My Heart Is Broken

[bettyeanne]

Originally Posted by crystalsmom

I had a pretty good day today, I didn't cry this morning. Think I'm all cried out which is good. My head is clearing and doesn't feel like it's going to fall off and I'm sure I owe this to all of you wonderful people. Your prayers have helped again.....nothing like YT prayers.

Joan, I just checked in to see how you were doing. I am happy to see that you are feeling some better. I know you will have good days and bad days for some time to come, but I am praying that you will soon be having good memories of your Crystal and all the joy that she brought into your lives! God continue to bless and comfort you all.

[csm08mms]

I am so sorry I hope you and your family are doing okay.

[BamaFan121s]

Joan I am shocked and sad to read this. I had not heard from you in a few days and searched and found this. I am in tears reading this and my heart goes out to you. Taylor said to send you a hug. We are both thinking of you and keeping you in our prayers.

[crystalsmom]

Originally Posted by BamaFan121s

Joan I am shocked and sad to read this. I had not heard from you in a few days and searched and found this. I am in tears reading this and my heart goes out to you. Taylor said to send you a hug. We are both thinking of you and keeping you in our prayers.

Misty, I knew you hadn't seen this and I'm sorry I didn't let you know but I really didn't let anyone know other than the thread. I should have sent you a pm and told you not to tell Taylor. How is that little darling doing, tell her I am going to frame her letter, it is so precious. I'm taking one day at a time and I feel much better. You know she must have thought she was Peter Pan for a split second and could fly. Really she didn't think and just reacted quickly. I was talking with Pat this morning (yorkie rose) and I really don't think I could have asked for a better ending for her now that I am somewhat over the shock. No pain (other than when they tried to weigh her) she was in shock. Having a blast with her favorite dog and cat friend and I didn't have to make the decision to put her down, they did that for me. So there could have been so many more horrible ways for her to go. Thank you so much for your friendship and for coming back to YT. I can't keep up with it all and my only worry is that something will happen to one of my friends here and I will miss it. I have been checking in each morning for awhile though. Again thanks. Hugs to you and Taylor.

[RoxyJosMom]

Joan, I'm so sorry for your loss. At least, if it was Crystal's time to go, she went doing something she liked. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

[wemple2]

This saddens me, I am so very sorry...please accept my deepest sympathy. Rest in peaceful sleep little girl...rest in peace.

[txshopper73]

Oh Joan! I am just sobbing over here. I'm so sorry that I had missed this thread. My heart cries for you and I wish that I could hug you right now.

Crystal was such a lucky girl to have you to love and take care of her.

She'll be waiting for you...rest assured.

The Rainbow Bridge

[Buddys owner]

My heart is with you during this time. I am at a loss of words but I can pray and so I will. May knowing how much others care be of some help. Sincerely so sorry , Buddys Owner

[shirlblack]

I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs and prayers for you and your family.
RIP

[SladesMommy]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[Izzy Princess]

Joan my dearest friend..my heart was aching all week while I was away and I almost fained at the show we were at when Sandy texted me to tell me. I had to read it several times to fully understand what she said. Just remember all the wonderful memories you have of your baby girl and I am always here for you.

You know how to get a hold of me so when you are ready. I'm so sorry I was away when this happened.

Hugs and much love to you.

[gigis_mom]

I hope that all the comfort that these fine people on yorkietalk continue to share their love and words of wisdom to you just as you and the rest of them did for me last week when Gigi past away. It was really bad for a couple of days and now I have taken to cuddeling her last blanket she slept with when I miss her. Last night I even found myself petting it. Do what you can and don't stop loving and being loved. My sincerest condolences. Tonya and Gigi

[Crestwing]

Joan you have my heartfelt sympathy and my prayers to help you through these difficult days. God only calls the best so one day you will be with her again. You have all those precious memories of her to keep until your reunited. Sue

[crystalsmom]

Good Morning All, this was sent to me and I wanted to share it.

The Fourth Day

by Martin Scot Kosins
If you ever love an animal, there are three days in your life you will always remember.
The first is a day, blessed with happiness, when you bring home your young new friend.
You may have spent weeks deciding on a breed. You may have asked numerous opinions of many vets, or done long research in finding a breeder. Or, perhaps in a fleeting moment, you may have just chosen that silly looking mutt in a shelter ... simply because something in its eyes reached your heart.
But when you bring that chosen pet home, and watch it explore, and claim its special place in your hall or frontroom - and when you feel it brush against you for the first time - it instills a feeling of pure love you will carry with you through the many years to come.

The second day will occur eight or nine or ten years later.
It will be a day like any other. Routine and unexceptional. But, for a surprising instant, you will look at your longtime friend and see age where you once saw youth.
You will see slow deliberate steps where you once saw energy.
And you will see sleep where you once saw activity.
So you will begin to adjust your friend's diet - and you may add a pill or two to her food.
And you may feel a growing fear deep within yourself, which bodes of a coming emptiness.
And you will feel this uneasy feeling, on and off, until the third day finally arrives.

And on this day - if your friend and God have not decided for you, then you will be faced with making a decision of your own - on behalf of your lifelong friend, and with the guidance of your own deepest Spirit.
But whichever way your friend eventually leaves you - you will feel as alone as a single star in the dark night sky.

If you are wise, you will let the tears flow as freely and as often as they must. And if you are typical, you will find that not many in your circle of family or human friends will be able to understand your grief, or comfort you.
But if you are true to the love of the pet you cherished through the many joyfilled years, you may find that a soul - a bit smaller in size than your own - seems to walk with you, at times, during the lonely days to come.
And at moments when you least expect anything out of the ordinary to happen, you may feel something brush against your leg - very very lightly.
And looking down at the place where your dear, perhaps dearest, friend used to lay - you will remember those three significant days.
The memory will most likely be painful, and leave an ache in your heart -
As time passes the ache will come and go as if it has a life of its own.
You will both reject it and embrace it, and it may confuse you.
If you reject it, it will depress you.
If you embrace it, it will deepen you.
Either way, it will still be an ache.

But there will be, I assure you, a fourth day when - along with the memory of your pet - and piercing through the heaviness in your heart -there will come a realization that belongs only to you.
It will be as unique and strong as our relationship with each animal we have loved, and lost.
This realization takes the form of a Living Love -
Like the heavenly scent of a rose that remains after the petals have wilted, this Love will remain and grow - and be there for us to remember.
It is a Love we have earned.
It is the legacy our pets leave us when they go -
And it is a gift we may keep with us as long as we live.
It is a Love which is ours alone -
And until we ourselves leave, perhaps to join our Beloved Pets -

It is a Love that we will always possess.

[Diego]

Thank you very much for sharing . I loved it . My heart is with you during this time .