Rosie over the bridge
 

So sorry for the loss of your precious baby. Such a dark moment when you realize that is your only option, but when they rest in peace and don't hurt anymore, you know you made the right decision.

Tony and I watched this video earlier today and we're laughingn so hard. This was soon after we had brought her home and they were clearly still duking it out. Luma was an only dog for a year until Rosie came home with us. Luma was unfriendly at first. She never liked other dogs and would get defensive at dog parks if other dogs came near her. When Rosie came home she was the typical annoying little sister, 1/4 Luma's size but with an even bigger bark and attitude. Believe it or not, somehow they learned to love each other. Sisters and best friends at the end. Luma became so much more friendly after learning how to play with other dogs, thanks to Rosie.

We took Luma to the dog park a few days ago and it was a mess. She was mean to every dog who came near her and we eventually had to leave. She hadn't been like that since before Rosie. It made me sad and I started to cry thinking that with Rosie gone, luma is now back to being a grouch, and I worry that she's unhappy. It truly upsets me. Tonight's just one of those nights...I'm sobbing, heartbroken, lonely, in satisfied, and the only thing that could heal my heart is having my angel back in my arms...almost four months later I am still hurting...Daddy, too. We can't get over this. I can't bring myself to ever get another pet. I don't think I can ever open my heart again to another dog. To everyone who has lost a loved one...I am so sorry For the times I offered my condolences...never truly having experienced a close loss myself, I said the words we are expected to say...but now, NOW I truly understand and there are no words that can heal this terrible pain. I have never lost like I did when Rosie was put to sleep. It changed something inside me forever and I despise it. I can't accept what happened, even now. It seems to be getting harder every day. I can only turn to prayer and ask for God to heal me and restore my faith that some day I will hold my Rosie again.

I've been thinking of you. How are you doing? I'm getting ready to upload pictures of my precious April. Keep me posted.

I still cry for April :(

Thank you for posting this, Carmen. I needed to read this tonight. I completely understand what you are saying. I frequently post on the RIP threads, but haven't truly felt the heartbreak before this week. I have had dogs from my childhood pass, but never a pet that was truly mine. With the tragic passing of my Tiger this week, I feel like my heart has been crushed into a million tiny pieces and I have never felt this type of pain before. I have gone into a depression and cannot picture this pain going away. After reading your post, it sounds like it does not. I have been a zombie at work and have hoped to get the spark back, but I'm not thinking it's going to happen.

Please know that I am here to chat whenever you need...

Carmen, my heart aches for you and Tony, and I do know how you feel.

It has been 6 months since I lost Meika, and I am still not over the horrible end of her life, being poisoned by a toad. I still miss her and think of how I want to run my fingers through her hair and give her kissies one more time, and tears flow on a regular basis.

My whole family has changed, my lil pack of 3 have taken on different roles and personalities, and we are all just doing the best we can.

I am so sorry for all the pain you feel, yet we are all powerless, and just have to make it through this grief somehow. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

I love that video. It gave me such a smile just like when I first saw it. For the first month after losing Minnie I felt similar. How could I ever love another dog? I had nightmares about getting another yorkie that wasn't Minnie (though I was eventually 100% ready, and only then got Cookie). I can't tell you when the sadness will end, as it still makes me cry sometimes a year and a half after Minnie died, though most of my memories of her are happy (I put her in my avatar pic here so I can see her every day). You don't have to apologize for consoling people and not knowing how much it hurts. How could you know without experiencing it? I'm so sorry you do have to know this hurt now. :(

I wish there was something I could say to make things better. With my sadness losing Minnie I just had to keep telling myself to look at the big picture: that I had so many great times with her and how we were so special to each other. I just want to pick her up and hug her and run around with her too. You gave Rosie a great loving home and fought like hell for her. She couldn't have had a better mommy.

Please take care of yourself, Carm. Maybe this sounds crazy, but have you tried exercising more? There was one point of my life where I was extremely depressed, and what fixed it was running and hiking, getting active, upping my energy level. No idea if it could work for you, but I'm just throwing the idea out there because it made me feel way better.

Chris

I'm praying for all of us!!! Regarding our doggies,
 

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I'm praying for all of us! My beautiful April passes away June 19, 2014 @4:00 p.m. :animal-pa!

I had to send my daughter to pick up her paw prints. This has been the hardest time - I have all of Aprils blanket, her toys and nothing can be washed,

I have a good week and then a bad couple of days. I'll send you a Living Love just have tissues, it will take through you the process.

I had April's urn and kiss everyday. I've instructed her ashes to be w/mine. I hope it gets better one day.

However, I'm blessed I have all of you that understands the hurt in your heart.

God be with us durning this rough journey,

April's Mom, yorkie fan, and Michelle, and Sandy...and everyone else who has given me encouragement and can relate to the loss of a pet, thank you so much. I know I'm not alone, and I have to apologize for being so negative as I hate to bring your spirit down with mine as well when I am having a bad day. I'm so sorry. Some people are so strong and can offer so many kind words, and I look up to those people bc I know they are hurting JUST as badly as I am, yet they can handle it so much better than me. We all grieve in different ways. I just want you all to know that the love and support everyone has given me is reciprocated. I think of you all so often. I pray that your little ones are all smiling down on you. I am so grateful to have my YT family...you guys get it. May we all find peace and comfort in the little things and reminders of our angels, from day to day, to get us through such terrible losses. I think YT has a big dog park in the sky and Minnie, Meika, Tiger, April, Rosie and all the other YT bridge babies are playing together until we meet them again.

Thank you, that's so sweet. Don't worry about bringing anyone down. When you're feeling down about losing your baby this is the place to let your pain out so it's not bottled up. I don't know how I would have survived losing Minnie without yorkietalk.

Hugs,
Chris

Carmen, you don't ever have to apologize for sharing your emotions with us.... We are your Yorkie family, and we are all here to support each other.

Grieving the loss of our beloved pets is just really hard, and as we navigate our way through the process waiting for healing, there are days that are worse than others. We all have those, the ones when you don't even want to get out of bed, and you can just cry a river. So we do what ever we need to do, lean on each other and just pray for the sadness to pass. It's ok. It does get better in time, but there will still be those really bad days once in a while.

I do like to think of our pups hanging out together, playing and having fun, and hoping that we will one day we will do the same.... Have happy thoughts and fun.

YOU are never bringing me down!! I'm blessed you feel like me!
 

You are keeping me in check! Thank you because sometimes I think I'm not normal, I know exactly how you feel where your heart just hurts! If I can have one more kiss from my April... If I can touch my baby one more time!

Ahhhhh but I have wonderful YORKIE support group. I can cry, feel sad and maybe one day I won't hurt so much. The wonderful thing is we are together. My husband brought me a doggie a colleague was given away or he was going to take to the shelter. I'm just excepting her and able to hug her. It just takes time. I'm getting closer to upload Aprils pictures. Not yet almost there.

Sending love and peace to all of us for the love of our doggies, :animal-pa

Carmen, I remember that video. Rosie was such a feisty little bunny with a big voice! :D

I am so sorry you are hurting.


{{{{hugs}}}}

I slept with your collar on my wrist like a bracelet last night, sweetie. If I moved my arm it made the bell tinkle and it was like hearing you walk around the house again. I remember buying you this collar...a glittery pink, tiny kitty cat collar with a bell on it so we'd always know where you were. Had to adjust it as small as itd go to fit you. You are on our minds tonight...every night. Missing you so much it hurts.

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I am crying as I write this. Rosie was beautiful and now she is a little angel dog. Yes, the Creator of all our beautiful animals called her to come back to her heavenly home. She was a little love and you gave her a happy home. May you have comfort knowing she was well cared for and is now awaiting you at the gate. Bless you for taking such great care of Rosie. You made the right decision. When a dog is so sick, why prolong that. I had to decide to let my Teddy run back home to heaven. He was 10, had a stomach obstruction. I knew in my heart it was right but oh how I loved him. Life is so tough. I will pray for you and your family.

Rosie,
We put up our Christmas tree last night, 11/17. It's been hard feeling cheerful or excited like I usually am around this time of year. We pulled the decorations out and your stocking was right on top of the box. The thing is bigger than you are. And I just realized I typed are instead of were. It's so hard to believe. But the coldest hardest truth was hanging your ornament on the tree. An ornament we didn't have last Christmas. Last Christmas we had you, romping around with your sister and growling at her and begging us to pick you up. This year we don't have that...only the ceramic ornament we received from the vet. Your tiny pawprints pressed forever into the clay and painted pink. Mommy and daddy both cried last night when we hung it up. We put it near the top, right in front. So pretty and special, but not as pretty and special as you. We hurt so badly missing you. No longer am I excited for Christmas...it hurts too much to even think of taking a Xmas card photo of just Luma again, no Rosie. That's why I can't participate in the YT card exchange this year. I dread each milestone and holiday because I know I'll be missing you and it hurts.

It's almost your birthday. Luma will be three years old on Jan. 3 and you would be turning 2 on Jan 13. I'm sorry you died young. I feel like the ultimate failure. While Part of me knows you were born with illnesses I couldn't possibly prevent I still feel like I let you down by not knowing about them until it was too late. It still upsets me and I try to analyze every detail of how your bloodwork could be perfect at your one year check up and you died four months later. I still feel, some days, like I made a terrible God awful mistake putting you to sleep. You might still be here today. Everyone told me there was barely any chance of improvement, even with all the money in the world, but that's hard to believe when I was so ready to do anything possible to help you live...I was willing to surrender you to rescue because I so badly believed you could make it...but no one else did. I fight with wondering if I let the vets and others make the decision for me. I wanted to try anything. They told me very truthfully that you would suffer further, be away from your family, have many tests, all for it to not help at all. You were so far down the hill and it was terrifying to see you like that. I have nightmares about that night at the ER vet and the next day when you passed. It hurts too much to type any more for now. I do try my best not to wallow but seeing your pawprints in hardened clay is the coldest reality. It's just too much. I hate this.

And if I go while you are still here…

Know that I still live on, vibrating to a different measure

Behind a thin veil that you cannot see through.

You will not see me, so you must have faith.

I will wait there for the time that we can be together again,

Both aware of each other.

Until then, live your life to the fullest.

And when you need me, just whisper my name in your heart,

…I will be there.

Mark this is beautiful.

Again I read your thread, and cry, remembering Oct. 1, 2013 when I held my little girl, crying and whispering in her ear, momma is here and loves you, the tech injected her, ended her pain and her life. A day I will never forget. Although I adopted a little boy soon after (an unplanned adoption) and I love him dearly, my Matese is always on my mind, not a day goes by that I will see something that reminds me of her. I pour all my love for my little girl onto my little boy. Matese will live in my heart forever, just as lil beautiful Rosie will live in yours. I was blessed to have my lil girl in my life, just as you were blessed to have sweet Rosie in yours. Holidays and special occasions are the hardest. Try to find peace knowing lil Rosie is happy, healthy, pain free and waiting for you. (((hugs))))

2-1-12 we pts our most precious Abigail. I know exactly how you both feel and cry for you both (as well as my little girl). We DO love the next one with all the love we can't show Abigail any longer, and the new love we have for our new babies little face. Maybe that's how it's supposed to be - the next ones just get loved more, and then the next more and so on . . .

Carmen, I am so sorry for the pain you still have after losing precious Rosie.

I also completely understand, as I am still struggling with the hole in my heart after losing Meika in March. I can't bear to change my avatar to a picture of my 3 remaining pups.... I still feel like I have 4, only my silly fluff Meika is not here. The sadness continually sneaks up on me and leaves me in tears.

I know time heals, somewhat, but often I just feel like we are never going to get over this. It is painful. So sorry for all the others who have experienced loss too.

I wouldn't change your avatar, Sandy. I love that shot of Meika and the crew. I still keep Minnie in my avatar instead of Cookie since it ensures I can see Minnie every day.

It's been over a year now and the memories are still fresh and sharp as ever. I miss Rosie so much that it makes my whole body ache. I think about her every single day, truly. We still cry for her. Our time together was so short, but it changed her daddy's and my lives. Rosie Wosie my little bug I love you soooooo much. I know you're gone but I somehow still feel you with me. If only you really were.

Aww, Carmen, I know how it feels. I still cry sometimes when I think of Scrappy. It's been almost 3 years already. I don't think you can ever totally get over it. Give Luma extra kisses and hugs.

Carmen it is so hard to lose one of our babies. I know you are still hurting so. Rosie is free of pain at Rainbow Bridge and will forever be in your hearts. I wish I could say it gets easier but I still miss the dogs I have lost in the past. Time does help a little. I agree, give Luma extra hugs. It will be good for both of you. Hugs my friend.

Carmen, your post made me tear up. It is so hard losing a pet, especially so young. It is just not fair.

My heart breaks for you in the deep loss of precious and perfect Rosie. She had a wonderful loving home with you. I know that Rosie is in Heaven, once again whole and happy - free from pain and sickness, waiting to see you again. She is there with all the other YT babies who went before her, including my two babies (October and Peanut). I so look forward to the day when we see them again.

It has been two years since I lost my first Yorkie, October - I still cry in that loss. It is so difficult. Time moves forward - it doesn't necessarily get easier, it just becomes different.

Through tears, I loved reading your story of sweet Rosie. I know she was deeply and genuinely loved. I am so terribly sorry that you lost her, and I know the pain is real and difficult. We all know too well what its like to lose our darlings - no length of time is ever enough with them. But, God has a plan in our suffering. And we will see our babies again. Many thoughts and prayers to you.