you will be here too a live in my heart and after i'm gone from here it wont matter because I will be with you in heaven. Baby girl until then run play and I know my momma is there and I know she's taking care of you and I know you've fallen in love with her as she has with you I will be there soon my sweet darling and always know that daddy loves you know tomorrow and forever until we meet at that rainbow bridge my precious darling daddy loves you

lainacohen · 10-12-2013, 10:29 PM

I am sad to say the pain never really goes away. But with time we learn how to adapt with the pain. Take your time to heal, don't rush it. Never think that you are wrong to broken from this and that it will take time to adjust. Grieve how ever you decide is best and know our community is here to support you through it.

Doodlebug · 10-13-2013, 05:16 AM

I am so sorry that you lost your darling baby Roxee. You are among friends and fellow Yorkie lovers who understand the bond you had with Roxee. Please continue to check in and share your loving memories of your dear sweet girl and know that you are among friends who understand your loss. Hugs and prayers for you.

sandy simpson · 10-13-2013, 05:47 AM

How heartbreaking when we lose our sweet dogs. I still cry when I remember Teddy Peanut. I am so sad little Roxee went home to dog heaven. I wish we could get a peek and see her now. I am sure she is romping around. My prayers of comfort for you.

JuliannaB · 10-13-2013, 08:19 AM

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Originally Posted by stormchaser

My sweet sweet baby girl its been a little over a month since I had to let you go and my heart still breaks wide open I've lost my best friend my soul mate the one soul that love daddy unconditionally. You brought such joy and happiness into my life you where the only one that truly loves me without question as you know I did you. Please my sweet baby girl tell me how daddy is suppose to go on without you its been over a month and I'm no more over you than I was to start with. You see my sweet baby mock mock I lived for you as you did for me now i'm all alone and I cant take it without you as long as you where here with me I had a reason to go on but now your gone and all I want to do is go to that rainbow bridge to see you again and cross it into heaven and spend forever with you. I so hope and pray you knew just how very very much your daddy loved you as I'm very sure you did as I showed you each and everyday as you did me . baby girl I have no doubt has to how very much you loved me as you showed me everyday. you made every step I did no matter what. you where and are and always will be my soul mate my very best friend. There's not a day goes by that I don't think about you dream about you life without you is so terrible. Everyone thinks I've lost it and than don't understand as they don't understand what kind of bond you and I had. We had and still have the kind of bond that last forever and eternity just like you and I always talked about. My sweet baby angel girl I want you to know as long as I am a live you will be here too a live in my heart and after i'm gone from here it wont matter because I will be with you in heaven. Baby girl until then run play and I know my momma is there and I know she's taking care of you and I know you've fallen in love with her as she has with you I will be there soon my sweet darling and always know that daddy loves you know tomorrow and forever until we meet at that rainbow bridge my precious darling daddy loves you

Ok this message got me... with tears running down my face. I just wanted to say that you have not 'lost it'. This was your baby girl, Roxee, and however you feel to grieve is the right way for you!!!! As the saying goes, something like this - 'we only truly know when we have walked in someone else's shoes'. They just haven't walked there. We all go through the grieving motions, just in a different order. I can only imagine your deep pain! You have lost your best friend and no one can make that pain away, just in time you will heal... maybe not whole, but bit by bit it will get better. You wrote such a raw and truthful post, and for that I thank you for sharing this with us all here at YT. I have been a member for such a short time, but can truly see the love and care that we all have for our Yorkie's and each other, when we find the time to post/reply. My deepest condolences go out to you!!!! Roxee was so lucky to have you as her best pal and guardian

Connie · 10-13-2013, 08:29 AM

I am in tears reading this terrible sadness. I am so very sorry that you lost your precious Roxee. I will pray for God to comfort you. It is so hard losing a loved one...the journey of grief is a long, grueling one. Sincere and heartfelt sympathy to you. God bless the memory of Roxee.

yorkietalkjilly · 10-13-2013, 08:33 AM

I'm so very sorry for your loss and pray that it gets better for you in time.

pclinester · 10-13-2013, 06:28 PM

[QUOTE=stormchaser;4314343]I lost my baby girl Roxee a 9 year old last week from cancer. she was my heart and soul truly my very best friend. I feel so lost so empty I'm still in shock that she's gone. she was the light of my life my everything. my heart has been broken into a thousand pieces. I know she's going to be waiting on that bridge for me and honestly I cant wait. I know only true yorkie lovers can understand how I feel right now but I didn't lose a dog I lost a daughter my heart and soul. all I can say is for all of ya'll that still have your babies love them with everything you have as I know you will. that's the one thing I can say I have no regrets I loved her with all my heart everyday. I wouldn't change a thing except to have had her much longer than just 9 years. may God Bless all your little babies and keep them safe.[6 w/QUOTE]

I am so sorry for your loss....I lost my Elvis about 6 weeks ago...There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him in some way...Although, the tears are few and farther between, and the memories are sweeter...I still miss him....two weeks ago, we blessed our family with another baby yorkie...It was so quiet and the emptiness was paralyzing at times, we needed to fill our home with the love a baby again...He is amazing, and so different from our Elvis...But he makes our hearts smile again...We can laugh, and play and open our hearts once again to love another.... I pray for peace for you, and for the day when you too can love another...God bless and hugs....

09-13-2013, 12:55 AM	#16
Lisa and Pic ♥ Piccolo & Vivi ♥ Donating Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Kentucky Posts: 14,311	I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I do think talking to other pet lovers helps with the grief. (I wish I had found YorkieTalk, when I was dealing with the loss of my first Yorkie.) Hugs to you and deep sympathy. __________________ Lisa, Dixie, and Jazzy (RIP Piccolo and Vivi)

09-16-2013, 07:29 AM	#20
MomtoJasper Donating YT 500 Club Member Join Date: Mar 2013 Location: Munford, Tennessee, USA Posts: 1,598 Blog Entries: 2	I'm so very sorry for your loss. Shedding tears for your grief and sadness. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Rest In Peace Sweet Roxee. __________________ Steph & Jasper

09-16-2013, 11:44 AM	#22
joyce evans YT 1000 Club Member Join Date: Feb 2013 Location: houston Posts: 1,519	I am soo sorry. __________________ Hannah's Mom

10-12-2013, 10:29 PM	#24
lainacohen Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: Cleveland Posts: 126	I am sad to say the pain never really goes away. But with time we learn how to adapt with the pain. Take your time to heal, don't rush it. Never think that you are wrong to broken from this and that it will take time to adjust. Grieve how ever you decide is best and know our community is here to support you through it. __________________ Laina Cohen, "The dog is a gentleman; I hope to go to his heaven, not man's." Mark Twain

10-13-2013, 05:16 AM	#25
Doodlebug ♥Love My Puppies!♥ Donating Member Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: US Posts: 5,786	I am so sorry that you lost your darling baby Roxee. You are among friends and fellow Yorkie lovers who understand the bond you had with Roxee. Please continue to check in and share your loving memories of your dear sweet girl and know that you are among friends who understand your loss. Hugs and prayers for you. __________________ RIP My Sweet Darling Angel Daisy 08/09/03 - 10/02/15, RIP My Sweet Baby Boy Teddy Bear 02/01/04 - 02/11/16 Photos HERE

09-14-2013, 12:54 PM	#18
lisaly Donating YT 500 Club Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Long Island, New York Posts: 5,892	I'm deeply sorry for your loss. We pour our hearts and souls into our little ones, and they are our babies. When we lose them, the pain feels unbearable. My heart breaks reading how difficult this is for you, and I understand. It has been three years since I lost my almost seventeen year old , Ashley, and her two sisters Kiwi and Gracie passed away a few years before her. I will always love and miss them, and they remain such a huge part of our hearts. When we lost Ashley, I found this poem, which helped me cope with her loss. A Living Love If you ever love an animal, there are three days in your life you will always remember . . . The first is a day, blessed with happiness, when you bring home your young new friend. You may have spent weeks deciding on a breed. You may have asked numerous opinions of many vets, or done long research in finding a breeder. Or, perhaps in a fleeting moment, you may have just chosen that silly looking mutt in a shelter -- simply because something in its eyes reached your heart. But when you bring that chosen pet home, and watch it explore, and claim its special place in your hall or front room -- and when you feel it brush against you for the first time -- it instills a feeling of pure love you will carry with you through the many years to come. The second day will occur eight or nine or ten years later. It will be a day like any other. Routine and unexceptional. But, for a surprising instant, you will look at your longtime friend and see age where you once saw youth. You will see slow deliberate steps where you once saw energy. And you will see sleep when you once saw activity. So you will begin to adjust your friend's diet -- and you may add a pill or two to her food. And you may feel a growing fear deep within yourself, which bodes of a coming emptiness. And you will feel this uneasy feeling, on and off, until the third day finally arrives. And on this day -- if your friend and whatever higher being you believe in have not decided for you, then you will be faced with making a decision of your own -- on behalf of your lifelong friend, and with the guidance of your own deepest Spirit. But whichever way your friend eventually leaves you -- you will feel as long as a single star in the dark night. If you are wise, you will let the tears flow as freely and as often as they must. And if you are typical, you will find that not many in your circle of family or friends will be able to understand your grief, or comfort you. But if you are true to the love of the pet you cherished through the many joy-filled years, you may find that a soul -- a bit smaller in size than your own -- seems to walk with you, at times, during the lonely days to come. And at moments when you least expect anything out of the ordinary to happen, you may feel something brush against your leg -- very very lightly. And looking down at the place where your dear, perhaps dearest, friend used to lie -- you will remember those three significant days. The memory will most likely to be painful, and leave an ache in your heart-- - As time passes the ache will come and go as if it has a life of its own. You will both reject it and it, and it may confuse you. If you reject it, it will depress you. If you embrace it, it will deepen you. Either way, it will still be an ache. But there will be, I assure you, a fourth day when -- along with the memory of your pet -- and piercing through the heaviness in your heart -- there will come a realization that belongs only to you. It will be as unique and strong as our relationship with each animal we have loved, and lost. This realization takes the form of a Living Love -- like the heavenly scent of a rose that remains after the petals have wilted, this Love will remain and grow -- and be there for us to remember. It is a love we have earned. It is the legacy our pets leave us when they go. And it is a gift we may keep with us as long as we live. It is a Love which is ours alone. And until we ourselves leave, perhaps to join our Beloved Pets -- it is a Love we will always possess. ~~by Martin Scot Kosins

09-16-2013, 10:27 AM	#21
Tinksmygirl YT Addict Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: Magnolia, DE Posts: 435	I am so sorry you lost your sweet Roxie. I am crying for you and for me. I lost my dear Isabella and reading your post has brought up all the emotions I was holding deep inside. I pray in time you will heal and be able to remember the happy memories. RIP Roxie

10-13-2013, 05:47 AM	#26
sandy simpson YT 2000 Club Member Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: santee, california Posts: 2,123 Blog Entries: 1	dog How heartbreaking when we lose our sweet dogs. I still cry when I remember Teddy Peanut. I am so sad little Roxee went home to dog heaven. I wish we could get a peek and see her now. I am sure she is romping around. My prayers of comfort for you.

10-13-2013, 08:29 AM	#28
Connie Loved by Maddie & Libby Donating Member Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: North Dakota Posts: 10,732	I am in tears reading this terrible sadness. I am so very sorry that you lost your precious Roxee. I will pray for God to comfort you. It is so hard losing a loved one...the journey of grief is a long, grueling one. Sincere and heartfelt sympathy to you. God bless the memory of Roxee. __________________ Custom doggie dresses and vests Memory is a country where I can go to see your face - but where do I go when I miss your embrace?

10-13-2013, 08:33 AM	#29
yorkietalkjilly ♥ Love My Tibbe! ♥ Donating Member Join Date: Feb 2011 Location: D/FW, Texas Posts: 22,140	I'm so very sorry for your loss and pray that it gets better for you in time. __________________ Jeanie and Tibbe One must do the best one can. You may get some marks for a very imperfect answer: you will certainly get none for leaving the question alone. C. S. Lewis

10-13-2013, 06:28 PM	#30
pclinester Yorkie Yakker Join Date: Sep 2013 Location: Jenks, Oklahoma USA Posts: 50	I am so sorry... [QUOTE=stormchaser;4314343]I lost my baby girl Roxee a 9 year old last week from cancer. she was my heart and soul truly my very best friend. I feel so lost so empty I'm still in shock that she's gone. she was the light of my life my everything. my heart has been broken into a thousand pieces. I know she's going to be waiting on that bridge for me and honestly I cant wait. I know only true yorkie lovers can understand how I feel right now but I didn't lose a dog I lost a daughter my heart and soul. all I can say is for all of ya'll that still have your babies love them with everything you have as I know you will. that's the one thing I can say I have no regrets I loved her with all my heart everyday. I wouldn't change a thing except to have had her much longer than just 9 years. may God Bless all your little babies and keep them safe.[6 w/QUOTE] I am so sorry for your loss....I lost my Elvis about 6 weeks ago...There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him in some way...Although, the tears are few and farther between, and the memories are sweeter...I still miss him....two weeks ago, we blessed our family with another baby yorkie...It was so quiet and the emptiness was paralyzing at times, we needed to fill our home with the love a baby again...He is amazing, and so different from our Elvis...But he makes our hearts smile again...We can laugh, and play and open our hearts once again to love another.... I pray for peace for you, and for the day when you too can love another...God bless and hugs....