Originally Posted by Yorkie_25
(Post 4596967)
It never ends for me, I swear.
So as I posted before, my baby Chloe died about a month ago. During that time, I was very depressed. I spent a lot time on this forum and just looking at Yorkies and researching the breed more throughly. I happen to go on Puppyfind.com and saw the most beautiful show Yorkies. I knew I couldn't afford them, but I wrote the breeder and told her that if she ever had any per quality ones, to please let me know, along with my whole story about my baby Chloe. Long story short, she emailed me back and called me, and she had a baby she couldn't show and was willing to sell for $2500. I talk to my boyfriend who was also extremely depressed and we decieded we put the deposit down on the dog to hold her until the 17th.
After I the mailed the deposit, I spent some hours researching the breeder and looking at reviews. I am not going to say the name of the breeder out of respect, but the reviews where 50/50. She had a dog fire once so some people were concerned about how she cared for the dogs. Also there was comments about her prices, but that was all I found negative. However as I slowly came out of my depressed state, I reviewed our finances and realized that $2500 was a lot for a pet quality Yorkie, especially since we spent 2k in vet bills trying to save Chloe. I also begin to read other reviews on here and people were saying that price range was too high for a pet quality Yorkie. After praying on it, I decided over the weekend not to get the dog. I would love to have it but the price is hefty, and we could buy a cheaper Yorkie and afford to rescue another dog, and still have half of that money in our pockets(which we plan to do).
Last night I sent the breeder an email telling her we changed our mind and that was sorry for the inconvience. I also told her we had located Chloe's breeder(which we did on Saturday) and wanted to go that path and not to cash my deposit check. I felt bad but I just couldn't justify the cost to myself. On my way to bed last night, she called but my boyfriend wouldn't let me answer because it was 11pm at night. I was so stressed after the email I spent all night awake and stressing if I was making the right decision. Ever since Chloe died, I have been depressed. I have a lot guilt surrounding her death because she was sick and we didn't know the risk nor did she show any signs. Everyday I think I am getting better, but then this happens and I am back at square one. Please pray for me. I hope I am making the right decision. I didn't sign a contract so my boyfriend said I shouldn't feel bad, but I do. I know she will cal me today and she will be pissed caused I backed out. I love to have the dog but it's the cost. I feel like my heart is going to cave in on me �� |