So Sorry
 

Hi Melody
I'm so sorry for what you are going through right now. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Whenever things seem to be getting the best of me, I say to myself, "This too shall pass", and it helps. Try it.
Life sometimes dishes out some pretty tough obstacles for us to overcome, but you'll be o.k., you"ll see.
It has been a long tough Winter, but hey, we're rid of February, and March will go by quickly. Spring is such a beautiful season, and I'm sure once you see the flowers poking through, and feel the warmth of the sun, things will look a whole lot brighter.
There are a lot of wonderful people here praying and pulling for you, things will be O.K.
Best of luck to you on Thursday. I'm praying for you, too.
Janice

Sorry to hear you are having such a tough time and sending prayers that you will get good news. I too have had 3 breast biopsies. All benign. I wish you lived near me as my doctor who does my exams is awesome and he really takes good care of me. You do have to be really really careful if you have that family history. Has your family been tested for the gene and can you then be tested? I was in a study that taught me a lot about the genetics but our family is a false negative which basically means that they think we have a genetic link but have no yet found that particular defective gene. Anyways, I wish you luck and please keep us posted.

Melody,
I pray that the Lord with take you under his wing right now and comfort your in your time of need. I also pray that doctors take care of you to the best of their ability. I pray that you find comfort in the companion that He has chosen for you. I know your baby will bring your joy during this time. I pray for healing for your body.

Keep us updated!@

Melody,
I'm so sorry you have to deal with all these emotions and fear alone. Like Villette and Carol(Archie), I, too, am a widow and truely fear the being alone part. I am just a PM away. Keep positive thoughts and try to get plenty of rest. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs on their way to you.
Sandy

I am so very sorry you are having such a hard time:( You are in my thoughts and prayers.... Please keep us updated on your test results thur.

You are in my thoughts and prayers ,

You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I'm sending you positive vibes.

I pray that everything will be just fine, we are here for you!

I am sending my love, thoughts and prayers your way. I know how scary this can be. On the 5th of March it will be 15 years that I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I had a full mastectomy and am doing great:D

I understand the fear, every time I get a lump anywhere, my heart sinks, I have had most of my thyroid removed and my ovaries as they had "not so good" tumors. I think the waiting for results is the worst. I will be thinking of you on Thursday, and praying that all is well, just remember, whatever the outcome, you have us here. I wish I lived nearer to you. I would be there in a flash to put my arms around you and give you support.

I'm sure your good friends will not think you're imposing. They would probably love to help you out if need be.

Good luck for Thursday, let us know the good news so that we can celebrate with you.;)


Hugs,
Sheilagh

Melody, Even though those of us posting are not with you, I'm sure you know there are many praying for you.

Loneliness is a terrible feeling - I know from the loss of my husband 2 years ago just how awful it is.

I hope you can feel my prayers added to the others. I'm pulling for you and praying for you. Remember, God holds us all in the palm of his hand.

rescheduled test day
 

i just wanted to say that i rescheduled my tests. i have been ill the past couple of days. i think from fear. i get so anxious and then my body reacts physically. this has occurred ever since my childhood. my tests are now on Mar. 17th. thank you all for your wonderful support. please continue to keep me in your thoughts.
Melody

Hon wish I lived closer I would come hold your hand through the test. Once again I want you to know your in my prayers and thoughts.

Oh no! I am sorry! Is there a support group in your area that you could join? Or maybe talk to your doctor and see if your insurance/hospital has group sessions with other people that are going through the same thing? :ghug: <--to you

I'm thankful to hear that yours were all benign. Someone ence told me they had 7 biopsies, and all benign. I do worry because of my family history. No, there has been no testing done. I don't think my insurance would cover that for me. I don't know that I want to know if there is the gene there. I guess just going once step at a time is all I can handle. If the gene is there, so be it, if not, I could still develop cancer too. It is just so much to think about!...lol Right now I will deal with this lump until I know it is benign. Then maybe another time I could get the test when I am feeling more calm and able to deal with that. Good luck in your future with your health. Thanks for the posting. :)
~Melody

Melody, I certainly will keep you in my prayers and thoughts.
I am sorry to see this because I was hoping it would be behind
you after today. Please get better and get those tests done
so you can move forward. Prolonging them will only make you
sicker. I know it's easier said than done but hun it's not going
to go away so prepare yourself for next time and be strong
and get them done. We are not there with you physically but
emotionally and mentally we are. Wishing you well,

Hugs,

MissSophie and saphire, you have been through this and I admire the great courage you have to have to make it through! I have been with my mom and aunt when they went through it, and a friend that had throat cancer. It is not an easy thing to be on this side of the disease, I cannot ever imagine what it must be like to have to go through those treatments. It is good to hear from those of you who have been through it. Thank you for your support and good thoughts. :thumbs up
Melody

Thanks Beth, if you lived closer, I'd take you up on that. Sometimes it is so difficult going through these mini-crises alone. I have my friends, but they all have their own lives, and lots of times I go to these things alone. I will keep you in mind when I go this time.
And Sheilagh, I wish you were hear too, I need a hug or two now. You and everyone here will be in my thoughts when I have my tests on Mar. 17th. Thank you all! :mademyday :ghug:
Melody

Praying that your Test Results will be benign ! Hugs

Melody, Thank you for letting me know that your test dates had changed.... I always love to hear from you. :)
I can sympathize with what you are describing and I too have a problem with my autoimmune system. Ever since I was diagnosed it seems that anything that comes down the pike seems to find me and I catch it. I swear some days I feel like I should wear a mask and gloves when I leave the house. ;)
Please stay strong and remember that you have so many friends here who are praying for you and wishing you well.
Hugs to you .... Janie

Sending you prayers and a ton of good vibes. Best of luck Hope that all tuns out well. So sorry you will be dealing with this alone. If you need a shoulder, please feel free to contact me. I have big shoulders. :hug:

Melody, I hope your once again feeling better.
Prayer's still coming for you on the 17th. Close your eyes
when your being tested and think about all of us holding your
hand so you will not be alone because we will all be there with
you in thought. Hugs to you:ghug:

My heart goes out to you during this difficult time, but I'll be praying for you. In the meantime try to stay focused on the positive and just relax. When it's all said and done you should go far far away myabe like St.Johns Island and just put your feet in the sand! You've got tons of Yorkietalk prayers going your way!!!!!

thanks everyone again for all the support!
thanks Janie, i wrote you an email I think on Sunday.
Archie and Charlie's angel, I will have to find a place to go in my mind and imagine you all here at YT there to be with me. great ideas!
I am doing fair. I have been depressed and lethargic. I hate when I feel this way. I just don't want to do anything. I have errands I need to run, I keep avoiding doing that. I need to do things around here, I am not doing that either. I need to just suck it up and do what I need to do. I know that, but feel so stuck. I just keep thinking "what if it's cancer, what will I do??" I am alone with only some friends relatively close by. Family, what there is left of it, is 500 miles away. I have my babies to worry about. Who will cook for William if I can't? ...lol sort of...But I really worry about that. Who will wash his behind when he gets doody on it...LOLOLOL, but it just happened. (the cats are easier, they are pretty independent.) i'm really sweating this one, the lump is so close to the chest wall, not more shallow like the other two. my mom's cancer was deep, and had projections down into the underlying muscle. my fear is really getting to me this time. thank G-d i do have William, if i didn't i think i would be perhaps suicidal. i have been there before and am really thankful i am not that depressed now. and having YT'ers are really helping too, i think i found this site, and then my William through this site, just to be here for me now. i really believe things happen like that sometimes. anyway, thanks again to all who have written to support me. i really appreciate each and every one. :)
Melody

Melody, You will always have someone on here to "talk" to anytime. You can PM me anytime. My daughters birthday is March 17 so it will be easy for me to remember that day and say special prayers for you. Have you talked with your dr about some meds for depression just to get you thru this? I am going to PM you now.

i will be praying real hard for you.. i kind a know what your going through,
as i am going through it right now... good luck and my fingers are
crossed for benign lumps...think possitive, we are all here for you, anytime..

lacey and i will keep you in our prayers also. i know that feeling of heart sinking, lump in the throat i just want it to go away waiting. been there 3 times already. i do have family close to me to help me, but after watching them worry the first time i dont tell them anything until i know for sure. i tend to turn to online friends for some reason. just know we are all here for you:)

I am praying for good results on the 17th. Thinking Positive thoughts for you.

Good Morning Melody, I am thinking of you today and I hope all goes well.
Please email me when you get back to let me know how things are, okay?
Positive thoughts and prayers are with you today..... :heart to

Thanks Janie,I am gearing up to go...hoping it will be an easy time.
~Melody

Good Morning Melody, I just found this thread this morning and I realize your test is today. Just wanted to send encouragement to you.

I was being tested for cervical cancer a few years ago. I had to wait for over a week for the test results to come back. It turned out they were looking for cancer that had already spread.

My kids were still in school, and I got a little freaked out at first. But I am a Christian and I looked to the Lord to care for me. I found that as long as I was leaning on the Lord and trusting Him I was at peace. I truely knew God would take care of me and my life was in his hands no matter what the out come. I also knew my family was in His hands and he would take care of them as well. The only time I was not at peace was when I stopped trusting God. As soon as I LET the thoughts of what I was facing get to me I was a wreak. But as long as I kept my eyes on the Lord I really did feel peaceful. You can't be fearful and be trusting the Lord at the same time. If your fear is up your faith is down, and when I realized that I used it as a tool to keep my faith on track.

I'm praying this morning for you to have good test results. But also for you to have full peace in the Lord. That your trust in Him will CARRY you through what ever you face. I will also pray that for now and in the future the Lord will send some loving people to be a support system for you. I know our church cooks meals, does house work, and helps take care of those that need help.

The Lord will meet all your needs... You just have to trust. God Bless you today and every day.
I will pm you my phone number... I have a phone plan where I can call any time in the US and it won't cost any extra money. We pay a flat rate. You can call me if you need to talk or if you want me to pray with you. As of right now I am not working... so I'm around!;) Call me if you want to and I can call you right back!;) You are not alone... God Bless & Peace.