MindieRose | 01-27-2009 05:40 AM | Quote:
Originally Posted by hviola
(Post 2440282)
I went to my first appt today. Im only about 5 weeks along. But they told me they think my miscarriage at 5 months pregnant in May was due to "placental abruption" and that I have a 30% chance of it happening again! (This is where the placenta detaches from the uterus and causes labor. There is no known cause or prevention.)
Im sooo depressed right now. Im being scheduled soon with a specialist who is one of the best in the state and who will work with my high risk OB to get me the care and attention I need. There will be a lot of tests, monitoring, sonograms. Oh, and they recommend I dont work, which I was just cut from my job anyway. Because theres a good chance I could spend a good portion of the pregnancy on bedrest. Dealing with this is going to take a tremendous amount of strength on my part.
Im just sitting here crying. So I have to go the next 6-7 months without knowing if I will get to keep my baby or not.
Well I have an appointment with my high risk obstetrician on thursday. I will update again later. | Listen here lady! (:) Hang on, I'm gonna get tough with you! ;) ) You have to stay positive for this baby. As humans, our first instinct in this situation would be to keep ourselves guarded. However, not allowing yourself to bond with that baby inside of you out of fear of losing him/her is not good for you or the baby. I fully understand how you are feeling at this moment. My 4th child, my oldest daughter, has a condition called complete congenital heart block. I found this out at my 21 week ultrasound when her heart was only beating at 55 beats per minute (should be 135-170). EVERYTHING online about it gave a lot of grave outcomes. In fact, many doctors will give mothers the option of abortion (don't get me started...stupid stupid) when they find out. My doc knew better. Anyway, I went through the rest of my pregnancy with weekly ultrasounds (70 mile round trip) and waking up about 10 times nightly just to wake up the baby inside of me and feel her move. My friends and family kept showering me in girl clothes, since we had 3 boys, and at first, I hated it. I kept thinking that I would hate to come home from the hospital, no baby, and have to see this beautiful room and pink clothes. I prayed and prayed about it, and just developed a peace about it and let myself bond with and love that baby inside of me. She is 6 now and doing great. She has yearly cardio appts and holter monitoring yearly, but is healthy! They say by 30 she will need a pacemaker...we will see. I have had 2 girls since then, that had about a 6-12% chance of having the same thing. So I had bi-weekly ultra sounds with them and they are fine. If I would have let myself succumb to the depression I felt when I first found out about my little princess, I would have never had the bond that I do with her now, because I would have kept myself withdrawn for so long.
Please remain optimistic. You are going to be under great care, and I am sure if there is one single sign of trouble, they will be able to catch it before anything can progress.
Take care and give lots of updates! |