You guys. I'm so sorry for all of you that mentioned being depressed! :(

I've gone through a little depression here and there, but nothing too serious. If ANY of you ever want to talk about anything please, please feel free to email me!!
c101courtney@roadrunner.com

Even if we just talk about random things, anything at all! I'd love to just chat. :)

Suzanne ~ you are *not* alone....and there is so much help out there if you need it. There is nothing to be "ashamed" of, at all. Please make an appointment with your primary doc. as soon as you can, and you'll feel so much better - like a ton of bricks slid off your back as soon as you make the appointment, I swear :)! Depression is something to take very seriously. Hugs to you...and remember you're not alone :).

Oh I so agree. Depression is a medical disease just like high blood pressure and can be treated with medicine. It is a chemical imbalance in your body and it might take a few times to get the right combination but they will.

I have a sister who has her Phd who has fought this her entire life but we only have to really worry about her when her body has gone through some changes (menopause, having children, losing/gaining weight etc.) to correct her meds.

Please do not be ashamed about something you can't change or control.

Dear Suzanne, I am so sorry for what your going through. I am so glad you are reaching out, I hope you will continue to do this. I don't know the age of your son, but hope you can overlook what he said.

Remember above all Our Heavenly Father LOVES YOU AND YOU ARE VERY SPECIAL. I will be keeping you in my prayers.

The power of prayer is mighty here with your Yorkie Talk Family and I will be joining others in praying for your needs. Keep telling yourself everything is going to be fine. Believe in yourself, and please do talk with your Family Physician real soon.

I have found that through the many rough times in life when I felt like my feet could no longer touch the floor, Jesus carried me through those times.
These last five months have been the very hardest time of my life, since Jack's injury, I am so grateful to feel God providing me with the strength and energy to push on and HIS LOVE surrounding me constantly. Thanks to our many wonderful Yorkie Family friends here I know their prayers will help you too.
Hugs, Patti and Jack

To all my dear yorkietalk friends you have no idea how much your responses have touched my heart, and brought me to happy tears. For those of you that left your email addresses I tried to write back, but it won't let me email you, so I sent you pm's. To anyone that responded that I have not pm'd back I will. I suffer from BiPolar and major depression. I have been seeing the same psychiatrist for 10 years with little or no help. There is a new man in town who is suppose to be very good, and after the holiday I will be setting up an appointment as a new patient. I'm sorry, but I had been going to a counselor for the same amount of time, and when I was home alone, and felt like I wanted to commit suicide I called him. He told me he wasn't my friend, he was my counselor and if I felt that way to call 911. That did it for me and counselors. Unfortunately my husband really wants me to go to marriage counseling with him. I am dreading it with my very soul. I have to say as much as I love him, right now I hate him. I don't want to have to be backed into a corner and hear how awful I am. The last time I went with him to the psych. I specially asked him not to bring up my son. We weren't in there five minutes, and he started in on me, and the psych was oh so willing to jump in. It landed up in a screaming match between me and the psych, and I got up and walked out. Right now I feel like a trapped rat backed up into a corner just waiting to lash out. I know that's not right, but it's honestly how I feel. The other day I was so depressed I thought of climbing on my roof, and jumping off to see if I could fly like a bird. Then I looked at my kids, and my grandaughter, and just went in my room and cried. I did talk to my son about his snide remark. He told me he was just being sarcastic, and trying to let me know how pretty I looked. I told him it was funny how his girlfriend jumped off the bed and screamed at him for saying that. I told him I guess sarcasim is not want I need or want right now. We had a long long talk, and to make it up to me he said he'd cook the entire Thanksgiving dinner, and his fiance would clean up everything so I could just rest and enjoy the day. I must say he cooks like a chef, and I'm looking forward to my dinner. It makes me feel so much better to talk to you, and I hope you don't mind if I come back, and update this as things go on. Hopefully soon I'll be able to tell you all I'm feeling better. I do believe in Jesus, and know I'm not holding onto his back while he's carry me around. I'm literaly just wrapped around his neck as I don't even have the strength to hold on. I gotta go, cause I'm getting really emotional, and I don't want my family to wake up and see me crying.

Love you all, and have a Blessed Thanksgiving.
Suzanne

Suzanne...your mention of Jesus reminds me of Footprints in the Sand. A beautiful poem.

Oh darlin' :(. We are here for you...please don't ever forget that. Don't ever stop yourself from reaching out when you need to. I wish I could make it hurt less for you.

Here is a hug: {{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}

I am *really* super glad to hear there is a new counselor in town bc what you described of the old one didn't sound too healthy for you, ya know what I mean? Just don't ever let go of the fact that it CAN and WILL get better...I personally KNOW that for a FACT! :):):)

Suzanne,

I just sent you a nice long PM. Know that I'm here for you and you can contact me whenever you want!

Suzanne, I'm sorry you had that experience with and at the counselors. It is so important to find some who you can trust to talk with. :(

It sounds as though you spirit is very much alive in there somewhere...just hold on and it will find it's way. Giving you a great :bighug:!

Enjoy your Thanksgiving and I am glad that you had a talk with your son; with him behind you hopefully that is one step closer to feeling better. :)

Unfortunately, it can take a while to find the right meds, and it can take a while to find the right therapist. And of course when you're depressed, it's even harder to stick with it and find what will work for you.

I'm glad you are going to try a new counselor. I don't know your situation, but I actually think it's a good sign if your husband wants to go to marriage counseling. Usually it's the wife dragging in the husband. Again, you DO need someone good, and a good counselor will not "side" with one partner against the other. With the right person, it can have huge benefits for your relationship. Please try to stay strong and keep looking for the help you need. You really sound like you are in a lot of pain. It doesn't have to be that way.