RIP My Sweet Jezebel
 

Im really at a loss for words. One day I cry, the next day sometimes seems brighter. You really never know after something so devastating has happened like this.

Jezebel was a fiesty 2 1/2 lb female yorkie. She was 3 yrs old, and was my partner in crime. Her and I had a business at the local mall selling doggie clothes. She went with me 7 days a week, with no complaints. She would sit in her little carrier and keep me company all those long days. Our bathroom breaks were extra fun for her. I would take her into the family bathroom and let her run crazy. Finally around 9 pm when the mall would close, we would pack up and go home and do it all over again the next morning.

My breeder had called me and asked if I wanted Jezebel's nephew who had just turned 20 weeks. I went and seen him and fell in love, his name is Royal.
Well, worried that they could have puppies, I decided to get them fixed. I did Royal first, he did just fine. Next was Jezebel. My baby did not do just fine. Two days after her surgery she was hurting very badly and trying to go potty, but nothing was happening. I took her back to the vet, and he said that sometimes with the little ones like this, its easy to irritate there insides, gave me some medicine and sent us home. 5 days later she was bleeding from down there, my vet was closed, so I took her to emergency. They blamed it on food I fed her or something insane like that, gave me medicine, said she would be a lot better in the morning.
Morning never came for her. As she cried in agony all night, my husband and I believed the vet and thought it was a belly ache. We didn't know, we thought she was going to be okay. She bled to death on June 22, 2008 due to a cut artery from her surgery. Waking up and feeling her, and realizing shes gone to heaven, I cant begin to tell anyone here the pain that I felt, the hurt that wont go away. For the first time in my life I really thought about driving head on into traffic, I really am not sure what stopped me. The vet has since fessed up and wants to replace my baby. Its hard, especially when the word replacement is said.
Jezebel is never coming home, I realize that. Sometimes I cant help but think shes at the groomer, and I need to go get her soon. Its God way of helping me cope and get through this.
You will never be forgotten baby.
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im soo sorry you have to go through this! I too lost my boy while getting neutered and i dont wish that pain on anyone! Just give it time. I promise you will never forget her. this happened in March 2008 for me and just the other night i was in tears cuz i miss him soo much still. I hope you get a little comfort.

Your story of little Jezebel broke my heart. I am so sad for you...I can't even imagine. It sounds like you did everything you could and, more imprortantly, that she was extremely loved. I hope your heart begins to heal and you will fall in love again but I know you will always miss your baby. So sad and I am so sorry for you!

Omg.. I am so sorry this happened to you.. it could not have been worse.. I lost a 5 year old due to vet error.. so I know the heartache and hearbreak you feel...
It has been 5 years for me.. but still feels like it just happened.. I do have to say having other yorkies.. keeping me busy.. and them needing me and loving me.. sure made it easier to get by.. but pepsie will never be forgotten..

anne

I'm sorry I can't imagine your shock and pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you in this horrible time.

I'm so sorry you lost you sweet Jezebel, I would let the vet buy you a new little girl as it may help you heal. BUT you wil never replace her. I'm sure she would want you to be happy again.

OMG! What a horrible story! I am so sorry for your tragic loss.

I hope you like this

So sorry for your loss.....
 

So sorry for your loss. I too lost my little male Yorkie suddenly from a urinary obstruction. I was depressed and hurting for so long. It will take time, lots of time before you can think of her without it hurting really horribly. But, eventually you will remember the good things and not hurt so awfully bad. Be sure and take the vet up on their offer to give you the replacement fee. She cannot be replaced, but you should be compensated for their horrible mistake. They should have taken a second and even third look to make sure she was okay, so let them pay for their mistake. I'll be praying for you and will keep you in my thoughts.

I can't believe that happened to you! I am SO sorry for your loss! I live up the hill from an animal hospital and the other day one of the workers was out searching around my complex for a dog they had lost! I got a bit worried because there is a coyote that lives around here. I don't know the end result, but it just goes to show BE CAREFUL WITH VETS! I am so sorry this had to happen to you. Know that you're little friend is in a happier place now but unfortunately it's the ones that miss them that suffer. My thoughts and prayers are with you in your time of need. :animal-pa

Thank You
 

You are so very kind and sweet to make that for me.
I cried until I laughed. Your words made me remember my partner in crime, how awesome & special our time was together.
She was such a good baby girl, its almost like you knew that somehow.
I want to save the poem you made and even though it will bring tears to my eyes, I also know it will end up bringing a smile too :)

:love:Mary Jane

I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts .

Your post and Jeri's poem have me grabbing for the Kleenex. I am so sorry for your devastating loss ... I'm absolutely sick at my stomach for you. I hope you find some comfort from the fact that your baby is in a place where she will never feel pain again - I'm sure the only thing she longs for now is a way to make you stop hurting. Sending hugs your way ...

I Feel your pain...
 

Dear Mary Jane: I know how you feel. On 08-08-07 I lost my beloved Raine Our vet spayed her too early and she died. I held her while he put her out of her pain. I have a terminal heart condition and scared the Vet to death from all my crying. I had bad chest pain and laid on his floor for an hour before I could leave. I cried for days I missed her so much. As time went by I started looking for a new baby and found him in June. I just went to look and saw Baron's floppy ears and he had such a cute face.Well of course I brought him home. I can never replace Raine, Nor will I ever forget her loving gentle spirit. I was blessed that God gave her to me. I know she's still with me and that someday I'll see her again... You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers, God Bless... Baron's mommy

OMG I'm SO SO SORRY ...:(:(:(:( Bless that little angel -

What a horrible tragedy and My heart goes out to you....I don;t know what to say ..............I feel so bad for you......................

What a tragic, sad, story....my heart goes out to you. May God ease the pain you feel and help you to only remember the happy times.:)

I am so sorry your heart has been broken so tragically. Jezebel will always have her little spot in your heart and nothing will ever replace it or take it away. Another puppy will have his/her own spot - that's why God gave us such big hearts. It'll take time, but the pain will lessen. Sleep peacefully, Baby Girl. ((Hugs))).

I am so sorry this happened to you. I'm sitting here (at work) crying my eyes out after reading your story. What a terrrible accident. Please don't blame yourself, as you were only trying to do the right thing. In time, the pain will lessen, and I truly hope you can be happy again. You need to be strong for your little guy. I wish you all the best.

This is so sad!!! I am so sorry for your loss!!!

My heart is breaking for you and the tears are falling. May God bless and give you comfort and help your heart heal. Your baby is well now and happy at the Rainbow Bridge, waiting for the day you will come for her and walk into Heaven together.

I'm so sorry for your loss of little Jezebel. My heart goes out to you.

So Sorry
 

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. My prayers are with you that you find comfort in all the good memories you have of your Jezebel. :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

Oh that is so tragic. My heart goes out for you. Your story resembles mine in some ways. I too had a partner, my little shadow Gizmo. He would have been four this past June. He was my only baby for three years, then this past November I fell in love with this very little baby in a local pet store. We brought her home and named her Tenci. Gizmo was very jealous of her as he had been the only baby for so long, but Gizmo had been a sick little boy most of his life which had led to him being Extra spoiled. Shortly after getting Tenci, Gizmo started getting worse and we made the decision to take him to University of Tennessee for Liver Shunt Surgery. I lost Gizmo on February 1 of this year after having the surgery. It was no fault of our vets, they were great, but I wanted to die too, I felt like my life had ended, and some days I still do. I feel so guilty for getting Tenci, I second guess myself about having the surgery done. I get so angry and feel so helpless now without him, but after losing Gizmo a friend of our family bought my son another yorkie puppy, not to replace Gizmo, but to give Tenci a friend. We got Trouble around the first of March. Although I thought he was was adorable and cute I could not bring my self to really love him. I felt like I was betraying Gizmo. In April I got two more yorkie puppies. One who is very small like my Tenci, the other is the same size as Trouble. I never thought that I would own four yorkies. Somedays they are overwhelming and I think what have I done????, but then they give me the look, and the kisses, and its what was I thinking??? I still Love and miss Gizmo every day, but I have learned to really love my Trouble, Tenci, Chip, & Gus. They each have found a special place in my heart. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. It will take time, but remember that she will always be with you.

I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my Lilly 7/25/07 after heart surgery. Its been a year and I still cry and sometimes I blame myself. I have 3 babies, I rescued Gabby a few months after Lilly died but she will never replace her. Lilly is still very much a part of my life although she's not physically with me.
You gave her a good life and she knew you loved her. (((hugs)))

I am so sorry for your tragic loss. Jezebel sounds like she was a very special girl. It sometimes seems like we cannot go through such a heartwrenching loss but some how we do and can one day again think of our babies that have left us and smile. When you feel the time is right maybe you can bring another one into your heart. I lost Dixie in January after only 5 weeks to a cngenital diease. Her breeder was also heart sick and we didn't talk specifically about a "replacement " at the time but she called me a fouple of weeks later to see how I was doing and said when I felt up to it she wanted to give me another baby. I told her I was ready as I needed the love of a puppy again. I got Roxie and I think she knew she had big paws to fill as she is the sweetest Yorkie I have ever seen.
Jerri that poem was so touching.

OMG i am so sorry for you and your little Angel, my heart breaks for you !

I am so sorry for your loss!!!

Thank you all for your kind words.

that is beautiful! so nice of you!!

I am so sorry for your loss, Hugs to you!

Time will help heal the pain for the lose of your beautiful baby. Jezebel will forever and always be in your heart. :(