Depression, Please Pray
 

Does anyone else get so depressed that they can't eat, clean, do bills, or anything else? I try so hard to stay up. I'm ashamed to admit this, but I did have a problem with something, but I've gotten rid of it, and I try so darn hard. I thought I'd try with my outside first, as I've really let myself go. I make sure I get up every morning take my shower, get dressed, put on some makeup, do my hair, and anything else I can think of to feel better, and it was starting to work until my son asked me what was going on. He said mom you haven't gotten dolled up in such a long time. Are you sleeping around on dad? That broke my heart, and I just can't get out of this slump again. I'm still trying to take care of myself, but it doesn't seem to help anymore since he said that. All I can do is cry. Please pray for me that I don't slip back to my bad habits, and that I can get through this.

Love you all,
Suzanne

You are in our thoughts and prayers.

:ghug::hands::ghug:

Your in my thoughts and prayer's as well.
Dig deep, find the strength that you know you have inside,
think positive and get it together for yourself and family.
Don't let a simple remark, no matter how it hurt, bring you down.
Let it just make you more determined.

Hugs,

Thinking of you in your difficult time.

Have you visited your doctor? Maybe you may need a little help to feel better.

Depression is a very real thing to go through, have you talked to anyone about this? Sometimes it can just be a chemical imbalance.
You can try the natural approach and go get some vitamins, go to a health store and tell them that your depressed and need vitamins to support your health. I know that St. Johns wart and b-complex are good and I am sure that there are others! I will pray for you and every day is a NEW day!!!

I am sorry you are going through this. If you haven't talked to your doctor recently you may want to make an appointment and see what they can do to help. I think it very positive that you were making yourself get up and fix yourself up, kids can ee very insensitive and not really understand the effects of what they say. Hugs and prayers.

So Sorry your going thru depression,Have you see the doctor? I have a friend who was so severely depressed she tried suicide, Finally the doctors got her on some meds and she has made a complete turnaround. I just cant believe how different she is now. Dont give up and get some help, we are praying for you to be strong.

Yes, Suzanne - I have.

Sometimes it's just temporary - from life situations or pregnancy - but a lot more of the time it's a chemical imbalance and can run in families... like mine.

Please see a Dr. Please don't feel ashamed of this. It happens to alot more people than you realize. You can try over the counter meds but I didn't get enough out of them. And if you do go to the Dr - please remember that you might have to try several different meds and it takes a while for them to start working - sometimes around 6 wks!

Please don't feel alone - you're not - but please try to do one thing a day - even if it's just getting dressed. IF you can - try to take a 5 minute walk (outside). Fresh air and sunshine can have a major impact on how you feel.

If you need someone to talk to - just let me know. Don't let the holidays start to get to you!!!

Big Hugs to you, girl!

I don't know how old you son is but mine is 37 & I could see him saying that as a joke & a complement. Of course...being depressed you didn't take it like that.
I was very depressed once & still struggle from time to time but my Doc put me on meds & life is SO much better.

Please don't let one comment send you back to that place. It is so difficult to just get up in the mornings much less have to please the people around you too. Take a few minutes for yourself and make a list-what you want to do and what you need to do. You don't have tackle all of it at once, but make short little goals for yourself and each time you accomplish or tackle one of those goals, cross it off your list. It will make you feel good that you've gotten something done. Make the goals small-like go for a haircut, or clean one bathroom, the kitchen counter, vacuum the living room. Yeah, I mean short little goals. :) It will help you to feel good about getting something done and it won't be so much of an effort to do.

You should take a real good inventory of what you are about, your looks, weight, clothing and if you want to do something about (or not) you need to be honest and accept it. Once you accept this, everyone around you will as well, and if they don't--you really won't care because you are comfortable with it-and that is what matters the most, YOU!

Hang in there remember, we're all important, if not to a bunch of people, to ourselves. :) Hugs.

Sweetie, you sound seriously depressed. You really need to address this if you are having trouble getting out of bed. Please get help for this. As other people have mentioned, there is often a strong genetic component. Does this run in your family?

Please see a doctor, and I strongly recommend finding a therapist as well. You might also try the book "Feeling Good", which covers the basics of cognitive therapy. You don't need to feel this bad. Bast luck to you, and please PM me if you want (no pressure).

You are definitely not alone. As already mentioned, would highly recommend a doc's appointment. Small goals are a great idea. Prayers for a happier future. ~Joanne~

depression
 

Suzanne,
You are not alone, sometimes it feels like we are the only person that feels like this and that makes us even more depressed. I have suffered from depression most of my life. My doctors think it's partly due to having Fibromyalgia and Rheum. arthritis and Diabetes. Yeah, that should do it.I can blame that sometimes but I know there is so much more to it. I have to force myself to get up in the morning, then all I want to do is go back to bed. It's gotten worse in the past year since we moved to where we are living now. We are moving again in a couple weeks if I can ever get myself to pack. I'm looking forward to moving but can't get motivated. WE are suppose to work on loving ourself first. Okay, someone tell me how to do that. I used to get dressed everyday and do my hair and makeup, now I could care less. Went to my doctor and got a lecture about getting more excercise and not sitting around vegging. Lectures just perk you right up don't they. Everyone suggests talking to a shrink. Sorry, there are things that I will never let come out to share with anyone. I try to put on a front for my family but I get really sick of being 2 different people. The one on the outside and the one on the inside. It's a constant battle between the two. I even considered suicide until I started reading books by Sylvia Browne, whe is a very well known physic and I love her books. She has given me a whole new prespective on life and death. I know that God loves us unconditionally but suicide is against evertyhing they believe in. I have made Sylvia a promise that I will never do that. She has a new book out about loving ourselves and healing ourselves from within. I love the book, the only trouble I have is the meditations. My mind never shuts off long enough to get deep into meditation but I am trying. Suzanne, I don't pretend to know what you believe but we are never alone. My four sons have no idea what I go through and they are very quick to blame me for anything wrong in their lives that I was not a good mom. I have written letters to each of them that they will get when I die. Things they need to know but still may not believe. It felt good to get it off my chest. I am here for you if you need to talk personally pm me or email me at suespreng@yahoo.com. Maybe we can help each other. There is probably nothing you can tell me that I can' top regarding things done in the past. I don't share conversations with anyone else. After 16 years as an EMT I know about confidentially.
Hang in there and don't let remarks set you back. Kids have no idea what damage a flip remark can do. They would be hoffified if they knew they hurt you. One day at a time sweetheart, one step at a time.
Sue:)

I am so sorry you are going through this. :( I will have you in my thoughts and prayers. Please don't feel ashamed - there are so many people in the world who deal with this.

You guys. I'm so sorry for all of you that mentioned being depressed! :(

I've gone through a little depression here and there, but nothing too serious. If ANY of you ever want to talk about anything please, please feel free to email me!!
c101courtney@roadrunner.com

Even if we just talk about random things, anything at all! I'd love to just chat. :)

Suzanne ~ you are *not* alone....and there is so much help out there if you need it. There is nothing to be "ashamed" of, at all. Please make an appointment with your primary doc. as soon as you can, and you'll feel so much better - like a ton of bricks slid off your back as soon as you make the appointment, I swear :)! Depression is something to take very seriously. Hugs to you...and remember you're not alone :).

Oh I so agree. Depression is a medical disease just like high blood pressure and can be treated with medicine. It is a chemical imbalance in your body and it might take a few times to get the right combination but they will.

I have a sister who has her Phd who has fought this her entire life but we only have to really worry about her when her body has gone through some changes (menopause, having children, losing/gaining weight etc.) to correct her meds.

Please do not be ashamed about something you can't change or control.

Dear Suzanne, I am so sorry for what your going through. I am so glad you are reaching out, I hope you will continue to do this. I don't know the age of your son, but hope you can overlook what he said.

Remember above all Our Heavenly Father LOVES YOU AND YOU ARE VERY SPECIAL. I will be keeping you in my prayers.

The power of prayer is mighty here with your Yorkie Talk Family and I will be joining others in praying for your needs. Keep telling yourself everything is going to be fine. Believe in yourself, and please do talk with your Family Physician real soon.

I have found that through the many rough times in life when I felt like my feet could no longer touch the floor, Jesus carried me through those times.
These last five months have been the very hardest time of my life, since Jack's injury, I am so grateful to feel God providing me with the strength and energy to push on and HIS LOVE surrounding me constantly. Thanks to our many wonderful Yorkie Family friends here I know their prayers will help you too.
Hugs, Patti and Jack

To all my dear yorkietalk friends you have no idea how much your responses have touched my heart, and brought me to happy tears. For those of you that left your email addresses I tried to write back, but it won't let me email you, so I sent you pm's. To anyone that responded that I have not pm'd back I will. I suffer from BiPolar and major depression. I have been seeing the same psychiatrist for 10 years with little or no help. There is a new man in town who is suppose to be very good, and after the holiday I will be setting up an appointment as a new patient. I'm sorry, but I had been going to a counselor for the same amount of time, and when I was home alone, and felt like I wanted to commit suicide I called him. He told me he wasn't my friend, he was my counselor and if I felt that way to call 911. That did it for me and counselors. Unfortunately my husband really wants me to go to marriage counseling with him. I am dreading it with my very soul. I have to say as much as I love him, right now I hate him. I don't want to have to be backed into a corner and hear how awful I am. The last time I went with him to the psych. I specially asked him not to bring up my son. We weren't in there five minutes, and he started in on me, and the psych was oh so willing to jump in. It landed up in a screaming match between me and the psych, and I got up and walked out. Right now I feel like a trapped rat backed up into a corner just waiting to lash out. I know that's not right, but it's honestly how I feel. The other day I was so depressed I thought of climbing on my roof, and jumping off to see if I could fly like a bird. Then I looked at my kids, and my grandaughter, and just went in my room and cried. I did talk to my son about his snide remark. He told me he was just being sarcastic, and trying to let me know how pretty I looked. I told him it was funny how his girlfriend jumped off the bed and screamed at him for saying that. I told him I guess sarcasim is not want I need or want right now. We had a long long talk, and to make it up to me he said he'd cook the entire Thanksgiving dinner, and his fiance would clean up everything so I could just rest and enjoy the day. I must say he cooks like a chef, and I'm looking forward to my dinner. It makes me feel so much better to talk to you, and I hope you don't mind if I come back, and update this as things go on. Hopefully soon I'll be able to tell you all I'm feeling better. I do believe in Jesus, and know I'm not holding onto his back while he's carry me around. I'm literaly just wrapped around his neck as I don't even have the strength to hold on. I gotta go, cause I'm getting really emotional, and I don't want my family to wake up and see me crying.

Love you all, and have a Blessed Thanksgiving.
Suzanne

Suzanne...your mention of Jesus reminds me of Footprints in the Sand. A beautiful poem.

Oh darlin' :(. We are here for you...please don't ever forget that. Don't ever stop yourself from reaching out when you need to. I wish I could make it hurt less for you.

Here is a hug: {{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}

I am *really* super glad to hear there is a new counselor in town bc what you described of the old one didn't sound too healthy for you, ya know what I mean? Just don't ever let go of the fact that it CAN and WILL get better...I personally KNOW that for a FACT! :):):)

Suzanne,

I just sent you a nice long PM. Know that I'm here for you and you can contact me whenever you want!

Suzanne, I'm sorry you had that experience with and at the counselors. It is so important to find some who you can trust to talk with. :(

It sounds as though you spirit is very much alive in there somewhere...just hold on and it will find it's way. Giving you a great :bighug:!

Enjoy your Thanksgiving and I am glad that you had a talk with your son; with him behind you hopefully that is one step closer to feeling better. :)

Unfortunately, it can take a while to find the right meds, and it can take a while to find the right therapist. And of course when you're depressed, it's even harder to stick with it and find what will work for you.

I'm glad you are going to try a new counselor. I don't know your situation, but I actually think it's a good sign if your husband wants to go to marriage counseling. Usually it's the wife dragging in the husband. Again, you DO need someone good, and a good counselor will not "side" with one partner against the other. With the right person, it can have huge benefits for your relationship. Please try to stay strong and keep looking for the help you need. You really sound like you are in a lot of pain. It doesn't have to be that way.