| Cookie2 | 11-30-2009 03:30 PM |
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Originally Posted by alisonJ
(Post 2898034)
Gen, haven't they scanned these Yorkies???? Wouldn't that save you a lot of time?
| I sent the shelter manager a long email pleading with her about any yorkie found. She emailed me quickly and told me she printed out my email with Cookie's 3 pictures and his AVID # . She did check this yorkie but it was not cookie. Even by the picture I could tell it could not be him. But I told her that as his owner I am obligated to check every possible lead.
I went by that house where the lady called and said she had a yorkie for the past week but then said he ran off after my husband called her to go see it.
I posted flyers in every stop sign for 5 blocks plus taped flyers to most mailboxes since some homes are empty. There are A lot of people home during the day in that neighborhood.
Today I wanted to do something "normal" and I called my husband to have lunch with him during his lunchbreak. We talked about Cookie of course and how there is no closure in this because I truly dont know what happened to him. I told him I dont know if I will ever love another pet like him ever but I do know that I dont want to stay without a little buddy in my life. This will be an open case with me until I cant search anymore.
I told him I feel so empty when I go to bed at night and how I feel so selfish because my husband is with me in bed but still Cookie is missing. I could not sleep lastnight because I didnt take anything to help me sleep. He started to snore and I told him " Im sorry but I have to go try to sleep in another room" OMG he tells me "ok ok I promise I'll be quiet just dont go" I cant believe in 19 yrs that he's said that, this was the first time that he didnt make a peep sound the entire night! I struggled, just thinking and thinking and kept looking at the clock. Slept almost 5 hrs finally. I am going to have to see a doctor to prescribe me something nonhabit forming. I'm a little afraid that the doctor might giggle at the reason why I can't sleep and I will flip out on the doctor.
After school my 13 yr old comes in and doesnt even look at me and just says hi and goes to her room. I knew something was wrong. She tells me one kid at the bus stop asks her daily if we found Cookie. Today he asked her " Where you with him when he went missing?" she said no. Then he tells her " Well then it's your fault and he's probably dead by now anyway"
OMG I felt awful for her. I blame myself for this and I never for one moment put blame on her. I know kids can be cruel but really he's old enough to know better!
I just feel that 5 1/2 yrs is not enough time and I've always said I hope he makes it to at least 10 yrs old. But honestly who am I kidding? He could live to 15 yrs old and I would still be devastated.
Thank you all for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers. I will never stop saying this "PLEASE hug your furbabies for me, spoil them a little extra for me,let them know how much you love them" Trust me you will have no regrets. I don't . I just want more time with my little guy.
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