I hope in time the good memories will be something to hang onto and give you a feeling of peace but I've been there and I know the pain is unbearable.
Hugs to you and your wife.

I am soo sorry for your loss.

My heart goes out to you and your family. So sorry for your loss. :( My yorkie's name is Zack also. I'm sure in time another yorkie will fill your life with happy memories again. You'll be in my prayers.

Hi allan,

I hope you are doing better.
I also have Heidi as my wallpaper on my mobile phone I also have a couple of short video clips on there too so i feel i always have her with me.
I have framed photos all over the house too.
You lost Zackie just 3 days before i lost my Heidi so i often think of you.

Take care of yourself.

Kerry x

Thanks Kerry. One thing that I truly regret was that I did not take enough pictures of Zackie. I always felt like what was the need since he was right there? I took some when I first got him (to send to family and friends), but that was really it. One of the only pictures I took of him in recent memory was the attached, which I took on my cell phone since I was waiting in the car for her with Zackie on my lap and I was bored.... I always felt like I had 13 more years for pictures, but now I regret that terribly.

I have not post lately, since I have not really had anything to add. I still miss Zack so much. I actually saw a Yorkie on the subway today, but he/she looked nothing like Zack (but the dog was kissing its owner like crazy - which is something Zack always did).

That is it for now, and I wish everyone who has lost a Yorkie in the recent past the best of wishes.

-Allan

Allan, I'm so sorry for your loss.My heart goes out to you.

Hi, Allan. Because of you, I enclosed my deck with 8x4 plastic lattice, tied securely with plastic ties and feel secure. Before Sophie died, she would want to go outside on the deck, but was always afraid she would fall through because she was so tiny. Reading your posts, and hearing another story fro a friend whose tiny Yorkie fell to the ground, I went out and bought the enclosure so Charlie can venture out.

When you said you saw the Yorkie in the subway, I remembered seeing a Yorkie walking in the market (downtown Seattle). I followed the owner and dog, asked if I could just touch her dog (after telling her about losing Sophie). She was so generous, I patted the pup, felt her fur and then realized how strong her body was compared to little Sophie's.

I hope this message helps you in some way that I did respond to your request for all of us to secure our decks. Sophie is also on my cell phone background which makes me feel closer to her. As for pictures, I took so many videos and pictures when she was younger, and wish I would have taken videos of her in December. Like you, I just want to go back and look at her sweet little face.

Take care, Deborah

Deborah-

Knowing that Charlie will be safe from falling off your deck like Zack did really does make me feel so much better. Nothing will ever take away the pain of losing Zackie so soon and so suddenly, but knowing that his and my tradegy will help save other Yorkies truly takes a little bit of the pain away. I just wish I had known better before this all happened....

Allan

Allan --

Sorry you are still hurting so badly. Hopefully, time will be kind and at least ease your pain sooner rather than later. :love:

OH NOO NOO NOO! You are wrong Allen...you WILL see him again...and when you walk through those gates...be listening, cuz he will be the one barking like mad...he loves you as much now as he did in life. God puts these babies in our lives for a reason, and believe me...when he takes them, it is so hard to understand. I know because I have been in the same place you are. They are our best friends, our most loyal companions. I know the love She-Ra had for me was stronger than any human love. Just take your time, grieve all you need. Talking about memories helps with the pain. I made a memorial of She-Ra and put it in my room. Pics, her sweaters...some hairs from a hairbow, her collar. I know exactly how you are feeling. Yes, the no appetite is normal, the no sleeping is too. But God will heal the hole in due time. Just don't forget you WILL see him again one day...

You are in my thoughts today.


RIP little Zackie boy.

Amanda

Hi again Allan,

I took more photo's in the last 18 months of her than i did when she was younger because she was diagnosed with cancer so i took as many as i could.
The morning we were taking her to the vet for the last time my hubby got a camera out and i told him i didn't want pictures taken..but now i'm so glad i have those even though they still hurt me too much to look at them.
I was able to say goodbye even though it was the most painful thing i have ever had to do and that wasn't possible for you as Zackie was snatched away from you too soon...i think this is why it is probably harder for you right now and the fact that you are blaming yourself which you must not do...accidents do happen and we must learn by them..he did not die in vain..his death is making other dog owners aware of the dangers.
You have your memories and the fact that he was well loved and taken care of, Zackie knows this and he will always be with you..i feel Heidi is around me all the time...and when the house is quiet i'm sure i can still hear all the little noises she used to make to get my attention.
She will always be my special first baby.x

My hurt aches for you also
 

RIP Zack. Thank you for sharing your story. I just got your PM about my Duke. and looked up Zacks story. I it so hard. I am crying as I write you. May God bless both you and your wife. I also hope the pain passing soon. I know I cry every time I see one of Dukes toys or blankets or bowls etc.... I have so many people at work that knew my Duke and I have had to share his loss over and over and I knew they mean well but WOW it hurts.

Many prayers for you all. :rbyorkie: I sure Zack and Duke are playing together. Both without pain now. :fallen:

Allan~ first, let me say how very very sorry I am for your loss. Zach was really a darling little dog and you were so blessed to have him for the short time you did. I can tell he brought you much joy and happiness, and I'm sure you did the very same for him. Know that he knew how much he was loved and had a wonderful life, even if it was so short. There are so many millions of animals who will never know that love.
As far as your grief; cry...and cry often. Think about him and eventually, it won't be so terribly painful and sad. You'll be able to remember all the wonderful things about him with a smile instead of always tears. I know, b/c I lost my Moluccan cockatoo after having him since he hatched and he was 18 yrs old. He was the love of my life and we went thru so much together over the years. It has been just slightly over a year since he passed away (and also from a freak accident that even though I had nothing to do with, the mere fact that I had allowed someone else to take care of him, when I should have known how obstinate he was, still makes me blame myself). The only thing I can tell you is that I still cry almost every day over my birds, but it's a little less now and I can at least talk about them without breaking down every single time. It's amazingly painful, but it's what makes us human and such good pet stewards; that we care so acutely. Don't ever let anyone make you feel silly or anything else for your grief; just let it come out when it needs to. I at least know that now, nothing else can ever happen to them to hurt them and I know that they always knew that I was their person and that I loved them more than anything. I can't even imagine losing Max, so I can imagine just how sad you are. Here are two poems which helped me a little bit and I hope they'll help you too:

"Weep not for me though I am gone into that gentle night
Grieve if you will, but not for long upon my soul's sweet flight.
I am at peace, my soul's at rest, there is no need for tears.
For with your love I was so blessed for all these many years.
There is no pain, I suffer not, the fear now all is gone.
Put now these things out of your thoughts, in your memory I live on.
Remember not my fight for breath, remember not the strife.
Please do not dwell upon my death, but celebrate my life."




"Grieve not,
Nor speak of me with tears;
But laugh and talk of me
As if I was beside you...
I loved you so~
T'was heaven here with you!"
Isla Pachal Richardson