A Difficult Decision Has Been Made.....
 

It is with the saddest heart that I tell you all of mine and my family's decision as to what to do about my unborn twins and my recent discovery of breast cancer (2nd time).

Although I fought and fought with my husband for the lives of our twins we have decided to terminate my pregnancy so I can go through chemo now rather than wait until I come to term with the pregnancy and risking the future of my children.

We were able to meet with a specialist this morning as they made themselves available to us on the weekend which I was so very thankful for. We spent 4 hours with our doctor going over each option, pros and cons, and the risk of each.

I would like to say however that I do not wish for this thread to become a debate over my decision to terminate my pregnancy. I know there are many of you here that have very strong beliefs, as do I, but we really do feel this is the best thing for my husband and I and our 5-children.

I will always wonder " what if I made a different decision" but I will have to live with my choice and do the very best that I can to beat this damn disease AGAIN!!!! My children and husband need me and I have come to accept that.

Once again, I would like to thank you all for your thoughts and prayers and messages. It was so very overwhelming to receive well over 80 messages in my PM box from people that I have come to realize are more than just screen names, you are apart of my family. You have no idea how you all have touched my life in a very special way and I have no idea how I will ever repay any of you.

Thank you for being here for me in the coming months as I am sure I will need to vent and will probably look to many of you for advice.

Please pray, not only for me but for my family that I beat this disease with the strength and power that God has given me.

I am glad that your husband was there with you during this difficult time. You have been very brave to share this story with all of us and I know that many of us in this YT community support you 100%. Take care and I know that you will fight this disease with every fiber of your being. Keep us all informed about your treatment and know that we are all pulling for you.

you will be in our thoughts and prayers !

Courtney...you have ALL MY PRAYERS....

I've said one for you everyday since I heard your awful news and know how devestated you are....I think with your good doctors and support that you CAN beat this.....I'll be pulling for you everyday ....

I know your heart must be wrenching with sadness ...but you need to do what is best for YOU at this time.

You are a very strong woman with a family who loves and needs you ...and that has to be foremost in your mind. I feel so sad for you that you had to make such a terrible choice, & my heart goes out to you.but I know you don't have any real options :(

Bless you and your family and please try to concentrate on getting better....If you ever need ANYTHING just say the word...you have a ton of friends here that are going to be here for you.

I WISH I could see you in person cause you'd be getting the biggest hug....

ALL THE BEST TO YOU and I'll be thinking nothing but positive thoughts and praying for a sucessful treatment and recovery.

I strongly support your decision.
 

And applaud your courage to be able to decide. I know it must have been excrutiatingly difficult.

I hope that your treatment is flawless, and you AGAIN beat this horrible disease that afflicts so many women, and men, myself included.

ALL THE BEST TO YOU, Courtney! :thumbup:

courtney, my prayers go out to you and your family. i think you did the right thing. we are here, and always will be, here for you. in the short time i've been here i've realized that we are not just here for our yorkies(although they are important ;) ) but also for each other. and i pray that you can defeat your cancer. hugs! :hug:

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I applaud your courage and strength! I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts while you journey through this difficult time. Hugs to you and your family!

May God grant you strength and piece of mind in having made this very difficult decision. And may he be by your side through what lies ahead.

God bless you

Courtney you have our support 100%. You will always be in Our Thoughts & Prayers. This is a very difficult time for you and your family.
We are your family too, and will be with you every step of the way. If you need anything, please let us know, as we are and always will be here for you. You can, and will beat this!!! May God Bless you and keep you strong. :2hearts2: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

Courtney .. I wish you all the best. You and your family will be in my prayers.

Lis

You are a very strong and brave mom and I applaud you for have the strength and courage to come on here and tell us all your decision. I will prayer for you and your family in your time of need higs and kisses to you and your kids :love:

Courtney,
You have my thoughts and prayers. God will give you the strength and courage you and your family need to pass this difficult time. We are here for you and support your decision. Anything you need feel free to ask. Hugs. :love-hug3 :love-hug3 :love-hug3 :hearts-xx

Oh Courtney,
No matter which decision you had made there would have been what if's. Please do not waste your time and energy on them. Know that you have done what you have to do for your family and yourself. There is nothing selfish about choosing to do the best for your five children. May God bless you each day with the stregnth that you will need to fight this disease. I will remember you in my prayers every single day. Your YT family is here for you. I wish I lived closer to do more. Please know that you have touched my heart and I will be hoping that all goes well.

You have been backed into a corner and honey, you need to come out fighting. You can beat it. It must be terrible to be forced to face such a difficult decision. I think you know in your heart you have friends here who will support you every inch of the way. You have got a lot of people praying for you. You have my prayers too.
Gentle hugs to you from me and my group.

Courtney,
My heart goes out to you and your family. I pray to God that you beat this disease. You have to stay focused and strong and concentrate on getting well. I truly hope you have a lot of family near you that will be able to help you, your husband and your children through the difficult times to come. I am so glad you feel comfort from your YT family. I, too, wish I lived closer....I would help you in any way I could. For now, know that I will be praying for all of you.

I'm wishing you strength and courage to fight your disease and a speedy recovery. Hugs to you and your family.

I support your decision
 

I want you to know that I truly support your decision. You and your family are in my prayers.

I too suport your decision.
I am praying for you and your family during this difficult time.

You are in my prayers as is your family.

You are in our thoughts and prayers
we pray that you beat this, lexi and i miss you very much...if we ever get back to puyallup we are sure to look you up.
we love you

My prayers go out to you and your family .

You are in my thoughts and prayers. Whatever decision you made there would always be questions in your heart. Just believe that you have done the right thing for your family. My best to you in your fight.

I support you completely. I know this is a heartbreaking decision, but I also believe that it is important that you do everything you can to protect you life for your children, husband, friends, and heck, your entire family. My family and I are praying for you. Please keep us posted.

Courtney,
I wish you the best and a speedy recovery. Your are in my prayers. Take care and stay strong.

I can't think of anything that hasn't already been said. Just know that I'm a big gal, who gives BIG BEAR HUGS!!! Know that I'm sending them to you constantly.

Courtney...You have our support and love. You don't need to make yourself sick with worry over whether or not you did the right thing, because you are doing what is right for your family. You need to put everything you have into beating your cancer and being well again!
I have been praying for you every day and will continue to do so! :hug:

Courtney, I am so very sorry that you're going through this. There are so many things about life that we don't understand and this is one of those times. I can't tell you how deeply touched I have been at your situation and this is one of those times that I truly am writing this with tears streaming down my face. You have been in my prayers and in many of my friend's prayers as I have shared what you're going through with them. Please know that you will be in our prayers in the weeks and months ahead.

I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers through this very diffilcult time! I know that you will get through this! Please let us know if you need anything! Big hugs to you girl and stay strong!

You are in my thoughts and my prayers :love:

I know it has been hard for you. I hope that you get well soon. Please keep us updated on how you are doing.