I just don't know what to feel
Posted 07-09-2008 at 11:00 PM by missj2007
I don't know what to feel right now. I am just crying and crying and it is not making it any better. I think I have fallen in love with this guy but I can't be in love with him. It is such a long story but the short version is I have liked him since I first saw him which was in October he came down with his dad who is my pastor now Well I never told him how I felt because I am shy and well he start dating my cousin in Jan. This did not last long and I had no clue they were together so in April or May I finally told him I liked him at that point he had fallen for my other cousin who he was a mentor to sort of, everything is too long and complicated to explain. Well we talked and we decided to be friends but after he found out I like him he told me he wish I would have told him sooner and he would never have gotten into the mess he is in with my cousins. I don't know I guess it wouldn't hurt so bad if we didnt talk about things, if we didnt talk about being together but we did. I just feel so comfortable with him, he is just so sweet but we will never be able to be together because he talked to two cousins of mine, and neither last long, and the other cousin used him for his money. I so wish I would have told him but well I guess it was not meant to be. But i just cant stop crying.

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