I'm really missing Lily today
 

I miss her EVERYDAY, but today seems especially hard. Maybe because today makes two weeks since she passed. I think of her all the time, and I try to remember all the happy memories because we did have some great times. I loved it when she started getting stronger and gaining weight, she was having fun walking around in the floor and following Jake around. I think they were just starting to really like each other. Her personality was starting to show, she had a little attitude when she wanted to. I remember when I used to feed her puppy formula from a bottle, and she would try to drink it too fast, so I would stop for a few seconds. Well, she wasn't having that, she would try to bark because she wanted me to stick that bottle back in her mouth!

She loved to curl up around my neck or lay on my chest, and she would give me lots of sweet puppy kisses. I still smell her sweet puppy smell. She was so tiny and so adorable. I went from taking care of her around the clock to.......nothing. I'm still waking up at all hours of the night because I was so used to checking on her and feeding her throughout the night.

I miss her sooooo much, and I have so many questions running around in my head. Did I do something wrong? Did I feed her enough? Did I feed her too much? Did I keep her warm enough? Was there something I overlooked? I just wish she was still here.

This is sooooo hard, and it hurts. My heart literally hurts because I miss her. I'm sorry to go on. I just had to get some things out, and I know everyone here uderstands because you all love your yorkies as much as I do. Thanks for listening, if you got this far.

Edited to add: I know that Jake has been missing Lily because the first week, he would go to her crate and look in and whine and come to me to be picked up. He's not doing it so much anymore, but I think he loved his little sister.

I wish there was something I could say to help take away the pain. You did everything right for Lily and there was a reason she came into your life. Hugs to you.

Oh Selina.....I know exactly how you feel. All I do is think...was there something I should have looked for...where there something I didn't do. Now thinking back before my Lilly died she looked at me and it felt like she didn't know who I was. She had the look of death but at that time I thought it was all normal but now of course I know it wasn't. You know I'm here for you hun.

I am soooo sorry for your loss...I know how much you loved Lily, and I know it's hard...But time will help you heal. You'll never forget her, but each day that goes by will be just a little bit easier than the one before. You did everything you could for her, and you loved her more than anything, and she knew that...

I am so sorry that you are having to go through this pain of losing Lily. I am sure the memories are bittersweet and even though they make you smile, they are also a dagger in your heart to think she is no longer there for you to take care of. They say time heals all wounds, and I am sure it will take a while before you heal, but know that you did your best and it was in God's hands to take her. You did all you could do and who could ask for more than that. I am sure Lily know that, and she doesnt want you to be sad for her because she is playing and having a grand time at Rainbow Bridge. It ok to mourn but dont ever doubt yourself when it came to her care. You were the best mommy she could have been blessed to have.

I'm so sorry that you are feeling bad. She was very special. She was blessed to have spent her time with you. I don't think anyone could have possibly given her more love and care. (hug)

I am so sorry that it has been so hard for you. I only hope I can care for my yorkie as well as you cared for Lily. And also for you Timmy and your Lilly. Hugs to both of you.

Both little Lilly/Lily's are happily looking down upon you for loving them so much.... prayers to you, that you feel better with time and always remember the precious moments...
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My heart goes out to both of you in the loss of your beautiful babies way too early.

Selina,
You did everything you could for precious Lily, and you did everything right. It was her condition, nothing that you did, or didn't do.
I love to hear you talk about your time with her, I could listen all night with a smile on my face. I lost my precious Shorty in 2004 and I will still talk about him to anyone who will listen. And once I get started, its hard for me to stop. Diggy(Paula) is so sweet, we were instant messaging one night and I got started about my Shorty and went on for about 45 minutes. She just listened and responded. It makes me feel closer to him to talk about him, and it warms my heart. I hope you feel that way about talking about Lily. Anytime you feel like talking, PM me, or start a thread like this. We're all here for you and we're listening. The same goes for you Timmy!!! RIP Lily and Lilly, sweet Yorkie angels in heaven.

Aww, I'm so sorry you are going through this...you were an awfully good mom to Lilly it was apparent in everything you wrote. She knows you loved her. She was sick and you did a wonderful thing giving her the best life you could while she was here. There was nothing you missed, nothing you should have done differently. Hugs to you and Jake (poor guy), and rip baby Lily until you see your family again.

Ohhhh I am soooo very sorry! I know it is hard, but we are all here for you...here to listen and help in anyway we can!

:justahug:Big hugs to you and your family and precious little Jake! :wub:

Ohhh, my heart goes out to you! I lost a baby at 5 months old and I had ALL the same questions weeks and months later. The pain lessens in time as Im sure you know but going through it is sooo hard. 2 weeks is still pretty new and you are still grieving. You just need time to get through it. Time really does heal all wounds, sometimes its just so hard to have patience with yourself while time is passing. I totally understand that! You did sooo much for Lily, you were a GREAT mommy! It was sadly just Lilys time to go. You gave her a great life here on earth and Im sure she is looking down on you and thanking you for loving her so much each and everyday! (((HUGS)))

:girl_hug: You gave Lily a fighting chance, and did all you could. She was a lucky little girl to have SO much love in her short little life. Only time will help heal your heart:love:

Hang in there!

Oh girl - she sure made her impact on many hearts ....I just want to send you a hug and maybe when you close your eyes you'll smell her little puppy breath again.....
Rest in Peace little Lily