update on lexi's allergies and maddie
 

ok, where do i start. i think you all know the long story to this. maddie is still next door with bob and jane. they told me that she has made them live again and brought soooo much joy to there life. they did tell me in the beginning that if things change with lexi, i could have maddie back.

well lexi has been on the shots 3 times a week for almost 1 1/2 - 2 months. from time to time i take her around doggies to see what happens and always a rash. well the last two times i've taken her around maddie and dan's dad's doggy......no rash. i talked to the allergist and she said the shot are starting to work with her system.

so i'm thinking...great in time she will be fine and maybe i acted to early on the situation. but after months and month of the rash and the terrible stuff that came with it...i just wanted relief for little lexi (my skin daughter)

here is my problem. the difference maddie has made in bob and jane's life is amazing. they are elderly and she had given them new hope. they thank me each day for her. maddie has adjusted wonderful and loves them to death. as a matter of fact i told connie the last two times she was sooo happy to see me, but instead of staying with me the whole time...she went back and sat with them..(which broke my heart)

i can't take maddie away from them. i think it would totally devasted them. and if something happened to them health wise cause of it i would never forgive myself. now you all now the heart ache and pain i've had being away from maddie, but i have to put myself last here and think about someone else beside myself. i have to do the right thing and not be selfish. maddie is adjusted and she has been through so much and bob and jane. i just can't do it. i realize i have to let go....(as hard as it is)

and if things keep going well with lexi then i'll be able to have another yorkie in my life really soon. it won't be little maddie as she is next door, but i hope to find a little girl to give all my love and attention to. the kids really miss not having a baby around as to I.

maybe i acted to premature with letting maddie stay next door, maybe i didnt think it all thru. but whats done is done. she's happy and they are too.

so please pray for me and that i can heal knowing i've done some good for two elderly people. they take her for yogurt every night. she loves driving in the car as always. pray that things with little lexi will remain getting better and that the shots will continue to work and do there job and that i can find the me a little girl again.

thanks so much for everything!

Denise..................wow. There are just NO words for what you've been through. I know the whole story - and I just could not ache, ACHE, for you more. Honestly, part of me wants to say GO GET your Maddie - and the other completely sees that you think she is settled and adjusted - and that this couple is in love with her. But I think back to when you lost her, and that dream....and I just can't stand her not being with you. It literally hurts - so I cannot even imagine how it is for YOU, I truly can't - because I think Maddie's story has affected me probably more than any other story here on YT.

Your heart is in the absolute most beautiful place - for all involved - and I admire that so much. You will still be in her life and I don't know if that's any consolation, but maybe it's a small one. All I can say is that you've handled this entire situation with such human grace and love - and I know it will come back to you ten fold. I am so sorry that it hurts and that it's been so difficult. I've watched you go through it all - and my thoughts have always been with you. I send you hugs and warm thoughts and my admiration. :)

Don't blame yourself for what you did, you did what you did for a reason and it's great knowing you helped out an elderly couple in such a way. It's also great that they're next door so you can see her anytime. Maddie is a true angel and this just goes to show. Keep your head up, as time goes on you'll realize more and more everyday the great joy you've brought to this couple's life! Prayers coming your way to help you through this time and to show you that what you've done is the absolute right thing!:thumbup:

thank you so much...reading your respond brought tears to my eyes. there is part of me that wants to say, heck with it all and go get her, but i'm just not that type of person. my heart is in the right place. i do hope that i'll be able to get another little girl to love and give my whole heart to. as much as i hurt, i know i will be ok. i dont know if they would be without her.

Oh Denise I couldn't even imagine. What a wonderful beautiful person you are. You shall be blessed.

oh man - What you just posted got me feeling so bad -- yet happy. It sounds like little Maddie adjusted and is happy and you have a whole family to look after .....soooooo I think you made the right decision. She is probably living like a little queen. It sounds like they love her very much and no dog could ask for more

Glad Lexie is doing better!

But Ouch, what a hard decision to make. I can't imagine leaving the dog I had loved for many years next door and getting a new one. Perhaps if Lexie does get completely better you could find someone rehoming an adult yorkie and give it to Bob and Jane as a gift for taking care of Maddie?

Maddie is indeed on this earth for a reason~ you have been her conduit.

She needed the right person to work through and the universe choose well.

Look at how she has changed and touched so many lives in her short time here.

Hugs to all of you!:animal-pa

Denise, everything you have been thru would have beaten me to the ground. Your strength is amazing. Maddie's story is one full of miracles but your heartache breaks my heart. I wish there were a simple solution for everyone involved. My first thought was to simply get your neighbors a new puppy, but after reareading your post, I understand how devastated they would be to lose Maddie. It's hard to believe how many lives and hearts this little girl has touched. I'm just so sorry your life is so torn up by all this. I am happy to know the Lexi is doing better. You will all be in my thoughts and prayers.

Im glad to hear Lexi is getting better:)
I know the whole situation with maddie is a hard one but I think maybe getting Maddie back and helping your neighbors get a new yorkie could work. Just like when Maddie was found and by lewis. I just couldnt leave Max next door knowing that its perfectly safe to have him back home. Getting another puppy wont be hard but I couldnt bring myself to do it when I know Maxie should be home with us.I hope whatever decision you make works out best for you guys :)

Your a strong and wonderful person, How you have been dealing with all this is just amazing, Im so sorry for everything you have been thru, You are in my thoughts and prayers :love:

i've thought about it over and over and prayed and prayed. i dont think emotionally they could handle it. when i first took her over there and went back the next day, and maddie whined and whined for me. jane cried the whole entire day saying omgosh bob...i cant give her up if she dont like me. what are we going to do. she was worried sick. she's a very fragile woman. i just dont think she could take it. trust me my heart breaks, but i have to think of the positive in this situation. maddie is truely and angel. she brought jane out of bed (which she stayed daily) and out and about now. they said they owe it all to maddie and her amazing personality and how she took the loneliness away.

God has a plan...it will all work out. I have to trust in that. Even my lauryn agrees that she couldnt take maddie away from them. the smile that babies has brought to two new people is just amazing. thats the only way to put it. i guess i have to smile knowing they are smiling. bob knows that lexi didnt break out the last two times we were there and his eyes filled up with tears when i told him and said oh that's so good for you, but..... and i interputed him and said...dont worry...maddie's not going anywhere and his smile and gleem was back. Maddie is a gift from God and gift I must pass on to people who can make their last years on earth a happy place.

I am happy to see that Lexi is doing so much better with her allergy shots
and did not break out in that dreadful rash her last two times around
dogs. That's truly an accomplishment.
On the decision regarding Maddie I am no help Denise.
I wouldn't call it selfish but at the beginning the neighbors said they
would take Maddie for awhle in hopes Lexi got better and she did.
I would expect my Maddie back and of course replace her with another
Yorkie. There are so very many adults who need homes and can fill
the void for them after Maddie left. After all it's only been two months or so how attached can they be? Like Lewis, he grew to love his new pet when Maddie left him. It should be no different with your neighbors. I am sure they
would understand as that was the initial agreement to begin with.
I think they would feel terrible if you purchased another dog and they kept
Maddie knowing the reason they had her in the first place. That's just
my opinion and in no way am I judging you. You have to do what's best for you but that is how I look at it. good luck with you decision.


Hugs,

Gosh, Denise...I don't know how you are so strong about all of this. That says something really amazing about you. I am no help, but I just wanted to say that we'll be praying for all of you.

FWIW, I think you're doing the right thing for everyone and that is very admirable:) Not everyone can be as unselfish as you are being! And the best part is, she is right next door and you can see her often:thumbup: It's such great news that the shots are working for Lexi:)

BIG hugs to you, and I hope that you are able to get a new Yorkie baby soon:love: No one deserves it more than you!

I am glad the allergy shots are helping Lexi. I can understand not wanting to take Maddie back but it would be so hard not to as well. I hope you can find another baby to love. The neighbors sound like they need Maddie.

Oh Denise, where do I even begin? :( First of all, I am so happy that Lexi is doing better....that is absolutely fabulous and wonderful. Way to go little Lexi! :) I hope that she will continue to do well as time passes. As for Maddie......SIGH. :( Girl, you KNOW I want you to have Maddie. After all you have been through with her, I just wanted you to be able to spend the rest of forever loving her and smothering her with kisses....and it just breaks my heart that-that never came to be :cry: Like Ann (Wylie's Mom), part of me thinks....SHE IS YOUR LITTLE MADDIE!!! :cry: GO GET HER!!! :cry: And the other part of me totally and completely sees your point about your neighbors loving her and needing her so much. For me personally, that is a REALLY tough decision and to be honest, I can't say that I am totally sure what I'd do in your situation. I definitely couldn't imagine going and taking one of my babies away from those wonderful sweet people, but then again I couldn't imagine living without my Stedman or Tatum either....so it is just EXTREMELY hard :cry: BUT - it seems to me that you have already made your mind up....and that is to let those sweet people keep little Maddie. I think you made a very brave and selfless decision here Denise....and I commend you HIGHLY for it :) Your are a very strong person with such a wonderful and caring heart Denise....and I know that in time you will find the most perfect little girl that is meant for you and your family. Big hugs to you girl, and as always....I love ya :)

Wow this is a hard one. I dont know what I would do, I think I would of kept her in the first place and just kept her apart from your daughter. I have kids with asthma, so I do understsnd why you did what you did. I cant help but feel sorry for Maddie, shes been through so much already, having to adjust to family after family. I think if shes happy then just leave her as she is. its got to be hard on her too. I do feel sorry for you, I know that you heart must be breaking. I wouldnt go and get another Yorkie for a long while if I was you. the same thing may happen again.

yes...we are waiting for a while to make sure all is ok. part of me didnt want to but its the right thing to do. i want to make sure lexi's completely better first and not jump the gun on that one.

Honey you didn't jump the gun. You made the right choice. As parents no matter what else is on the table our children's health and needs need to be taken care of first and foremost.

Maybe it is gods will because during all of this heartache past and present you were able to bring joy and life to two households that needed it. I say give it a bit more time for Lexi's meds to work for sure and then at that point get yourself a new baby.

i'm excited...had lexi around my friends doggy today for 4 hrs...and no rash tonight...yeah:)

Denise I know that this is a really bad situation for you right now, and I understand how you feel as far as taking Maddie back.

Please do not blame yourself, Lexi needed relief and you knew it, because since it was so hard for you I KNOW that you didn't just give her up for convenience.

I really sympathize with you on your decision. I've thought about it over and over again...if our situation changed (and either family offered, not that I would want/expect them to), would I take back either Rusty or Maddie? and I know how you feel. I can say that I wouldn't, but the answer can't be the same for everyone because it is a different situation and gut feeling for everyone.

I'm so sorry that you're being faced with this. I'll be praying that it works out for the best for you, your dear neighbors, and sweet little Maddie.

I am so excited for you! Please don't second guess yourself. You are a mother and made the decision that was right for your daughter at the time you made it. That makes you an incredible and unselfish mommy! What you have gone through and continue to go through, all out of concern for others is actually inspiring. You have nothing but the best coming to you.

gosh Denise you have been through so much, I pray a new fur baby joins your household soon

First, HUGE hugs to you, Denise. I can't begin to imagine what a roller-coaster ride this has been.

My mom always says that everything happens for a reason. Sometimes, I hate to hear her say it because I know it's right. Perhaps the reason that Maddie was returned to you was so she could help your neighbors. It's the "debt" for having had her returned to you at all.

Seems like an awfully high cost to exact from anyone, but at least you know that she's alive, that she wasn't tossed into a trash can, and that she is just next door, doing immeasurable good.

Easy for me to say, I know. But I have to think that if the same options were exercised in my life, I'd be grateful. And oh, how nearly impossible it would be to hand my boy over after having been deprived of him once already. I really don't know how you find the strength.

I hope that Maddie's tour of duty is only temporary and that she can at some future time return to you. Thoughts and prayers with you and your family.

Awww this is making me cry.

What you are doing is in fact a truly a statement of pure love. You are looking past your own wants and needs for the better of all involved. I wish you well and when you find another little baby she will that much more special and loved.:)

i think you have made the right decision in letting your neighbors keep
maddie.. what a beautiful person you are..maddie has been bounced
around a few times and now god is saying this is her place to stay.
im so happy your daughter is doing fine... god will guide you into making
the right move,, i think he already has...

I agree. BEST OF LUCK to you!!