Deceased yorkie and Dreams
 

Hi everyone

Not sure if you remember a post of mine in January of this year. When I suddenly lost My Gidget. She was attacked in my yard, and we had to put her to sleep from her massive wounds.

I have had several dreams about her since her death that I want to talk to someone/anyone who might understand. I actually thought about looking for a someone who is a sensitive that could give me some insight, but I wouldn't know who to go to.

my first dream, I was in a strange house but it was "home" I called the dogs in and when I looked down there was Gidget I was excited I started yelling for my husband, "look, look!! its Gidget!! " I ran to her to pick her up and hug her but everything time I tried to to grab her it was hurting her. ( her wounds were the stomach, rump and throat) I couldn't grab her around the waist, I couldn't hug her.

my next dream, was like that dream you have when you are trying to dial a number for help but keep hitting the wrong number, know what I mean?? anyways...I had taken her to the vet and got a call she was ready to come home after her attack..i got there and she was bandaged and hair was growing back where she was shaved for surgery (she did not have surgery nor was she shaved) I kept trying to get her in the car and something would happen, I would get distracted with an erran, or the car would break down and we never made it home.

I had another brief dream where she was around but I still couldn't touch her.

About a month ago, I thought I was ready to move her remains and pics to the dinning room china cabinet and I had a dream where she was angry and mean...so out of character of her..my sister in law suggested that she wasn't ready for the move so I put her back in my bedroom with me.

I just had another dream..she was in my lap and I was unwrapping her bandages, she was completely healed, her hair was back to normal this time and I could finally hug her and hold her.

Gidget and me had a tight bond, that became much tighter a few years ago when she lost her vision in 1 eye in a fight with our other female. she was the most loyal dog I have ever had. she was my best friend and my protector all 12lbs. she would sleep on my feet and sometimes when my husband left early in the morning before it was light out, he would smack my bottom and she was bite the piss out of him...lol she just didn't realize it was him when it happened. she loved us both. in fact the night before the attack we were teasing who she loved more..because she was giving him a bath and she never bathed me. but she was always always by my side and she understood me.

my house was so empty when she was gone, we eventually got another puppy who is a great addition but that home is not the same at all. I miss her so very much, every day I think about her and its been 6 months...

I would love some feed back on these dreams that I had. if someone has had a similar experience, of if there is a sensitive on her that can explain it in more detail to me...
i think the last dream was my closure that i could finally hold her again but i don't understand the others, why i wasn't able to touch her.

thanks for reading

I could really fell your pain over loosing your baby. I don't know the meaning of your dreams but I sense they have a lot to do with how much you are hurting.

I was thinking after I finished your post. My mother had many dreams that foretold the future. My family is from the area of south west Virginia/Eastern Tennessee. Mountains and the fokelore that is from that area. I was thinking how you felt the dreams had a meaning and then I glanced at where you were from! Virginia..i do understand.

I wish you luck in understanding, and in dealing with your loss.

thank you lil sis...i still get emotional often...that song by Miranda lambert OVER YOU..is one of my favorites but now i cry when i hear it


I MISS my dog...

heres gidget

So sorry you're still hurting so bad from your loss of Gidget. It is never easy to lose one so loved, especially tragically. I was always told that if you dream of a deceased loved one, it is because there was something left unfinished. In your case, she was taken away too soon...so obviously the two of you did have unfinished "business". I think you need to take the time and say goodbye to her, tell her you will always love her and miss her very much...she can never be replaced in your heart, although your heart is big enough to love another as well (the new pup). I hope you can find it in your heart to finally have closure. Talk to Gidget...get everything out, I think you'll feel better. Sending you a hug...

hi wemple

i started to tear up reading your post..2 things pop out to me...i don't want to say good bye...but i do talk to her often

the thought of saying good bye is so heart breaking still

thank u

What you went though with Gidget was a traumatic experience. It is hard enough to lose a beloved pet under any circumstances but what you went though was horrible. I feel you are suffering from a form of Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).

Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD): Symptoms - MayoClinic.com

My oldest daughter is suffering from PTSD because of all the brain surgeries she had several years ago and all the horrible things she saw when she was in the hospital. She has finally got professional help and it has helped her a lot.

I don't think you will ever completely get over that tragic day but I pray with time you will do better. Just try to think of the good times you had with Gidget.

I understand, I hurt for you. (((hugs)))

I also agree on top of the missing your dog you may have ptsd. I know you will never forget her, but I hope you find peace.

hi bjh

i never thought of it that way. when i held her after she passed i had never felt so destroyed. i sobbed and sobbed so hard...i just couldn't believe she wasn't gonna make it, and to have to give permission to take her life, my best friends life has been a terrible guilt at times.

i just want her back...

im so happy ur daughter has made progress and is healing

I just know that pain and grief can cause all kinds of dreams. I have them when I'm especially agitated or having problems dealing with ongoing mental anguish. When I am more upset, unsettled or worried about something or in terrible emotional pain from any kind of serious loss in my life, I can dream these kinds of dreams. I dream them where I am often in a very unsettling situation in the dream with the object of the dream and much of what is happening seems beyond me or anything that I can do to effect meaningful change or fix anything. The dreams are often so frightening or upsetting as to wake me during the worst part. I guess it is just the mind dealing even in sleep with the thoughts, frustrations and distress we've had lately in our lives due to a painful situation and since we aren't awake to think more logically, maybe the mind just puts random things together reflecting the angst of the overwhelming or worrying situation. Sometimes during especially bad times in life, the dreams themselves aren't even about the thing or person or loved one I'm worried so about but about some other bad thing entirely. And yet they still seem to reflect or approximate some of the fears and emotions that the real situation in my life has been stirring up. And at times the bad dream will have a very good section like when your baby is healed up and seemingly okay - and then - poof - it's all gone or ends oddly, leaving you awfully torn up that that perfect outcome was there and then just vanished, exposing how vulnerable and out of control of the situation we felt going through it. Maybe your dreams are just your mind still trying to process a tragedy after months of living with the horror of what you went through with your baby, ending in her loss after such a hard and agonizing decision, plus the grief you're still living with, even while asleep, process some agonizing feelings and questions that have been circling around in the brain intensely since the awful event, and these all suddenly surface into a crazy mental lark of the imagination(dream) in the semi-conscious mind while your guard is down and your logic "turned off". That's what I usually chalk mine up to.

Please call me Kathy. There is nothing wrong with not wanting to say goodbye to Gidget, it's only natural. But I feel until you are able to do it...the dreams may continue. She wants to know that you are ok, it's in her nature to worry about your well being. Never forget her, the memories you should cherish, smile through your tears for now, but always smile when you think of her. Again, you went through a horrible ordeal...she doesn't want you to feel bad. She's still loving you, it's only from long distance now...your heavenly angel...your protector...she'll always, always be watching over you.

that makes sense, its almost like im going through the day in slow motion by the dreams breaking the time frame up...first the injury, then the talk of resolving it, and then her passing when she lets me hug her again

Kathy, something about your writing, your posting makes me cry everytime..not in a bad way mind you, it just touches me deeply.

Thank you

Most of us, including me, have lost a beloved pet, even from natural causes it is difficult. I have to admit it was the number one most difficult thing I have ever gone through, and trust me I have lost many loved ones. Smile for me, ok? Even if through your tears, keep smiling. Because eventually, when you think about Gidget...it will be the precious memories and you know what, you'll smile, there will be no more tears.

I am so sorry that your heart still hurts deeply. I do understand,Bunkey was my heart. I would see him out of the corner of my eye frequently after he passed. It has been a little over 2yrs sense Bunkey became very ill and I had to make the same decision. We now have Mina and the two of us are bonding. I still think of Bunkey alot,but the pain is not as much. When I feel like I need to talk about Bunkey,I talk to Mina and tell her how wonderful he was. It seems to help. I hope that time will allow you to bond to your new baby.

That is a very good idea. Share your feelings with your new pup, tell her all about her big sis and how amazing she was!!!:thumbup:

I think your dreams are your way of working thru your grief. After my Dad died, I had so many dreams about him. I still do dream about him but not as often. After my dog Sammy died, I had a rough time. I had a few dreams about him. I still cry for Sammy, sometimes I just tear up and sometimes crying my eyes out. Thank goodness for Yorkie talk. You can come here and everyone here understands and is so compassionate. Talk to us here and talk to your dog too. Just to get the words out is helpful. Sending you a big hug. Valerie

I lost my mom close to my twentieth birthday. We were unusually close, and I still miss and love her so dearly. For about twenty years I dreamed of her daily, and I still dream about her, just not as much. I know the love we shared still sustains and helps me through all the tough times in my life. My little ones at the Rainbow Bridge remain deep inside my heart also. I lost my last little one three years ago a month before her seventeenth birthday. We had a wonderful life with Ashley and her sisters, but it was so hard to give her and them up. They will always be a part of us, and although it still hurts a lot, we talk about them a lot, and our hearts warm immensely and the memories make us smile. I am so sorry for your loss. Time helps, and so will your new pup. After two lonely years without a pup in our lives, Katie joined our family. She brought life and puppy love back into our lives, and we completely adore her. I wish you peace and also much love, laughter, and health with your new pup.

I'm very sorry about the loss of your little Gidget. I wrote a post about my experience with John Edwards, the psychic - I think the title was "there is an afterlife for our pets" something like that. I was picked our of the audience for a reading concerning my son. At the end he said there was a little chirpy little dog with my son - something like a yorkie. I was shocked. That was darling little Gina. Please try to find my post as there were so many replies that helped the people replying. Again, I' so sorry about your loss.

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It is very difficult to let go of things in this life. I do believe there is a home in heaven and when I lose a precious pet I hand him back to Jesus knowing that little life is back with his Creator. One day I will go there and hope to hear barking and see my little fur friends greeting me. Until then, He sees every tear I cry and knows the pain and will send me comfort as the days go by. I have little decorated stones in my backyard and I go out there and just sit and think and that helps me a lot. I talk to them and to the Lord about life and how thankful I am to have loved my sweet dogs.

I just wanted to say thank you for your support, understanding, compassion and experiences that your are sharing with me.

I have had a few dreams about Minnie since she died in May. One of them she just wanted to go outside and so I let her in back and we started running together in the yard. I had another where I woke up just incredibly sad and knew I had just had a really bad dream about her, but I'm glad I don't remember a single thing about it. I just know it was the saddest I had ever woken up. They seem like they have alternated half & half between happy dreams where we just did our daily routine and sad dreams where I just felt helpless to do anything (she had huge kidney problems and we just fought day to day to make sure she was really hydrated at all times).

Sorry if I don't have any idea how to give you closure on your dreams though. It's really terrible to have no control when your best friend is in such a dire situation. I'm not sure there is anything any of us can do to ever get rid of that feeling. It just comes with the territory of truly loving someone.

I don't have answers for you but sending many hugs!

thanks for the hugs

My heart aches for you. :( I had dreams when my Stuart died suddenly. I don't remember them now as it was 8 years ago now. I went to a therapist after a really hard break up when I was having crazy vivid dreams and tried to talk to her about them, she told me that your dreams are really what you think they are. They are only correctly interpreted by you specifically. ((HUGS)) to you!

Last night I actually had a dream where Cookie and Minnie were playing together with me. Know it could have never happened in real life though, as Minnie was extremely dog aggressive.

I have been struggling with some recent losses and today someone posted this on Facebook...it really touched me. Thought I would share it. Oh...and btw...I had a pup years ago who I was extremely close to...I talked to him daily and asked him for a sign that he was ok...I got it! It was not my imagination...matter of fact the way he communicated with me was through another pup and he did it with two other people who also loved him...my son and my friend. I know they watch over us...that one convinced me of it! I wish you peace ...

I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying...you found it hard to sleep.

I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear.
"It's me, I haven't left you...I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."

I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea.
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.

I was with you at the shops today, your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.

I was with you at my grave today, you tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you that I am not lying there.

I walked with you toward the house, as you fumbled for your key,
I gently put my paw on you. I smiled and said, "It's me."

You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know that I was standing there.

It's possible for me to be so near you every day.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."

You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew...
In the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.

The day is over...I smile and watch you yawning
And say, "Goodnight, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."

And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and we will stand, side-by-side.

I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out...then come home to be with me.

-Author Unknown

That was touching...I feel my lost pup with me many times throughout my days...just wish I could hold him.

Tammy, your baby was precious. I'm so sorry that you lost her especially the way you did.

Linda, that verse was so touching it brought tears to my eyes.