Goodbye, My Sweet Punkin...

[donatella80]

Punkin wasn't a Yorkie, but our dear sweet kitty that we got the Monday after we were married 16 years ago. I nursed her through paralysis from a blood clot in her spine 2 years ago after the vet told me that she might never walk again. When our Yorkie, Basil, came last year, I gated the stairs and moved all of Punkin's stuff upstairs into the spare bedroom. She had the run of the upstairs, while Basil lived downstairs. I just didn't want him tormenting her--she couldn't move all that fast anymore and spent most of her time asleep. I'd go up a few times during the day and spend time brushing and petting her because I wanted her to know that she was still as special to me as she always was. We all slept on the bed together at night.

On Sunday night, her breathing became shallow and labored and she had a bad spell for about 15 minutes, panting with her mouth open and tongue halfway out. She calmed down, but on Monday morning, her sides began heaving in and out again. I was hoping for asthma, but I kind of knew otherwise.

I took her to the vet as soon as they could fit me in that morning and they took x-rays. She had fluid in her chest cavity and a tumor in her lung, along with heart arrythmia. The vet diagnosed congestive heart failure and possibly lung cancer. She said we could try to treat her, but there was a possibility that Punkin would be dead by the next morning. Even if she survived this bout, the vet said that we were only prolonging the inevitable--she would only have weeks or months.

I looked at my dear, sweet little kitty panting on the table with her tongue out and I asked the vet if she was suffering. She just nodded. I thought about taking her home and the possibility of her dying while gasping for breath in the middle of the night and wondering why no one was awake to hold her. I made the horrible decision to do the kindest thing. I held my old kitty while they put her to sleep and I haven't stopped crying since. I'm having her cremated and picking up the ashes when they call me next week. I'm just heartbroken...I miss you, little girl.

[MeganS]

I'm so, so sorry. I know words don't help right now. I'll keep you in my prayers. *hug*

[Cinq1964]

Sorry for your loss. I know it is hard. I have 2 cats and the mom is pretty old. Prayers for you both!

[Ines3185lyorkie]

So sorry that you had to put her down. I know how you feel because I had to put my little (girl yorkie) down because there was nothing that could be done. I still think about her and cry and keep her pictures up. We are all here for you.

[KathyinCali]

I'm so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers...

[Betty'sMom]

I'm sorry. It's so hard. (hug)

[a2luckygirl]

I am so sorry!! she had been part of yourhome and family for many years! I am sure you heart just aches!!
Hugs to you, hun

[Martie]

We had to do the same thing, and yes I cried for a long time. Nothing will ever replace the memories of "Mr. Kitty". We waited for almost a year before one day we stopped at the Humane Society and saw two beautiful sister kittens, and we adopted both of them. We have had them now for almost 7 years......time has helped heal my heart, but I will never forget Mr. Kitty. My prayers are with you.

[RoxyJosMom]

There are no words that can make us feel any better about making that decision. Even if we know in our hearts that a poor little creature is suffering and there is no help, we always hold that "what if" in the back of our minds. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Remember the good times - that's what Punkin is doing in Kitty Heaven. Hugs.

[saphire]

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope your heart heals and the memories are happy ones.

My thoughts are with you.

Sheilagh

[mogli]

Sorry for your loss ...

It is wonderful and so painful that you were able to take the pain away ... she'll thank you for it one day

[scrappysmom]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[aerialla]

This is not mine but I found it and thought that you might find comfort.

GOD KNEW

God knew that you were suffering.
That the hills were hard to climb
So He gently closed your eyelids
And whispered "Peace be thine."
In tears we watched you sinking
We watched you fade away
Our hearts were surely broken
You fought so hard to stay

But when we saw you sleeping
So peaceful, free from pain
We could not wish you back
To suffer that again
It broke our hearts to lose you
But you did not go alone
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

this is the link for the poem: Poems for Grieving Pet Loss

[Ines3185lyorkie]

Originally Posted by aerialla

This is not mine but I found it and thought that you might find comfort.

GOD KNEW

God knew that you were suffering.
That the hills were hard to climb
So He gently closed your eyelids
And whispered "Peace be thine."
In tears we watched you sinking
We watched you fade away
Our hearts were surely broken
You fought so hard to stay

But when we saw you sleeping
So peaceful, free from pain
We could not wish you back
To suffer that again
It broke our hearts to lose you
But you did not go alone
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

this is the link for the poem: Poems for Grieving Pet Loss

thanks for sharing that poem..

[donatella80]

Originally Posted by aerialla

This is not mine but I found it and thought that you might find comfort.

GOD KNEW

God knew that you were suffering.
That the hills were hard to climb
So He gently closed your eyelids
And whispered "Peace be thine."
In tears we watched you sinking
We watched you fade away
Our hearts were surely broken
You fought so hard to stay

But when we saw you sleeping
So peaceful, free from pain
We could not wish you back
To suffer that again
It broke our hearts to lose you
But you did not go alone
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

this is the link for the poem: Poems for Grieving Pet Loss

This is so beautiful. I found a beautiful black walnut urn for her ashes and I've been looking for a poem to put on it. Thank you.