| silyjillie | 07-08-2008 04:13 PM |
I realy need some YT prayers!!
Hey everyone. I was wondering if you could pray for my family for the next few weeks. I'd gotten the worst news this week and it just keeps coming. I don't know what to do, I just wanna find a little closet to cry in and wake up when the nightmare is over.
I found out on the 4th that my great grandma had a heart attack. She's 92 years old and very frail. She can't live on her own anymore. My uncle's mom comes for during the day to help her around the house and cook for here. For the past few years, we'd go up and set up her Christmas tree and decorations and she would say how this would probably her last Christmas tree. But, the last 3 months, she's really given up. She doesn't eat anymore, she doesn't bother getting out of bed, and just wants to be left alone. Her muscles started deteriorating and she got so thin, she was always a small lady but, she's well under 100 lbs now. Anyway, when she has her heart attack, there was nothing the doctors could do, her heart is now working at 10%. My dad went up on Sunday to see her and she was out of it. She thought he brought her down the shore and left her there. He tried explaining to her that she was in hospital but she yelled at him for lying to her. She didn't even recognize my mom. My mom called me yesterday and said her kidneys are failing and they have to put her on dialysis. She doesn't want to though. She signed a DNR and just wants to go home and die in her bed.
To make the situation worse, my grandfather needs surgery too. His health hasn't been the best for years now. He's had numerous surgeries, heart attacks, a stroke, and continues to smoke all the time. He lives half the year here and the other half in Brazil. About 2 years ago he had a surgery in Brazil for something in his stomach and he never healed correctly. For the longest time he had a hole in his side because the tissue was infected and damaged. He finally closed but, the infection never cleared. When he came back from Brazil about a month ago and the doctors said his infection is really bad. He was suppose to have surgery last week but he didn't pass the tests. Well it's scheduled for the 23rd and the doctors said he doesn't have a good chance. They have to cut him across his stomach and up his chest and his health isn't great. I don't know all the details because he won't talk to anymore about it. The only reason we know is because my uncle's mom goes and helps interpret if he doesn't understand what the doctor is saying.
I'm sorry for going on and on but I'm just so upset right now. I fell so helpless too because I'm in Florida all by myself and can't leave to go home till Friday. My mom also doesn't tell me the full story. She'll only tell me small pieces until it gets bad and she has to let me know. I know she's doing it because I get really emotional and she doesn't want me so upset when I'm down here with no family but, it makes me mad when she tells me things and I find out she's known for a while. My boyfriend is going to drive up with me on Friday so my mom or dad don't have to worry about coming down. I just wanna lave now and go though.
Thanks for listening to me ramble. I don't even know if i made sense. it does feel better to get it off my chest though. I appreciate it! | 