Thank you!
 

I was just reading all the post and I wanted to thank you all for your warm thoughts. They are greatly appreciated.
I'm still having a hard time. I was okay while at work but as soon as I got home I broke down. My 11 yr old had a pic of her on my computer and thats when I lost it. I didn't want to make him feel bad but after a few hours I asked if I could change the picture. He asked why? and I said because mommy is feeling a little sad right now and he totally understood and said its okay mommy you can change it. I'm feeling so empty like I want to crawl in a corner and never come out. I didn't even want to come home from work because I knew my girl wouldn't be looking out the window when I got home but then I started to think I have a family that needs me and Timmy & Mimi need me too. Although Timmy & Mimi are so independant and are always doing their thing they have been extra affectionate towards me today and that makes me happy.

I'm also having a hard time with where she is buried. I haven't been to my backyard yet and really do not want to go back there because I know she is back there and I know I can't hold her or kiss her. I really wish she wasn't back there. My fiancee did a great job...he told me he buried her underneath the HUGE beautiful wheeping willow tree. Ever since I bought my house I fell in love with that tree...I always use to say how it felt like paradise standing underneath it. Now my favorite tree is not so much my favorite tree anymore because I know my girl is there. Gossshhh this is terrible.

Again, thanks for all the support. I'm thinking about taking some time from here but I also think about all the support you guys give me. If I do leave for a little bit I know you all will understand. Love you all!

Hey there...I know you are hurting, I am hurting for you too.
I'm sorry you haven't been able to visit Lillys grave...We buried Spencer in the one place I tried so hard to keep him out of when he was alive, in my rose garden. When I am gardening...I think about him, remember him and now it always brings a smile to my face. I often talk to him while I'm out there, it helps ease my mind some how. I feel his closeness, yes I too wish he was still here...I miss him, even though it's been over 3 years since we lost him. But I don't regret the decision of burying him where I spend most of my leisure time outdoors...I want him to be near me always, and he knows I love him still...Hugs to you, please visit Lillys grave...talk to her, cry for her and most of all remember her and love her...

My prayers for you and your family. I'm so sorry about Lilly. I followed your posts up to and through her surgery and just saw this tonight. Prayers for comfort and peace for your broken heart.

I am so sorry about Lilly, I know there isn't alot I can say to ease your pain, I have been there and I will pray for God to reach down and put his loving arms around you to ease the pain, and I am here, if you just want to vent to someone, just know that you are loved on here ....Rest in peace precious little angel Lilly...

God bless you and your family. I'm deeply sorry that little girl is no longer with you. I have been following your posts on her and it was such a rollercoaster ride. I will be praying for all of you.

Sleep tight little one. I am so sorry and thankful at the same time that she had you to love and care for her while she was on this earth. Things happen in this life that we don't understand but God has His own way of doing things, trust in Him..He's lovin' on her for you. Lilly isn't suffering anymore. Biggest hugs to you and your family.

Lilly
 

I am sorry for your heartache. I know that there is nothing anyone can say that will make the heartache go away. I do know that I buried my cat under my favorite tree in my yard and at first it was hard for me to get as much joy from the tree as I used to. Eventually I started sitting underneath it and talking to my little one, it eased some of the pain. I know you have a long road of healing ahead of you but take heart that the pain will ease and the happy memories will win out over the pain. Lilly will always be a part of your life.

I pray that you find solace in the fact that your little one is at peace and no longer has any pain.


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what a beautiful post...

I know I'm a bit late with condolences, it's so hard to come into this forum, but I wanted to say how sorry I am just the same. I lost my Keagan last year. He's buried at the edge of the garden in the front yard. Connor (his half brother) always looks out the window in that direction and barks. I think he somehow sees Keagan or knows that he is there. It kinda makes me smile to feel like he's still with us in spirit. I know everyone says it gets better and it does. Take comfort in knowing that she loved you and knows that you love her.

I am soo sorry. I too have followed your story and thought she was getting better. Don't beat yourselfs up over the procedure you had done. You did what you thought was best. Who knows why these things happen,But it will get better.Give yourself some time. God Bless .

I hope you are feeling better today. It is so shocking when they are not with us. There are four stages of grieving - SAGA - shock, anger, grieving and acceptance. Unfortunately, all of the parts of SAGA do not fall into a perfect line. My advice for you is to go outside, sit next to her grave and sob. Tell her how you feel, take your son with you when you have cried, so he can cry. Sometimes these sweet animals are here for such a brief time and then like my sweet Sophie, 13 years which didn't seem like it was long enough.

You will probably always question yourself about her treatment, I do but try to look at the time together as a blessing. You saved Timmy was being "kicked to the curb".

Take care and please write until you feel some comfort. Warmly, Deborah

I don't normally come into this section, it's so hard just trying to read these posts, I can't even imagine having to actually go through this kind of pain

Lilly was so clearly loved by you....I hope your heavy heart gets lighter in time....everything that happens to us is not our fault or doing....in time the sad memories will diminish and will slowly be replaced by all the happy, pleasant memories of Lilly....R.I.P.Lilly :angelyork

i am so very sorry that Lily didn't make it. Take solace in the fact that you did all you knew to do.

I am so sorry for your loss..I pray that God will continue to keep you and your family as you go thru this period of mourning and I ask that he gives you a peace in your heart to know that Lily is doing fine and playing on Rainbow Bridge with all the other dearly loved pets that there as well...she will be missed but truly not forgotten...know your YT family is here for you !!

I am sorry, I meant to say "Lilly".