Emotional roller coaster

[lakeerieprinces]

Originally Posted by Bijou2014

Well I am bringing Bijou back to the breeder tomorrow evening. She had another incident last night. She seemed to be having very mild HE symptoms. She had a great morning so it caught me by surprise. She had been great for the first 3 weeks of December then since Dec 24th she has not been well. I did take her for the bile acid test this morning and should have the results by Wednesday because I want the breeder to have as much info as possible to take the best care of her. I am not sure why this beautiful little yorkie came into my life but I love her so much and can't stand the thought of not seeing her again. The breeder has been great and I know she will take good care of her for as long as she can and that helps a little but I keep hoping that I will wake up soon and this nightmare will be over.

I feel your pain.
EVERYDAY we watch this little guy here with his crooked spine
make the most out of his life.
I feel very angry at times and wonder WHY I and u had to get an ill puppy ?

I love Wilbur, baby him and try to be grateful that he is in my life.

[gemy]

Bijou I hear your pain, and I am so sorry that this puppy has these challenges. I am glad the breeder has said she will take care of this puppy.


There will be a puppy for you - just not right now.

[gracielove]

There are a lot of sad things in this world but a breeder that sells sick pups sure causes a lot of heartbreak.

I don't know why you considered this breeder reputable but most really good breeders won't consider selling a Yorkie pup until it is at least 12 weeks old. You cannot really decide on the quality of a pup that is younger than that and they are so small that they need the extra development time. She must have known that this particular pup had possible health issues.

This breeders should compensate you for your expense and should have known to do the proper tests without someone else doing it for her.

So sorry this has happened to you and the puppy.

[gemy]

Bijou I don't know if this will help you any, but I did have a thought or two to share.


I think that people and dogs come into our life for a reason, I think that for this wee one and you as painfull as it has been for you, you gave so much love and care to this wee soul, you were what he needed and he found you.


You babysat him when you knew he was ill, took him into the vets etc. I don';t believe any-one is truly the worse for loving.


Many many good thoughts going out for you in 2015.

[yorkiemini]

Not rationalizing, but I think you said you work. Perhaps the breeder has more time to be present for this puppy right now than you do and can see to its needs better.

I can hear how tough this is but the long run sounds like this is not going to be a heathy dog.

[Bijou2014]

Well I really want to thank you all for the kind words. I have found this site quite helpful. I have learned so much about the possible problems that yorkies can experience and ways to hopefully avoid this happening again. I also realize how many people truly love their pets as a family member like I do.

Unfortunately, I did return Bijou to the breeder last Sunday. She was particularly mopey that day. Once we got there she got a burst of energy and play with the breeder's other two yorkies. I was thinking the breeder must think I am crazy for thinking anything is wrong with her. She did tire after a short while. I brought all the things I had purchased for Bijou, her bed, toys, harness, leash, shampoo / conditioner, Nitrical, sweater and her travel carrier because I wanted her to have all the things that were familiar to her. The breeder insisted I keep many of the things so I would have them for another puppy. I am so shell shocked from this I don't know of I could trust someone again to get a healthy puppy. When we were leaving, Bijou was trying to get to me and it was so painful and heartbreaking. I didn't know how I was going to do it.

Please don't take this wrong but it was harder than when a pet dies and you know they are gone and you have to move forward. I have to wonder every minute of the day how she is doing. Does she think I don't love her. Is she waiting for me to come pick her up. How long will she live. Will the breeder take good care of her. It is so difficult.

Yesterday evening I got a call from the vet confirming what I already knew. Her bile acid test were 75/315. Her protein C was 87% which was done first because she was so small and having problems with hypoglycemia that they didn't want to fast her for 12 hours. I knew in my heart early on something wasn't right. I miss her so much! I am thankful that I took so many pictures and videos of her to remember all the joy she brought to me.

She did not deserve this. None of these innocent puppies who did not ask to be born deserve this suffering.

[gemy]

Oh dear you have done what is so very hard to do; return a sick puppy to the breeder. Of course you will wonder n worry about this wee ones' future, how could you not? The puppy is back in the breeders home, and trust me the puppies know their breeders home. But this one will always remember you too.


I believe in my heart of hearts you did do the *right* thing as hard as it was.


And kudos for you in doing some of the health testing. The BATS test was for certain not favourable. . .


((((Hugs to you ))))))))

[Bijou2014]

[joyce evans]

I feel so sad for you and this pup. I can't even imagine. I am so so sorry.

[gracielove]

So, so sad. I know you have and will continue to suffer from this experience. You did what you knew was best. I am so sorry for both of you.