Originally Posted by BrendaS54
(Post 1708179)
Hi,
My name is Brenda.. and I have depression. I am on Cymbalta. I have been on it for about 7 months now. I never ever thought I had depression. As some knows on YT , I have been thru alot the last two years. I lost my mother and two brothers in 15mths. I have very serious Back problems, Fibromyalgia, I have had my right knee replaced twice.. my left knee 8 surgeries in 3 years. Broke my left foot, 5th metarsal, I had to have a bone graft an screw put in. So many back Rhizotomies, spinal blocks, you name it.. too many to even count, carpal tunnel surgery on both hands, cyst removed on both wrist, sinus surgeries.. I have had breast cancer and Uterine cancer. A year ago I had both ovaries removed, so that put me in surgical menapause, (hot flashes every hour), night sweats, I have Osteoarthritis really bad, degenerative Arthritis in the spine.. really bad, my back is collasping. you name it.. lol.. I have or had it. AS of today.. Wednesday the 30th, I will have a Spinal Stimulator Implant Surgery. I will be in the hospital for a couple of days.. Now to get to How I found out I have depression. I have been going to the pain clinic for over 3 years. I am so tired of doctors, pills, appts, pain.. and not sleeping. I finally broke down in the doctors office crying. I just screamed I couldn't take anymore.. I was tired of it all. The doctor took it wrong and thought I was thinking Suicide. So thats when they sent me to a Psychiatrist. I didn't want to go. My husband made me. All I did was cry.. I cried at everything. Well the psych made me come to realize I was depressed. There is 9 points of depression. I have 7. Honestly, I never thought I was depressed. I just thought I felt the way I did because I hurt and couldn't sleep because I was in pain so much. Well, I found out different. I AM Depressed, an there is nothing that you should be ashamed of. I knew there was something wrong with me. I didn't want to leave the house.. I felt crappy, and cried all the time. Not sleeping.. and didn't care about my house.. (NOW that is really a big thing with me) my friends and family says they can eat off my floors. Well I didn't care anymore. Thank God My husband made me go. Otherwise I wouldn't be here today. I still have my crying times sometimes. If it wasn't for my Furbabies.. I don't think I would even get out of bed.. They are my life. they keep me going. There are days I hurt so bad.. All over, I don't want to even wake up.. But.. my babies make me move an take them out for potty etc. So people.. I know what it is also.. if anyone want to talk.. pm me. I won't be online for a bit after tuesday because of my back surgery.. so Thanks for YT and all the wonderful people here. They are so understanding and caring.
Sorry for the rambling but I wanted to join in and let people know I care also.
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