| KimInMD | 08-10-2012 11:41 AM |
I reread this post again. I am in awe at how each and every one of you reached out to me and my family. I felt every prayer, and hid each kind word in my heart. I really was prepared for the worst, since things went so wrong during the last surgery. Corey was having so many seizures every day. A few months ago they drilled 6 - 4" holes into his skull and inserted probes into his brain that would record the seizures. Results from that determined his brain was seizing 24 hours a day. After a big one, he would sleep for awhile. He would be confused, very nauseous, weak and have a migraine-like headache. Most times he would feel better in an hour or so, though he would still be weak. No sooner was he feeling better and another one would hit, starting the process all over again, sometimes 15-20 times a day. He was so weak and thin. I was watching this child I love, mentally and physically die before my eyes. He'd have seizures at night, disrupting his sleep, and he has fallen so many times, breaking his nose and other bones, and causing numerous brush burns, lacerations, and bruises. He no longer worked or went out with friends. He tried living with his brother (he wouldn't listen), but was too sick and had to move back home. I worried if he was around bodies of water, or near a stove. We couldn't leave him alone. Some months his medicine was $800. a month. No, we don't have that kind of money, but what are parents to do? This was so much more than simply "having a seizure". A sick child changes the dynamics of the entire family. My other three kids have been amazing, and supportive, despite missed birthdays (while he was in the hospital), vacations cut short, teasing from classmates etc. Corey has had these seizures for 23 years, so all their lives, they have dealt with a sick sibling.
In the last few days, Corey has had a couple of 3-10 second seizures. When they are over, he is fine again. There is no nauseous tummy or headache. We can live with this. It's an annoyance, but not debilitating. The brain is still in trauma from the surgery, so it is still possible that they will fade away with time.
I am sharing this window into our lives so that you will begin to understand how BIG this miracle is for Corey and our family. Could God have "fixed" Corey many years ago? Yes, I suppose He could have, but for whatever reason, He did not. He doesn't promise those who trust Him all sunshine and rainbows. He doesn't promise us that we will always win the race. But He does promise us strength and endurance to run the race.
I have received many PM's in the last week and a half. Everyone was so kind and encouraging, but I also read stories of incredible pain and struggles. There are so many YT brothers and sisters out there who are hurting, dealing with illness, loss, fear, exhaustion, and broken hearts. I had no idea. I see you on YT everyday, posting pictures and cute stories of your sweet little fur babies. Yet when you log off, your lives return to the battleground, and mental, spiritual and physical wars rage all around you. I sense that some of you are tired of fighting the battle. Please don't give up. God has not abandoned you. He hears, and He does care. It's not an accident you are here now reading this to be strengthened and encouraged. Even after 23 years of struggle, miracles can still happen! When you are out of strength, He will give you more, and you'll take another step, and He will give you more, and you will take one more step, then one more, and one more. Soon you will be running. You'll be back in the race! Please believe me. He brought us over a very large mountain. He's going to bring you over it too. I've been there. I know your miracle's waiting for you too.
Sorry that this is so long, but I've never been more compelled in my life to share. This isn't like me at all to get on a soapbox, but I know there are others out there who just needed to hear a word of encouragement today. Trust and believe. |
